Description: You’re spider-man’s closest thing to a friend since the world forgot his name. Helping him with gadgets, cleaning his wounds…all without him ever taking the mask off. His true identity has always been a barrier between you two, but what happens when he gets hit with the pollen, and not only him, but the creature lurking inside him fixates on the only person he gets to call home?
Tags/warnings: sex pollen smut, fem!reader, porn with plot, whiny desperate peter >>>, dry humping, piv, riding, oral fem!rec, fingering, dark!peter taking over for a bit, orgasm denial, prone bone, so much yearning, mask stays on…or does it?
Note: You have no idea how giddy it makes me to write him again. He had NO business looking that good in the movie so I had to get this out of my system. Enjoy 🤍
Masterlist
You've seen spiderman hurt many times. When you signed the lease of the first apartment you could afford as a recent graduate, you never thought that would become your new normal.
The first time it happened was completely accidental. He’d arrived at the building in the middle of the night, bruised, bleeding and too disoriented to realize that the window he’d come through was not his.
That night, the noise of a heavy body collapsing onto the floor woke you up. For one terrifying moment, you believed someone had broken into your apartment, only to switch on the lamp and find the city’s superhero groaning and pressing his hands to his side. His suit was torn there, and blood soaked through the ruined fabric onto your rug.
He barely lifted his head when he heard you gasp, the lens of his mask focusing on your figure standing there with wide eyes, wearing only an oversized shirt.
“Wrong window,” he choked, then tried to hold himself up but immediately collapsed again. “Dammit,” he cursed, waiting for you to freak out any second now.
You could have, but instead you rushed to him and knelt beside him.
“Oh my god, are you okay?” Your hands hovered helplessly over his body, trying to see how bad the damage was in the dark. “You need a hospital–”
“No!” He snapped, trying to turn away but failing miserably. “I’ll be fine, I heal quickly.”
“You still need to stop the bleeding,” you countered, folding your knees under your body so you could rest on your calves. “Listen, I can help you. I took some medical courses last year and I have a kit somewhere.”
You looked at him with pleading eyes. He’d saved the city so many times, the fucking world, it was the least you could do to give something back.
He considered his options for a second, and to be honest he didn’t have many. His body was betraying him, and he couldn’t even get up to fix it himself like usual.
The blood loss made him nod, and you wasted no time in getting up and finding said kit. The blood loss also made him drift in and out of consciousness as you tended to the wounds on his ribs as much as you could.
It did not make him less cautious of you though. When you noticed the rip on his mask over a nasty gash on his neck and reached for it, his hand closed around your wrist and even half conscious, his grip was strong.
“Please,” he whispered. Pleaded. “Keep it on.”
The fear in his voice made you promise you would. Even if you couldn’t get to that gash properly. Even when he fell asleep on your floor and didn’t wake up for six whole hours.
The next morning, he opened his eyes and found you sitting on your bed, still staring at him.
His hands patted his chest, and confirmed his arachnid powers had done its job and healed him mostly. But most importantly, his mask was still in place. With no warning from E.V of it being removed. He learned that you’d spent the night making sure he was still breathing without seeing his face.
That had been one year ago.
After thanking you profoundly for helping him, he’d repaired your window, apologized several times, and disappeared into the apartment next door. He then considered moving into another building, but the thought was brushed away very quickly when he remembered the balance in his bank account.
So he acted more careful instead. For a while, he only turned back home when your curtains were already closed, or he only left the apartment when you had already left for your job (because yes, he absolutely researched the hell out of you after that night.)
Then he moved to the attic of the building. Bigger space, no neighbors, no risks. No you. Or at least he thought.
Because some nights…some delirious nights he still found your window a few stories down, and the accidental visits became less accidental. When he was too badly injured to care for himself, he came to you, even after you confessed your degree had nothing to do with medicine.
When he noticed you understood about his equipment malfunctioning, he’d bring it for you to inspect. When he became too reckless with himself you talked his ear off about how being difficult to kill did not make him immortal.
Somewhere along the way, you became spiderman’s friend.
Spiderman was safer. With you, spiderman was the only part of him he could let you see. Because that was the thing, you only knew the masked superhero.
He’d spent so much time blocking away his identity, making peace with the fact that there was no longer anyone in the world who would call him Peter and know exactly who that person was. That name only belonged to the people that once knew him, and no longer existed, so he never gave it to you.
Never showed you more than a sliver of skin when his mask rode up or glimpses of his abdomen when you tended to his wounds. He always kept that barrier and you respected it, even on those nights he was too weak to stop you. Even if sometimes not knowing the color of his eyes kept you up at night.
A promise was a promise.
Maybe that’s why he kept coming. Why he trusted you with a certainty he couldn’t understand. Why he eventually showed you his new living quarters in the attic and let you spend time with him. Why half a year ago, he added another chair next to his desk so you could work together, or help him when he was out patrolling and needed an extra set of eyes.
“I’m officially the girl in the chair, spidey,” you joked that time as you sat next to him, spinning around in your chair.
He’d gone quiet immediately, his body tensing up enough to make you frown, but then managed a small smile and said you were. You pretended you didn’t notice him being too quiet as he worked on his inhibitor after that.
He was wearing a hoodie, sweatpants and the mask. Always the mask that didn’t quite let you see through him. After a moment of quiet, you rolled your chair closer to his and nudged his arm playfully.
“You know I can’t keep calling you spidey forever, right?”
He snapped out of his trance, and the chuckle that came from under the fabric was unmistakable.
“Why not?” He nudged your arm back, but still focused on the device he was hunched over. “I like spidey.”
You put your elbow on the desk, resting your cheek on your hand so you could lean a little closer.
“I like it too, but it feels ridiculous after having my hands all over your body almost every night.”
The moment the words left your lips, you realized how bad that sounded. He straightened up, turning toward you.
“Wow.” Even if you couldn’t see the smile on his face, the lenses of his mask were quite expressive sometimes. He was amused.
“That came out very wrong,” you said immediately, before he bursted into laughter. He had been laughing more since you entered his life. “You know what I meant,” you whined, laughing too with heat flooding your cheeks.
“I think I know,” he chuckled, making you roll your eyes.
“I’m being serious though,” you added, a little more quietly. “You don’t have to say your real name. Just give me something.”
“Mmm…” he acted like has considering it, going back to tinkering with the piece of metal between his fingers, but then his eyes drifted to the flowers he’d bought that morning, and the name came out of his lips before he could think twice about it. “You can call me Maynard.”
“Maynard?” You repeated, suppressing a chuckle. “You don’t sound like a Maynard. That’s like an 80 year old man’s name.”
“That’s all I can give you,” he shrugged playfully.
You had a feeling it went deeper than that, but you’d also learned not to push it with him.
“Alright. Maynard,” you nodded, “but don’t expect me to use that name unless you’re dying. Guess I’ll stick to spidey for now,” you chuckled, going back to your own work as he hummed in agreement.
The conversation ended there. With him trying not to think about your hands all over his body in…different conditions.
Peter didn’t know exactly when his gratitude became longing. He could not identify the moment the friendship, the closeness, or just your smile, shifted into something he craved everyday.
Despite the mask and the fake name, he knew that after years of being no one to everyone, he had become someone to you. And you had become everything to him. Even if it was behind walls he’d built, you were the person who knew him better than anyone alive.
Which is why, the night he lost control of himself after an unknown dust was thrown at him in a fight, he chose not to crash land into your room.
