I recovered, then I didnât and now Iâm back
Itâs been a few years since I was active on the proED scene on tumblr, and honestly I have so many thoughts. At the ripe old age of 20, having been here since I was 14, I now view myself as somewhat of an elder, here to share my wisdom collected over many years. Categorized it as meanspo if you want, it probably will be. So here goes:
- If youâre fighting for your life to get down to a BMI of over 18/19 youâre doing it so fucking wrong. Honestly it isnât hard.
- The more you complicate it, the more youâll struggle. Yâall will be out here counting every little KJ and still plateau at 19 bmi??? 𤥠If youâre intentionally obsessing over your food, guess what youâll think about? Food. And then youâll binge because youâre an idiot
- Working out will never negate food. If you could choose between walking for five hours and eating two muffins, or just sit on your bed and do nothing, what would you choose? Because choosing the first option will honestly just be worse than staying in bed. Stop finding excuses to eat, itâs the exact same thing fat people do.
- Fasting for three days, losing control, binging and fasting for another three days is 10 times worse than just eating 500 calories every day, forever. But because you all are short sighted and gluttonous, thatâs just something you ignore. Youâll post about how amazing it feels to go days with no food and how starving is euphoric, while filling up on 2000 calories and negating all your work and crying about plateauing
- Youâll never be thinspo. Learn to separate fact from fiction, and media from reality. Itâs posed, usually edited and perfectly angled and lighted. As someone who has had their photo used as thinspo before, I can honestly admit that that is still not how I looked. Itâs curated. Itâs a lie. At least aim for reality or else youâll never find peace.
Ok bullying over, hereâs my advice:
- Nicotine is your best fucking friend.
- Donât overthink it. The one thing body positivity got right is that all bodies are different. What I need to function differs from what you need, no matter size. Donât focus on eating a calorie limit. A set limit will cause two things: Overthinking and focus on food, which just isnât comfortable, and excessive eating, because youâll with no doubt eat to fill your limit or say âeh, I can eat some more because I still have some calories leftâ.
- Just donât eat. Lol. I know itâs exactly what youâre trying to do, but youâre probably skipping the âjustâ part. Think of it like this: how easy is it to drink too little water? Itâs literally one of the most important things for your existence, but is so easily ignored. Thatâs what weâre trying to do with food. Why donât you drink water for fun? Thereâs no enjoyment. Remove joy from food. Eat food that isnât that tasty, when you need to have snacks to blend in, have mid range snacks, so you wonât miss it. You donât schedule water, or count how much youâve had, you just donât think about it.
- Measure, donât weigh. Itâll give you a better representation of fat loss instead of fluctiation.
- Your period doesnât indicate shit. I was 14 BMI and got pregnant.
- The best way to body check is using tight clothes. Ideally ones you donât actually use and not wash. Nothing feels better than the waistline on those pants sitting loose on a waist that used to stretch them.
- Figure out your body. Personally, I donât need to eat until around 17.00, but then I NEED to eat, and am prone to binging. We usually have dinner later here, so Iâll have a small meal around 14.00 - 17.00, an apple or something. Savory foods increase my appetite, bitter foods decrease, sweet has no particular effect. I shouldnât eat after 21.00, then itâll be too easy to overeat. Once you know these things, and just implement them as a routine, things will ve so much easier.
Alrighty Iâm done. Have a terrible day
