I’m leaving
Hey everyone. Yeah the title isn’t a trick or a joke. I’m leaving tumblr. Tumblr has been very helpful to me in a lot of ways, especially getting private messages from antis, MAPs, and bystanders in between and talking to them about why so much hate exists between us all. I’ve (surprisingly) changed a lot of opinions, and I’ve made some opinions only stronger I think. But I’ve discovered that the only reason I stayed here for so long was because I was spiteful at the anti community for promoting the suicide of MAPs, including teenagers, for issuing death threats, and for the general misinformation (or outright lies) spread about us. It wasn’t about positivity for MAPs. It was about my own anger. Eventually I realized that I was no longer mad at the anti community, because I could feel the hurt and anger behind their actions as well. This was especially true after some of them (that I am sure are much younger than me) tried so hard to find out where I lived, so hard to crush me. That kind of hate comes from a place of sadness and fear. But I refuse to entertain them anymore. And I know that in another world where I wasn’t a pedophile, I may very well have been an anti too. I cannot both hate and feel empathy for antis without losing a sense of purpose in it all. And even after I came to this realization, I still didn’t leave... because of my pride. After all, if I left then the antis won right? They chased me off. But I know that’s just not the case. I’m way more stubborn that that. I’m leaving because I respect myself more than I hate them. My family has watched me slowly deteriorate mentally, and I know it makes them sad. And they know why. They know all about the anti community (those that know I’m a MAP), and they too will also be happier when I’ve left. For their sake and my own, I am swallowing my pride. I’m leaving my account open for one week, so that anyone who wants to keep in touch with me can send me a PM. We can exchange other contacts if you like. But I won’t be reblogging. So antis...lol throw yourselves a party. I’ll bring the booze (unless you’re underage...you will then get a capri sun). And MAPs you can join in too. Life’s just too short to stay this mad. Stay positive.