Peter hit the floor of the dark attic with a loud thud, as his senses went overboard. His suit was sticking to his body uncomfortably due to the sweat coating his feverish skin. The fabric was intact, with no visible wounds in his body, just that burning sensation of something running through his veins.
And that dark part of him he’d managed to lock down with the inhibitor, trying to claw its way out.
“What the…what the fuck is going on,” he cursed, clutching his heaving chest as he panted against the worn wood floors. “I can’t–I can’t breathe…”
The computer’s monotone voice broke through the silence.
“You have arrived injured. I’m letting her know–”
“NO!” He cut the AI off, “EV, don’t tell her–”
“Message already sent.”
He glanced up at the digital clock on his desk. 2:18 am.
He groaned, grabbing his head when a wave of migraine hit him. He knew what came after that. The black eyes. The desire to break. To take. But this time something felt different. It was like a pull, looking for something or someone…for…for you?
Oh fuck.
You were going to come in and you were going to see him like this. No, no–
“Spidey?” You asked from behind the door, knocking exactly twice before opening it anyways.
The air changed the exact moment you walked in, and that something inside him shifted too. It became aware that the only thing it craved to survive was in the room now.
He needed to get to you. He needed to pin you down and–
“Don’t!” He managed to scream, holding his hand up weakly when you scrambled toward him.
You stopped right in your tracks, eyes wide and running all over him, searching for torn fabric, blood, or anything that would explain why he looked like every breath was painful.
“What happened?” You frowned, when you couldn’t find any source. “Did you get hurt?”
You instinctively stepped forward, but he waved his hand in front of him again.
“Stop, stop, stop,” he said quickly, “don’t come any closer.”
The harshness in his voice caught you off guard, but what sealed the deal was him dragging himself further away from you. It was barely more than a clumsy, desperate crawl, but he managed to put a decent distance between you before collapsing against the side of his thrifted couch.
He avoided looking at you. The oversized shirt covering your body, the comfy shorts you were probably wearing, the way your hair looked messy from rolling out of bed as soon as you got EV’s warning even if you had work the next morning.
You stayed right where you were, watching him. His suit had always fit him like it was painted on his skin, but every pant made his chest rise and fall beneath the fabric so violently that you wouldn’t be surprised if it ripped at the seams.
This reminded you too much of the changes that happened in him months ago.
It started with a sharpened temper, then the heightened sensitivity to everything, the black covering his eyes, and moments during patrol when his reactions became simply frightening for someone who had as much strength as he did. But you were supposed to have stopped it.
“Is it the inhibitor?” You asked, crossing your arms over your chest, “is it failing?”
“I–I don’t know…I was hit with some dust out there,” he breathed. “I think it’s tampering with it…my head is killing me. Everything is too much.”
You nodded, turning toward the workstation.
“I will check the programming. Just hold on.” Not your best attempt at reassuring him, but he groaned in acknowledgment.
“EV?”
The computer woke when you touched the keyboard, illuminating the dark attic in a wash of blue light.
“Online.”
“Please run a diagnostic on the inhibitor and any possible interference.”
“Beginning diagnostic.”
You waited impatiently for the results, tapping your fingers on the desk while you watched him from the corner of your eye.
Over there, he…he was doing his best trying to breathe.
This obviously wasn't his first time having sensory overload. When the animal tried to take over the human part of him, everything in the city became impossible to escape. Not a single movement, or sound, or simple existence within miles was unnoticed by him.
But this time? The rest of the city had disappeared. There were no sirens in the distance, or voices coming through the walls, or every heartbeat in the building pounding in his head.
There was only you.
Your rapid heartbeat echoing inside him. He felt every tap of your fingers against the wood, every slight catch in your breathing each time he made another involuntary and pathetic sound from his spot on the floor.
Your scent…God, your scent filled the entire apartment.
The scent he found himself coming back to so often that it scared him. He didn’t want the attachment. The possibility of having someone again only to risk losing them again.
That same scent was making every muscle in his body react in a way he didn’t understand. It made him, and the other him, wanna do things to you he had only dreamed of in his wildest fantasies. Things he wasn’t proud of, things he wouldn’t dare to say out loud, even if he looked at you through the lenses of his mask and you couldn’t see the black in his eyes.
He pressed the back of his head against the couch harshly.
This was wrong. So wrong.
His senses were supposed to consume everything when the change came. Instead, they had fixed themselves entirely on you.
He could feel the heat of your body from across the room as though you were still in front of him. Could remember with sickening detail how soft your hands looked when they reached for him. Could almost feel the burn of the touch that had never landed because he stopped you.
What if he’d let you? What if he’d felt the way your hands ran all over his body? What if you’d moved them lower, and lower, as your mouth–
“Diagnostic complete.”
Your heads snapped toward the screen.
“There’s no external damage affecting the integrity of the device. I detected a foreign biotoxin in the bloodstream that may be bypassing the inhibitor, activating the suppressed arachnid hormones.”
“What biotoxin?” You frowned.
“Unknown. No matches found in available databases.”
Great. He thought. He had no time to take a bath with Yelena Belova to find out what the stupid dust was.
Tiny, microscopic potato, she would say.
The screen changed, displaying a model of his nervous system. There were yellow bright lines pulsing quickly, running all the way from the base of his brain down the length of his spine. Something unknown was moving through his blood, altering the part of him he had spent months forcing into submission.
He sucked in a breath as he watched you read the screen. Your eyes were focused, and a bead of sweat made its way down the side of your forehead.
He suddenly felt the need to lick it off.
Wanted to run his tongue from the base of your neck to the back of your ear. Wanted to fist your hair and make your heart beat out of your chest from how good he knew he could make you feel–
“The effects remain within his enhanced tolerance. However, prolonged exposure to certain hormones can cause extreme distress without relief.”
“What hormones?” Your voice, worried and unknowing of his thoughts only made him feel guiltier.
It took him a second to realize what you asked, but EV threw him under the bus before he could say anything.
“There’s a significant rise in reproductive hormones. The unknown toxin is inducing a strong mating response in him.”
Mating response. He stopped breathing.
Your eyes slowly moved from the monitor to him, and he saw the moment your attention dropped lower to the tent of his pants.
That suit concealed nothing on a good day. On one like this? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck–
He shifted almost immediately, but the movement only worsened the pressure, pulling a helpless groan from his throat that made your pulse jump. You looked away at once, turning back to the computer.
“Is there a way we can…umm…stop it?” You asked hesitantly.
“The subject is experiencing severe sexual arousal with a fixation on a nearby individual,” she explained, because fuck him if he wasn’t the unluckiest individual on earth. “Acting upon it can be a positive option to relieve sexual tension.”
He wished the floor would open beneath him, swallow him, and never ever EVER spit him back out again.
Your pulse was absolutely hammering after that. He caught the sudden change in your scent. There was a sharp spark of surprise, nervousness, and something else beneath it that his altered senses fed on immediately.
You kept your eyes fixed on the monitor, although the data had stopped meaning anything the moment you heard fixation on a nearby individual.
“Is that what you really feel?” You asked softly after a moment.
His head fell forward, catching it between his gloved hands. He didn’t know how to answer without making everything worse.
Although, after what EV said, could it really be worse?
“…Yes.” The word came out rougher than he expected. Yet still not enough for what was happening inside him. “It’s like…I can only feel you. All of you.”
Heat rose to your face once again.
“What does that mean?”
