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I want to go to sleep and not wake up I don't want to go through this pain anymore the pain is officially too much

I'm such a piece of shit mother I always knew I would be how is new at some point I wouldn't be there for my daughter and she'd be somewhere else and I wouldn't be with her fact that it actually came true and I'm living it now and I'm without my daughter just seen her get so big and not being able to see her and not because I did anything wrong but because my grandmother doesn't want to drive the extra 15 minutes here it hurts so much I'm fucking I lost everything I lost my house I lost my car I live in a God damn tent I'm homeless I'm hungry tired I just wanted you and my daughter so much tonight everything and everyone around me you really learned out fucking two-faced they are when you hit rock bottom and they don't need to impress you anymore they know they can't get anything from you anymore I hate what I am I hate we can go every morning knowing that I'm not in the person I want to be because I can't get my head straight my fucking depression is killing me then I wouldn't have asked me did fulfill the death and died and was at peace they bring me back I hate every one of them from the bottom of my heart I hate them all I was at peace and they brought me back I hate living knowing that I'm not there for my daughter is the ultimate punishment and for what I do not know because all I have is suffered my entire life I have never thought of myself and I hate it

Im so tired why did I keep going when I knew he would just be the death of me. The first time our eyes met something felt found. Than when we where right next to one another I felt home and I didnt even know him. We where together more and more I fell inlove so fucking fast I knew he was broken I knew he easly embraced his dark side yet I ignored everything in me screaming to stop before he destroys u completely. But he is my one and I wanted to be there for him but he didnt need me or want the real me and last night I found out how right I was when he hit me over the head with a bike rim and left me bleeding in the road over his abusive evil ex. I feel alone , empty, shattered, lost. Worst of all I miss him and still love him completely

I feel so beaten down by love. Being with the one i love is amazing i feel at home with him but I feel he is just passing time with me. Love shouldnt feel like a home where rooms r locked and parts kick u out. Love hurts so fucking much. I wish everyone would stop trying to hurt me and turn me against him i have enough insecurities from my past that make me see hear notice every fucking thing. I know he isnt the people who hurt me in my past and im trying so hard fates am i but i dont want this love to end and be alone missing him again

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Distance is my new answer to disrespect. I no longer react, I no longer argue, I no longer dive into drama. I simply remove my presence.

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Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word.

— George R. R. Martin

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“I won’t say it wasn’t meant to be, because it was. We were. Only for a short while, maybe. But we were.”

— Unknown

Feel like im being taking for a fool over and over by harley

Sitting with the two men I love and one wont kiss me or even touch me or even fucking look at me and cause if that i feel bad to ve affectionate to the one that will. My heart hurts so fucking bad right now i want to fucking cry. I love them both so fucking much and want so bad to be able to fall asleep between them both.

If you love someone you dont look everywhere for them cheating, deceiving you and find it in everything. Then fighting with them and calling them horrible names, hurting them verbally just completely destroying them. You dont love someone if you never allow them time alone, freedom, happiness, peace. You dont love someone if you try and turn everyone against the person u say u love. Love is being there for one another, love is wanting to learn their past and grow together. Love is communication. Love is a smile love is a laugh, love is feeling home in their arms. Love is just being there for them when they need a shoulder. When u love someone u will find urself needing to touch them whether its holding hands, hand on lap, holding a finger just something small makes u feel secure, love is feeling happy, content, appreciated, wanted, needed, accepted, safe. Love is seeing the person u love sad, unwell, defeated, unappreciated, used and u feel the need to hold them and tell them they are worth everything and u love them for ever and always. Love is not pain, hatred, suspicion, fighting

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I have two men in my life ok now here is the fun part i love them both but only one is mine the other is in a toxic relationship. I make sure both are happy, i listen to them, i show both effection one not in kisses or hugs but emotional, I feed them both, i worry so much about them. I want them both to be mine. I want to hug and kiss and just drowned them in love. They both have never been shown simple kindness like the small shit i do like just bring them water or wipe their forehead when they r sweating they think is like omg wow she is so nice. And im like what is was just instinct. Harley and billy are my not my boys lol well harley is mine billy is not :(. Billy is dating a horrible evil skank for the past 7 years and he knows all the shit she has done and still will not think of himself and leave her. They have been fighting so so so much lately and billy is losing himself he looks sick, depressed, tired and old. I want to cuddle him so bad and tell him to fucking stop I will give u the love u need. I can love harley and billy and make them happy.

I met someone out here. He's 4 years younger than me but we get along really well. I act like a needy brat towards him and I hate it. I never act clingy but I want his attention and person with me like all the time. He hasnt asked me to be his gf yet and my depression and hate for myself get the best of me im so fucking scared this will be like every other time and im just fun for him. Im so tired of wishing for someone to love me back truly. I want to make him happy his smile is amazing. We both r fucked up and im hoping he would be willing to get better together. I think him and my daughter would get along and my daughter will always come first no matter how much I love someone I would never do what my mom did to me. But I like pretty much everything about him so far the things I don't like idk how to go about asking him to stop. If we get super serious I dont want to lose him.

God I hate my life. The people I want around and have fun with chill with I cant cause it causes problems. The people I dont want around make shit worst. I just want one person I can relate to one person I can be real with one person to fight beside me with me. One person who wont lie cheat or destroy what's already broken inside. Im so empty it hurts

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