Don’t say anything, don’t–
“I can smell you.” Great start, idiot. He cleared his dry throat before continuing. “I can smell your shampoo…the lotion you use…the ink on your hands from your favorite pen.”
He chose not to mention he could also smell the adrenaline on you. The heat gathering slowly beneath your skin.
Your eyes dropped to your hands, and under the dim light of the computer, you caught the ink stains in them from your journaling session before bed.
“I can hear your heartbeat changing every time I speak,” he added. Okay, that one slipped out.
You swallowed. And god, he felt that in his own throat.
The suit was suffocating him at this point. He wanted to rip it off as much as he wanted to rip off the fabric covering the goosebumps on your skin.
“Is it only because I’m nearby?” You asked, gathering the courage to turn your chair to him.
White lenses met you across the room. He dragged in another shaky breath of oxygen made of you as he thought about his next words. He could’ve lied. He should’ve lied. But instead, chemically overwhelmed and stripped of every defense he possessed, he gave you the truth.
“No.”
His voice was firmer this time. No hesitation in it despite the thousand red alarms pounding in his head telling him to shut up.
“It picked you–no, I picked you for a reason,” he added. “And it’s not just me. The other…the other me wants you too.”
His voice went lower on the last part, that told you how much it cost him to admit that.
The silence following his confession was heavy. For a moment he wished he could read your mind. For all he could feel of you, your thoughts were unreachable.
His own mind was a mess. The impulses didn’t feel like thoughts anymore, just his body feeding him instructions.
Get up. Cross the room. Touch her. Breathe her in.
His palms shook with the urge to close around you. His teeth ached with the need to graze your skin. His eyes burned with the desire to see beyond fabric.
Every part of him seemed convinced that the small distance between you was a mistake he needed to correct. That he needed to breathe you in until his lungs burned. Drag his mouth along the inside of your wrist and taste the pulse there.
He hated it.
He hated that something inside him could look at the person he cared for the most and reduce her to an answer for his pain.
“EV, how long is this state going to last?” He asked the computer, followed by a weak cough as he clutched his side.
“Your enhanced physiology is struggling to break down the toxin’s structure. I estimate a time between ten to twelve hours before it’s metabolized. However, neurological collapse is expected before that timeframe.”
“What?” You looked at him. “There’s no way we’re letting that happen. Maybe I can–”
“Don’t even start,” he cut you off, shaking his head profusely.
“So what? I’m supposed to sit here betting on whether your body collapses on hour three or hour six?”
“I’ll just pass out, big deal. I’m not putting you in danger because of this. I can handle it.”
“You’re barely handling it now. There’s no danger in trying–”
“You don’t understand what’s happening inside me right now,” he argued, raising his voice. “This other thing, the one the inhibitor controls it’s…awake. That part of me doesn’t think like I do. It doesn’t care if you're scared, or hurting–”
“You wouldn’t hurt me–”
“You don’t know that!” He snapped, his fist struck the floor next to him, hard enough to make the worn wood crack beneath his knuckles.
The sudden noise made you flinch. He smelled the flash of fear moving through your body for only a second.
One second enough.
“Fuck–that is what I mean,” he cursed, covering his lenses with his hands. “I don’t…I don’t know if I’d be gentle. I can’t risk this, I can't…shit, I can’t risk you.”
The words, said with so much pain, and honesty, seemed to settle somewhere deep in your chest.
“Okay,” you nodded, settling deeper in your chair. “But I’m not leaving you like this. I can’t risk you either.”
He shuddered a painful exhale. His head dropped to the couch again, shutting his eyes in preparation of what the next hours of torture would be.
Except…he didn’t even last ten minutes.
The suit was killing him, so he decided he’d be better without it. He reached desperately behind his back, clumsily undoing the zippers that tied the suit together.
He could feel your wide eyes on him as he tugged the fabric off his shoulders, peeling it off his sweaty arms. He groaned when he lifted his hips and the suit grazed his swollen crotch. In a matter of seconds that felt like eternity he managed to break free from the spandex, and threw it away somewhere in the room. He’d undressed down to his dark boxers, mask still in place, revealing the marble sculpture of his body.
You let out a shaky breath from your spot, eyes raking over a body you’d only seen partially. He was covered in wounds most of the time, but this time, he only had faint bruises from the night before decorating his chiseled abs.
His tight muscles flexed with every rise of his chest, his bulge straining harder the more you devoured him, pressing against his pants, making him curse quietly.
You noticed, and returned your eyes to the screen to track his vitals.
He felt grateful that you’d given him that grace, but just you being in that room made it very hard for him to think of anything other than your existence.
Too hard.
Before he knew his hand drifted down the growing ache in his crotch, trying to feel some relief, but every rub he made over the fabric of his boxers sent a jolt of pain through his body instead of pleasure.
It only made it worse when he realized you were tense at the desk, trying very hard to keep your focus on the screen and not on the whines he was letting out.
“…I’m sorry,” he apologized instantly, breathlessly, moving his hand away. “I didn’t–”
“Don’t apologize,” you shook your head quickly, eyes still on the screen. “You…you can do whatever you need.”
He didn’t say anything, just whined in pain again, so you took it as a chance to say it before you regretted it.
“But my offer still stands, spidey.”
What a polite way of saying ‘I’d let you fuck me into next week so you can control your horny arachnid hormones, spidey.’
Fucking hell.
“I’m okay I just–God I didn’t–I didn’t think it would feel this way…” He laughed humorlessly, staring at the ceiling. “But I–I got this. Yes.”
You kept quiet, hearing him mumble to himself about a hundred times about how he had this.
“I’m okay…I’m good…it’s fine…”
He wasn’t.
“Fuck I don’t…I’m going to die…”
For God’s sake.
“I think I can help.”
By the time he registered the words and looked back at you, you had already moved from your chair and shortened the distance between you, kneeling in front of him.
His senses went from one thousand to one million. He forced his hands behind his back, trying to keep the animal from grabbing you and getting it over with.
“What–what are you doing?” He stammered nervously, the lenses of his mask going wide.
“Maynard,” you said quietly, ignoring the way his body tensed up at that name. “Would it make you feel better if I put my hand here?”
You placed your hand right in the center of his chest, and your cold palm met his overheated skin. He gasped, feeling every individual fingerprint on his skin. He wanted them marked on him. Tattooed.
His back arched from the couch, with a strangled gasp breaking from beneath the mask. The relief hit him all at once, through a simple contact that felt like salvation.
Your hand steadied him for only a glorious second, but now that you had touched him, his body knew precisely what it had been denied.
It wanted more.
His own hand closed around yours so suddenly that you almost pulled back, but he loosened his grip the instant he realized how tightly he was holding you.
“Sorry–”
“Don’t apologize.” You pressed harder.
He was burning.
The heat beneath your palm scared you, but what scared you more was the violent pounding of his heart beating against your hand so so quickly.
“Better?” You asked quietly, trying not to bite your bottom lip at the image of him crumbling under your palm.
“So fucking better,” he said breathlessly, pressing your hand tighter against his chest. “I…dammit–”
“Breathe,” you reminded.
His head fell back against the couch. Chest rising up and down, up and down, up and down.
Just take her, man, she’s right there–
Your free hand accidentally brushed his neck, right where the border of the mask started, snapping him right back. He grabbed your hand, not harshly, but firm enough to make your breath hitch.
“Please.” Was all he said.
Leave it on.
It brought you back to that first night he’d crashed into your life.
“I wasn’t planning on removing it,” you whispered, leaning closer. “You can keep it on. But let me help you…I really want to.”
See? She wants it. She needs it so bad.
He hated that the other guy was right. He knew you meant what you said because he could smell the proof pooling between your thighs.
Fuck it.
In a sudden movement he reached for your waist, dragging you forward so you were straddling his lap. The bulge you landed on made you gasp, hands instinctively grabbing onto his sweaty biceps for balance when he let out a broken groan that vibrated against your core.
His hand cupped your jaw, bringing it closer to his face, and your dilated pupils reflected on the white of his lenses.
“I can feel that you want this,” he mumbled, tilting his head to the side. “Please, say it again…”
You shifted your hips, barely, so minimal yet he felt it travel through his whole body. He hissed, tightening the grip on your jaw.
“I want this,” you repeated firmly, moving your head closer to his ear. “You can take whatever you need…”
You moved your hips again, more deliberate this time, pulling a broken whine from him. The toxin made every contact feel like electricity racing down his spine, straight to the heavy, aching weight of his cock under you.
“Yes…yeah just like that…” he panted. “Just let me…”
His hands landed on your waist, moving you back and forth at a quicker pace over his bulge. You gasped at the friction, fingers digging into his shoulders, while he let out a collection of muffled words you could barely understand.
“...M–more…” he whined, throwing his head back against the couch. “I can’t–I need…”
“What do you need? More what?”
“More contact.”
His hands left your waist to grab the hem of your shirt.
“Can I?” He whispered.
You nodded eagerly, gasping when his hands shifted to the collar of your shirt instead, ripping it off your body with a sharp pull.
“Oh fuck,” he cursed when he realized there was nothing under that shirt, and saw your nipples hardening instantly under the cold air.
He resisted the urge to bite them through the mask.
His hands, however, wasted no time to cup your breasts with a broken whine. His thumbs played with your nipples, tugging at them as hard as he could allow himself to without hurting you.
“Fuck you’re perfect…you’re so perfect…” he whispered, more to himself than you, pulling some soft whimpers out of you when he tugged a little harder. His hands drifted to your lower half, to the hem of the last piece keeping your body from his greedy eyes. “These too,” he said, “please, can I? I want to feel you.”
“Yes,” you nodded, already out of air.
You didn’t even know why you tried to get off his lap to take the shorts off properly, when he just did the same as the shirt: ripped it in half where it rested on your hips, yanked it off from your body and threw the ruined pieces far away.
You weren’t wearing anything underneath.
“I can smell you. God, I can smell you. You’re so–oh God…”
Now he could feel your wetness drenching his boxers, dripping onto the fabric. He could almost taste it in his mouth. He wanted nothing more than to drown in it for hours.
“Can–can I–?”
You didn’t even let him finish, you grabbed his hand and placed it right between your legs.
Water. He found water in the middle of the desert.
His hand moved carefully through your wet folds once, twice, delighting in your warmth, the way you felt, the way you let out the prettiest sound he had ever heard in his miserable life.
“Fuck…” you cursed softly, moving your hips eagerly when he kept stroking slow. Too slow. “Touch me, please.”
He obliged, fingers finding your clit in movements that had you gripping his shoulders tighter, eyes fluttering shut so beautifully he had to bite his lip to not let out a pathetic sound.
“Been wanting this,” he mumbled. “Longer than today. Longer than tonight.”
His finger slid inside of you, making you moan when he curled it just right.
“There were…there were nights I thought about you riding my hand,” he kept going, voice cracking as he added a second finger, stretching you more. “I’ve wanted you for so long–not just because of this shit in my blood. Because it’s you.”
Every word made you clench around his fingers. Every admission pulled another shaky moan out of your throat. You were a mess already, breathless, hips rolling down to meet the thrust of his fingers.
“Oh my God–don’t stop, please don’t stop–”
“Not stopping, baby.”
He kept working you open, the white lenses of the mask never leaving your face. His free hand slid up your chest, settling between your breasts.
“I’m–I’m close,” you managed. “I’m so close–”
“Come on…you’re perfect. You’re so fucking perfect like this.”
The heel of his palm lifted to press against your clit. You were right there, right on the edge, about to come on his hand and drip down his boxers–
“Please,” he begged, unable to keep it in. “Let me fuck you after this…please. I need to be inside you. I’ve needed it for so long–just let me, after you come, please, please–”
The plea undid you.
You came with a broken cry, stopping your movements as your walls pulsed around him. The sound you made against his shoulder nearly finished him right there.
It took you a second to just breathe again, your chest synching up with his in the search of oxygen. He kept rocking his hand slowly, not just to work you through the aftershocks, but because the friction of your pussy in his hand brought the tiniest relief to him.
You just stayed there as the last soft waves rolled through you.
Once you were able to see clearly again, you let out a breathless chuckle and straightened back up.
He needed you. He needed you so badly you really thought he was going to die if you didn’t help him.
You placed one hand on his chest as the other reached under you, slipping inside the fabric of his boxers without breaking eye contact.
The second your bare fingers brushed him, his hips jerked hard under you.
“You said please,” you whispered breathlessly.
You wrapped your fingers around him and pulled him free.
His cock sprang out, heavy and flushed between your bodies, so thick and hard and painful. The head was red and shiny, with precum dripping down the vein that ran along his length. The tip brushed the skin of your stomach, leaving a warm, wet patch that made the hair on your arms go up. He could smell the small flicker of intimidation sparking inside you, but the want that followed was stronger.
You stroked him a few times, slowly just as he’d touched you at first.
“Oh my God, your hand–your hand–”
Another thick bead of precum welled up and spilled over your fingers. Whether it was the toxin or just his enhanced physiology, he was dripping for you.
Flustered wasn’t enough of a word when you had his leaking cock in your hand.
His hands slid down to your hips, gripping tighter, guiding you up as if he was about to lift you then pulling you back down immediately.
Fuck her. Fuck her right now.
“Please, I need–I need to feel you…” he cried out. “Let me…let me…”
You nodded just as desperately, lifting yourself up as he helped, steadying you with shaking hands until the thick head of his cock nudged against your entrance. You both exhaled hard at the same time when you started to sink down, taking him inch by inch.
He was big. Almost too much. The burn of it made your breath hitch, but the way he cursed under his breath multiple times, completely at your mercy, made you keep going until he was buried balls deep.
You sat there for a moment, breathing heavily, and so full of him.
When the initial sting faded away, you started moving. He let you set the pace as you adjusted, holding back his need of thrusting up. His fingers dug on your skin, not lifting just holding you, but the more that you moved, the more that control started to waver.
He could feel it coming. The change.
You kept moaning, bouncing on top of him, completely unaware of his self restraint crumbling away.
His grip slowly tightened when his eyes began turning completely black under his mask. That careful, pathetic boy who’d been begging disappeared beneath something more…primal.
Fuck. Whatever had been holding him back finally snapped.
The next thing he knew, his hands slid under your thighs with sudden strength. He lifted you up in one motion until only the thick head of him remained inside you, held you there for a second as the last part of him tried to remember how to be gentle–then snapped his hips up hard.
That first thrust pulled a sharp moan out of you, but there was no chance to adjust this time. He set a relentless pace almost immediately, using pure strength to bounce you on his cock while he drove up to meet every drop of your body, buried so deep it stole your breath every time he bottomed out.
“Oh my–May…Maynard–” the name you barely used on him slipped out in the middle of the frenzy, but his hand reached behind your head to pull your hair back slightly as he kept thrusting up.
“Don’t call me that,” he snapped, his voice so different from just minutes earlier. “It’s Peter. Call me Peter when I’m inside you.”
He didn’t even give you time to process, still lifting and dropping you onto his cock at the exact hard rhythm he wanted. The only one that satisfied the need inside of him. Your hands instinctively reached for the edge of the arm of the couch he was leaning against, fingers digging into the worn fabric as he hit that spot inside you over and over again.
“Of fuck…Peter–fuck…yes…”
“That’s better,” he approved. “I was right, you’re so so perfect…taking every inch like you need it as bad as I do…”
A desperate sound slipped out of you at the praise, he could feel your walls clenching tight around him as your body went for that second orgasm, your eyes were fluttering shut, almost there–
“Nuh–uh,” he denied immediately, stopping mid thrust, holding you pressed against him as you gasped, surprised and confused.
“What–what happened? I was about to–”
“I want you to hold it for me. I know you can.”
That twisted part of him enjoyed the slow realization on your face.
Even if you couldn’t see his eyes, you knew the same spiderman he’d been without the inhibitor, was the one with your body at his mercy now.
Good.
He stayed buried to the hilt for a moment, breathing hard behind the mask. When your breathing finally slowed down and accepted that the high never came, he stood up. Still inside you, he walked you to the bed in the corner of the room.
His bed.
He pulled out with a wet sound that made both of you groan, then laid you down roughly near the edge of the mattress. He kneeled down, strong hands hooking behind your knees and dragging your legs over his shoulders, folding you open for him completely.
“Look at the ceiling,” he ordered. “Don’t look at me.”
You obeyed, staring up at the wood beams high above you while he tugged the bottom of the mask just high enough to free his mouth.
Peter leaned down and pressed a few soft kisses to your swollen folds. He wasn’t necessarily eating you out, just giving a few loud smooches that felt good enough to make you grip the sheets.
“M’sorry, you were so perfect there…” he mumbled condescendingly against your most sensitive spots. “But I need you to hold on a little longer. Can you do that for me, sweetheart?”
You nodded, eyes still fixed on the ceiling. Maybe too eager. Maybe too pathetic. Just like he’d been. Had he pumped that toxin into you?
Either way, you didn’t care. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t like this version of him.
He laughed right over your clit when you moaned loudly, after he moved his tongue in a slow, torturous swipe over it.
“Was back there too much?” He cooed. “Maybe I just need to stretch you more...”
Two fingers slid inside you, so easily, but the sudden stretch still dragged a whine out of your throat. He curled them immediately, finding the spot that made your hips jerk.
“Peter…”
“Huh?” He acted coy, pumping his fingers with a rhythm that kept you right on the edge without letting you tip over. He added a third finger, making your back arch from the mattress. “Keep holding it in.”
Every shake of your body fed the stupid toxin inside him. Having you like this…really trying to keep your body from coming apart because he said so.
God. He was never going back.
“You just took my cock. I think you can take three fingers with no problem.”
He kept the same relentless pace, chuckling when your body started twitching again.
“Shhh, you’re perfect, absolutely perfect…”
“Peter…” you called out again, hand dropping the sheet to find his shoulder instead. “I need…need…”
“Need what?”
“Need you inside me…please I won’t–I won’t hold for much longer just–fuck me.”
He stopped altogether, a smirk you couldn’t see stretching the corner of his mouth. He pulled his fingers out with a wet pop, licking them clean before tugging his mask back in place and standing up.
“Yeah?”
Your legs dangled off the edge of the bed for a moment before his hands gripped your hips and turned you over. He moved you higher up the bed, grabbing one of the pillows, and shoving it under your hips, tilting your lower body up for him.
He then climbed onto the bed behind you and knelt between your spread thighs, the mattress dipping under his weight as one hand stroked down the length of your spine.
But something made him stop.
“This fucking mask–” he cursed under his breath. “It’s suffocating me.”
The sweat on his forehead had pooled under the mask, making it so sticky over his eyebrows that it was affecting the lenses he was trying to see you through.
“I need you to be a good girl for me,” he added breathlessly, yet still commanding enough. “Keep your head on the mattress. Ass up. Don’t turn around.”
You nodded. Too eagerly again. Couldn’t care any less again.
He didn’t think twice, just yanked the mask off and tossed it aside. It landed near you, making you bury half your face on the sheets as if staring at the mask alone would be disobeying his commands.
The sound he made when the cool air hit his face was pure relief. He swiped the sweat off with his forearm, finally seeing you clearly. Face down. Eyes squeezed shut. Already clutching the sheets.
“You look so pretty like this,” he mumbled. “All spread out for me…waiting.”
“Peter…” you whined, lifting your ass slightly from the pillow.
“I know, I know. You’re okay.” He couldn’t keep the smirk away when he added, “you said please.”
He reached between you, guiding the thick head of his cock between your thighs until it nudged against your entrance. You were still soft and ready and perfect.
Peter pushed in slowly, letting you feel every inch as he sank deep and deep and deeper.
He braced one hand beside your head and kept the other on your hip, pushing you into the mattress as his thighs hit the back of yours. Slap. Slap. Slap. The position left almost no space between your bodies, with Peter pressing his chest against your back.
“Fuck…you feel so good like this…so pretty taking me.”
He kept going, making the mattress creak and the base of the bed hit the brick wall repeatedly. Your desperate moans ran through his body like electricity, making something inside him crack open again.
What? What is–
The moment his rhythm stuttered, he shook his head, trying to clear it. Beads of sweat flew from his hair to your back.
“God–you…you’re making me–” The roughness of his thrusts slowed down immediately, inhaling a sharp intake of air as he felt the change again. “I can’t, I can’t…”
He lifted his gaze to the window behind the bed and noticed his eyes had turned back to its original color.
“Oh my god,” he gasped, stopping altogether. He straightened up, still kneeling and inside you, but panicking. “I’m…I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened I–“
“Peter!” You cut him off, pushing yourself back, closer to him, without turning around. “Shut up and fuck me.”
The order left your mouth breathless, pushing back against him even more to make the point clear. His hands twitched when they gripped your hips again.
“Okay, okay…” he panted, groaning when you dropped back on the bed and his cock almost left the warmth of your pussy. “I’m sorry–if I was too rough, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to…”
He picked up the pace again, but the words tumbling out of him now were pure pleading Peter again.
“Don’t turn around–don’t turn around–fuck, fuck…” slap, slap, slap. “You can come now. Please. Please, I want to feel it–you’d come apart so pretty on me, I know you would…pleasepleaseplease–”
His final permission and the desperate way he said it made you crash harder than the first time, crying out into the mattress. The second he felt you coming around him, he knew he couldn’t last much longer either.
“Can I–inside…please, can I??…let me fill you up–”
“Yes–inside, Peter, do it inside me…”
He buried himself to the hilt with a strained groan and finally came. The orgasm tearing out of him was harder and longer than anything he’d ever felt, holding you there, filling you up.
You gasped against the sheets, breathless, as the waves of cum seemed to go on forever, flooding you with warm and thick ropes in every spurt as he emptied himself inside you.
“Thank you…thank you…” His forehead dropped between your shoulder blades, sending broken gasps against your skin as he kept coming. “You are so perfect–fuck…so perfect…thank you…”
The pollen wrung him dry until he could barely breathe, and even then he kept rolling his hips weakly, chasing the last of it while he slowly softened inside you.
When it finally eased, the pain, the need, the hunger…he pulled out slowly with a whine, and half collapsed over you. His arms held most of his weight as he planked above you, but you could feel every ridge of his muscles brushing your sweaty skin.
Peter’s eyes fluttered shut, feeling exhausted and aching in the best way, almost lulled by the sounds of your agitated breaths.
You both felt the warm trail of liquid leaking out between your bodies and neither of you moved or said anything for a while. He could’ve stayed like that forever, really. With your naked body under him, no masks, no barriers, just your swollen pussy leaking out his seed–
“Successful ejaculation brought down the arachnid hormone levels immediately. Inhibitor working within regular parameters now. Congratulations, Peter.”
EV’s monotone voice cut through the silence.
It took two seconds of shock before you both broke into breathless laughter. His teeth grazed your back as your bodies vibrated in sync from the amusement and overall flustering after everything that happened.
“Thank you, EV,” Peter muttered.
“You’re welcome. I gathered data and the released semen volume exceeds standard parameters by two hundred and twenty six percent due to the high hormonal concentration. Hydration, clean up and rest are advised.”
“For fucks sake…” Peter cursed under his breath.
“Oh god…” you mumbled against the sheets.
That was your call back to reality.
Peter felt you move under him, reaching blindly to the side until your hand found the mask. You lifted it over your shoulder, offering it to him without looking.
“I don’t want to,” he said, too quickly, then cleared his throat. “I…I don’t want to put it back on.”
“Then I’ll close my eyes,” you offered instead.
“No–I mean…you don’t have to. I don’t want to wear it around you anymore. Not after…all of this,” he admitted sheepishly.
“But you told me to not turn around,” you reminded him, dropping the mask on the mattress again. “And that was you, not the darker you.”
He chuckled, nodding even if you couldn’t see him yet.
“Yeah, because if I saw your face while I was balls deep inside you I would’ve busted before you came.”
There it was. He said it. No turning back now.
At least it got a chuckle from you too.
“Listen I…I meant everything I said. Everything. The wanting, the nights I thought about you,” he confessed. “I don’t want you to feel like I just used you when…when there was always a reason why I needed you like oxygen tonight.”
Your breath hitched, and his hand found your waist, pulling you closer to him, and when you didn’t push away…he exhaled in relief behind you.
“So maybe…you can turn around now. If–if you want to. Know the real me.”
“I would really like that,” you whispered without hesitation.
You tried lifting yourself up to turn around, but he did most of the job, moving away the pillow he had placed under you and helping you roll onto your back. You closed your eyes, at least until you were facing him completely, and took a deep breath. Holding onto his biceps for moral support, you finally opened them again.
Seeing his face for the first time felt so intimate, even after everything you just did.
There he was. The same guy who just fucked you into next week, looking more shy and boyish than you could’ve ever imagined.
Brown eyes. Dark, curly hair sticking to his forehead. A nervous smile tugging at the corner of his gorgeous mouth.
So young. So earnest. So yours.
Not spidey anymore. Just Peter.
Your Peter.
Thank you so much for reading 🤍 I used to write Peter so much back in the day (shoutout to my starktonyx era) and I’ve missed him dearly.
A.N: Hi my loves! 🩷 Thank you so so much for your amazing support, you've made me so happy! 🩷I hope you'll like this one as well, and please let me know what you think🩷 ILYSM, kisses! 🩷
Pairing: Robb Stark x F!Reader
Summary: Every skill needs honing.
Word Count: 4,2k
Warnings: Explicit language, adult themes, suggestive themes, medieval era expectations and viewpoints on marriage and gender. MDNI- Do not read if you're under 18.
Series Masterlist
Being the lady of the castle was no easy task even under normal circumstances, and these two weeks had been nothing but chaos.
But in your opinion, you were getting much better at it.
You and Robb made quite a successful team in Lord and Lady Stark’s absence. Everything in Winterfell was being handled quite effectively; the lady guests were welcomed and entertained while the lords held meetings with Robb. Preparations for the coming winter continued in the background not only for the bannermen and their families, but also for the small folk in Wintertown and all over the north. While most northerners still saw you as an outsider, you were beginning to prove yourself, and you were certain that Silas and your father would’ve been very proud if they could see you now; you had already sent both of them ravens to tell them all about it.
And in happier news, Bran had woken up last week. Though Maester Luwin said he could never walk again, you were thankful to the gods that he was alive, everything else could be sorted out.
Needless to say, Bran didn’t see it that way.
“Have you two seen Rickon?”
Both Jon and Theon stopped eating their breakfast and looked up at you at the same time.
“Wasn’t he with you and Robb?” Jon asked and you shook your head.
“Robb went to visit Bran in his room, I figured they would want to talk alone. The last time I talked to him, he wasn’t really…” you trailed off and shrugged. “Which is expected.”
“Aye, he wasn’t really interested in talking to me either.”
“He just needs time,” Theon said. “That’s it—oh, there’s Rickon.”
You turned your head to find Rickon absolutely covered in mud, making you gasp. The little boy didn’t seem like he minded the mud on his clothes at all, judging by the toothless smile he gave you when he reached the table.
“Hello!”
“What’s happened?!” you asked, covering your mouth with your hands and he looked down at himself.
“I was playing with Shaggy.”
“In the mud?”
“Aye!”
You seemed to be the only one who was shocked at the state of him, because instead of reacting in any way, Jon just ruffled his little brother’s hair while Theon let out a laugh. Rickon grabbed a piece of cheese from Theon’s plate without even wiping his hands, then darted through the hall before you could stop him, almost crashing into Robb’s legs on his way out. Robb looked over his shoulder to check where his little brother was rushing off to, then approached you and pressed a kiss on your temple.
“Here you are,” he said and touched the small of your back before he sat down, so you took the seat next to Jon’s. “Where’s he going?”
“To the yard, I’d say,” Jon answered while you stared at the entrance, your mouth half agape.
“He’s covered in mud,” you managed to say, “and he ate food without cleaning his hands.”
“He does that.”
Your eyes widened. “But that’s not healthy!”
“He has never fallen ill his entire life,” Jon said and Robb nodded.
“Besides, it’s Rickon,” he stated as if that was enough of an explanation, and reached out to steal a piece of bread from Jon’s plate, but Jon swatted his hand away.
“Go get your own plate!”
“I’m not really hungry.”
“Then keep your hands off my food!”
“So you’re saying you won’t share your bread with me? Your brother? Your blood?”
“Aye, that’s what I’m saying—”
“Did someone at least tell Rickon that it’s not good manners to walk around covered in mud?”
“Multiple septas did.” Robb filled himself a drink and offered you, but you shook your head. “He doesn’t listen.”
“Besides, he’s northern,” Theon said. “He’s not gonna grow to be one of those flowery Reach knights with their southern manners and poems—”
“What is it with your animosity toward poetry, Greyjoy?” you asked with a frown. “Is it because you can’t read?”
“Your brother asked me the same thing—I can read!”
“Allegedly,” you pointed out, and Robb and Jon exchanged glances, both biting back identical grins. “I’ve heard Ironborn look down on literacy to the point of accusing people who can read as sorcerers.”
“Well, seeing the raids on the Reach, we’re still better fighters than—”
“None of that,” Robb interrupted him while you glared at Theon, and Jon heaved a sigh.
“How’s Bran?”
“As expected,” Robb muttered. “I don’t think staying in that room is going to make him feel better. I’ll get him out to the yard the moment Maester Luwin says we can.”
“That should help.”
“I hope so.”
“Has father written back yet?”
“No ravens arrived,” Robb said while Jorelle made her way to you. “Should be any day now, though.”
“My lady, you wanted me to remind you about your meeting with Lady Sabitha,” she said. “She’s waiting for you.”
Theon nodded at Jorelle with a smirk.
“Lady Jorelle,” he greeted her. “Hello.”
Robb and Jon both looked from Theon to Jorelle with the exact same expression of boyish wonder on their faces, and Jorelle raised her brows, eyed him up and down, then chortled.
“Absolutely not, Greyjoy.”
Robb stifled a laugh and kicked Jon under the table while Jon pressed his fist on his lips to hide his smile. Theon sat up straighter, clearly not discouraged as he puffed his chest.
“But I’m…”
“Greyjoy, I understand that you lack subtlety so I’m going to be as direct as my manners allow me,” you told him and stood up from your seat. “If you ever bother my ladies-in-waiting, I’ll make sure you can never speak a word to them or anyone else ever again. I’m sure the whole castle will thank me for it.”
There was a proud grin on Robb’s face as you pecked him on the cheek, then you threw an arm over Jorelle’s shoulder and you both walked away from the table, giggling.
After your small meeting with Lady Sabitha, the rest of your day was considerably idle. You visited Bran, you spent some time with Rickon, and now you and your ladies-in-waiting had nothing to do but remain in your room and gossip until dinner time. You laid in your bed, with Jorelle by your side and Wylla laid on her stomach at the foot of the bed, reading a book. Alys was braiding Lyra’s hair and Barbrey was embroidering something for her new gown on the sofa across the hearth, occasionally holding it up for Alys and Lyra’s opinion.
It reminded you of the Reach, back when you and Margaery and your friends would spend time together before the jousts.
“Jo?”
Jorelle turned her head to see you better. “Hm?”
“What kind of husband do you want?”
The question gathered everyone’s attention in the room. Alys stopped braiding Lyra’s hair, Lyra’s head snapped around and Barbrey looked up from her embroidery, her eyes widening. Wylla pursed her lips without pulling her gaze off the page, but you could tell her ears perked up with the way she stopped following the lines. Jorelle craned her head to see you better.
“What brought this on?”
“Well, I’ve been thinking,” you said. “You know, when Greyjoy tried to talk to you earlier today—”
“Gods no!”
“No, obviously not him!” you said in a rush. “None of you will wed him, are you jesting? I hate him, he’s vile.”
“He’s your lord husband’s best friend,” Wylla pointed out and you shrugged.
“I still hate him, Robb knows it,” you said. “But it made me think, it’s clear you have admirers, all of you.” You motioned around the room. “Silas fixed my betrothal, and it took him such a long time to make a decision. And you’re my ladies-in-waiting, it’s my responsibility to find you good suitors. I’m determined to find you the best men in the realm, but I can only do that if I know what kind of husbands you want.”
Alys thought for a second. “Perhaps we should make a list.”
“Good idea!” You jumped from the bed and rushed to the desk to grab the inkpot and the quill, and parchments. You dipped the quill into the inkpot, then wrote all their names on different parchments and pointed at Lyra with your quill.
“Lyra, are you certain—”
“I won’t wed, I’m certain,” Lyra cut you off. “Men can be so annoying.”
“She’s not wrong on that one,” Jorelle muttered and Lyra gave her a grin.
“I can also fight Greyjoy if he bothers you.”
“Not needed at this point, but thank you Lyra.”
“Me next!” Barbrey said, sitting up straighter. “I want a southron husband.”
“Where in the south?” you asked and Barbrey frowned as if the thought hadn’t hit her before.
“Um, the Reach?”
“The men of the Reach are full of audacity, I’ve found,” Jorelle grumbled and you shot her a smirk.
“I think you mean the men of Dorne.”
Jorelle bit back a laugh and held up her hands. “All the same to me.”
“And I want him to be a knight,” Barbrey added, her nose stuck in the air. “Like…like that knight you danced with on your wedding.”
You blinked a couple of times. “Loras?”
“Yes, The Knight of Flowers!” Barbrey said. “Oh he was so handsome!”
“Barbrey.” You tried to control your expression. “You would not want Loras as a husband.”
“Why did you not?” Alys asked and shifted her weight. “I mean I know Lord Robb is the love of your life, but before that? The Knight of Flowers is your best friend’s brother, and you two looked like the perfect southron lady and the knight when you danced.”
Well, there were many reasons; the main one being that your brother was Loras’ type and not you, regardless of how you two looked while you were dancing.
“Loras is like a brother to me,” you said. “We could never see each other like that. How about you, Alys? What kind of husband do you want?”
“I don’t want a southron,” Alys said. “I don’t want to be so far away from my family. I want a brave northern fighter, but he must be handsome, and my age.”
“Do you have someone in mind?”
Her cheeks got pink and she averted her glances.
“…No.”
You arched a brow. “Alys.”
“I don’t have anyone in mind, I just—”
“She admires the heir of House Ryswell,” Wylla sang without looking up from her book, making Alys gasp.
“I do not!”
“You danced with him at the wedding and you were flustered afterwards.”
“Wylla!”
“How else are you going to get the husband you want if you keep it a secret?”
“What kind of reading is that?” Jorelle asked her, gesturing at the book in front of Wylla. “You keep chiming in.”
“Yes well, while you are all listing your requirements for suitors…” Wylla wiggled her brows and turned the page before she held it up so that all could see the vulgar illustration. “I’m learning how to keep my future husband under my spell.”
The room exploded into chaos in a second. Alys jumped from her seat at the same time with Barbrey, who nearly face planted on Lyra in her haste to rush to Wylla. Jorelle sat up in bed and snatched the book from Wylla’s hands, holding it out of her reach while she all but wrestled her to get it back.
“Jo!”
“Where did you find this?”
“Let me see! Let me see!”
“What does it say?”
“Oh it says everything.”
“Barbrey, stop pushing!”
“You won’t even wed, Lyra, no need for you to see!”
The title of the book was familiar to you; it was very famous all over the south. Of course all the septas and the maesters forbid it, saying that it was not appropriate for ladies, but that had never stopped you or any of your friends. All it required was a couple gold dragons given to the right maid, and a ball thrown in someone’s honor so that you and your friends could gather in one of your bedchambers while the rest of the household was busy with the guests.
Though, you were rather surprised to see it was famous enough to be found in the north as well.
“That’s disgusting!” Barbrey let out a squeal as she leaned in to grimace at the drawing. “So very disgusting!”
“Then stop looking?”
“I cannot!”
You pressed your fist on your mouth so that you could hide your smile, leaning back to the table while they all gathered around the bed and turned the page.
“But I don’t—but—” Alys stammered. “My lady mother said, on my wedding night, I’m to just lay there.”
“So did mine! My husband will know what to do, she said.”
Gods, the north really was different than the south, this was yet another proof of it. All your ladies-in-waiting were the same age as you, women grown, and yet they were clueless when it came to certain things because the north was incredibly strict on such matters.
Jorelle turned the page again and yelped in surprise, a scowl twisting her beautiful face. “Seven hells, I’m not doing that!”
“Let me see—”
“I’m a lady,” Barbrey insisted. “I care not what the book says, I’m not putting my mouth anywhere near…that thing.”
“Do all men know about this?”
“I’d say so.”
“Do you suppose there’s a book for them as well?”
“A book?” Wylla asked with a scoff. “They have no need to read about it. What do you think they do in brothels, hold hands?”
“Lady wives don’t do such things,” Alys insisted while Jorelle lifted her head as if she just remembered your presence in the room. “I’m sure of it.”
“I still don’t understand the—the physics of this?”
“You know what Lyra, you were right. If this is what will be expected of me, I’m not going to wed either.”
“My personal feelings aside, it does sound very uncomfortable, I’m not going to lie.”
“Is it?” Jorelle asked you, her voice cutting through the chatter. “Is it very uncomfortable?”
Stunned silence fell upon the room as all the girls turned their heads to stare at you while you bit back your grin.
“Hm?”
“Oh but she doesn’t do that!” Alys said in a haste. “She’s the most graceful lady of the south, Jo.”
“And she’s been quiet since the beginning of this conversation,” Lyra pointed out, narrowing her eyes at you. “Too quiet.”
Barbrey held up the book and pointed at the illustration on the page. “Did you do this?”
Wylla elbowed her. “Barbrey!”
“What? Lord Robb is mesmerized by her, everyone knows it!”
“Because she is beautiful, you idiot, not because she does such tricks!”
You dragged the tip of your tongue on your lip, then heaved a dramatic sigh.
“You see, I would tell you,” you said. “But since such conversations are unladylike, you’d have to swear—”
“I swear it! I swear on my honor!”
“Me too!”
“So do I, on my honor and house!”
“Aye, on my house too!”
“I will never breathe a word, I swear it.”
“…That it doesn’t leave this room,” you finished your sentence with a laugh. “Very well then.”
They all plopped down on your huge bed, their attention fully on you as you jumped to sit on the desk.
“Lady Olenna, my best friend’s grandmother always said the marital bed is the way to keep one’s husband mesmerized,” you said. “It matters even more than how you look, how much wealth your family has, or what your house is; that right there is the key, she would say.”
“So you knew about all these things?”
“I did,” you said airily. “The south isn’t as strict as the north, and though I lacked practice, I didn’t lack knowledge.”
“Yes well,” Alys grumbled. “In the north we lack both for some reason.”
Barbrey raised the book again, pointing at the page without a word and you nodded, making all of them gasp.
“You did that?!”
Well, they didn’t need to know how you did exactly that in Robb’s solar the other day.
“I reacted similarly when I first heard about it,” you admitted, “It sounded intimidating, the idea of doing that with some faceless husband in the future that I couldn’t even imagine. And unlike what everyone keeps telling women, you shouldn’t do anything you don’t want to. I wouldn’t, if I didn’t want to. However, Robb is…” You tried to find the right words. “I desire him so much that sometimes I feel like I can’t even think or breathe. I don’t speak for all married women obviously, but for me it wasn’t uncomfortable.”
“I’d be so embarrassed to do that though,” Wylla muttered and you cleared your throat.
“At first I was too, but then—” You fixed your skirts just so that you could do something with your hands. “He’s never made me feel uncomfortable, no matter what we’re doing. That’s why I find the marital bed so much fun.”
“Fun!?”
“Of course,” you said. “It can be very pleasurable you know? For women as well, not just men.”
“I heard it’s terrible for women.”
“It’s not terrible.” Your laugh echoed in the room. “Not even close. When you wed someone who loves you, they simply want you to be happy. Not only outside, but also in your bedchambers.”
Barbrey pointed at the next page, making you hiss in a breath.
“Um, no.” You grimaced and shook your head. “Not that, I would not.”
Jorelle leaned over to peek at what it was before Barbrey showed you another illustration.
“How about this?”
“Oh.” Your face grew hotter. “He does that. A lot.”
Jorelle’s jaw dropped. “You’re jesting, surely!”
“I thought at first his beard would be a problem, but as it turns out—”
“Your lord husband kisses you there?”
“Yes.”
“Why? That doesn’t lead to an heir.”
“Well.” You pressed your palms on your cheeks to soothe the fire. “Not everything is about siring heirs.”
“But how come no one said it’d be fun?” Wylla asked to the room. “All I kept hearing was the importance of heirs, why was I not told it could be fun?”
“I think unfortunately many women don’t know,” you said. “But thankfully I know, because I wed the love of my life, and so will all of you. I’ll make sure of it.” You winked at Lyra. “As long as you want to wed, of course. There’s always the option not to.”
“I’ll take that option,” Lyra stated. “I’m uninterested.”
“I’m interested,” Barbrey pointed out and shuffled the pages before she held up the book again. “Not the other thing, but I want to try this.”
You leaned in with the rest of the girls to see the illustration better. Jorelle narrowed her eyes while Wylla tilted her head, Lyra’s lips curled downwards and Alys put a hand on her hip, letting out a hum.
“Oh I haven’t tried that one yet either,” you said after a beat and held out your hand to motion at the book. “But as my best friend would say, every skill needs honing. May I?”
An hour before dinner, you had already changed your gown and had your maid do your hair while your ladies-in-waiting went to their own bedchambers to get ready. You had dismissed your maid to read some more in secret, so engrossed in the book that you had lost the track of time, hence why you didn’t even hear Robb’s approaching footsteps until the door opened. Your head whipped up and you jolted in bed as if someone pricked you with a needle, a gasp catching in your throat.
“My love!” you squealed, closing the book and pushing it under the bed in haste. “You’re back!”
“I am.” He came closer to peck you on the lips before he flung himself on the bed, and tilted his head. “Why are you out of breath?”
Seven hells.
“I was reading poetry,” you said after a pause, waving a hand in the air. “It always evokes feelings in me, I get very emotional.”
Confusion pinched his brows and you took a deep breath to calm yourself, then pushed yourself from the bed to make your way to the big table, earning a groan of displeasure from him.
“Come back.”
You let out a giggle and held up a cup, but he shook his head, so you only filled one cup with wine before you returned to bed. After taking a sip, you put the cup on your bedside table and let him pull you back in the bed so that you could straddle him while he wrapped his arms around your waist, nuzzling to your bosom.
“Gods, you smell so good,” he murmured and you stifled a laugh.
“How was your day?” you asked, playing with the auburn curls at the nape of his neck, and he hummed.
“Busy. Yours?”
“Not as busy,” you said. “What’s happened?”
“There’s some unrest between two families up in the mountains,” he said, his voice muffled against your skin. “Norreys and Burleys. Both too stubborn to speak to each other without drawing swords.”
“Oh my poor love,” you cooed, a smile curling your lips when his shoulders relaxed. “And you must be the peacemaker?”
He nodded. “In person, probably.”
The simple sentence was more than enough to wipe your smile off your face, your body tensing up. The memory of what had happened the last time he was away flashed before your eyes, your stomach doing a painful flip as you gulped. You knew that he had no idea, you had made sure that he would have no idea, but it didn’t mean you were ready for him to leave once again, this time for more than just one week—probably for a moon, with how far the mountains were from Winterfell.
But what were you supposed to say?
I don’t feel safe here when you’re away?
That was out of the question. Lady Olenna would’ve reprimanded you if she heard you even consider saying such a thing; a lady didn’t demand or plead, she made people think they wanted what she wanted all along.
In the subtlest manner, of course.
“Oh my,” you said. “Well, I’m quite excited to meet them then. Do you suppose their wives will come with as well? When you invite those lords here?”
He pulled back to give you a fond smile.
“You misunderstand me, sweeting—”
“I suppose they will, considering the distance,” you cut him off. “And I understand why, if you went off to the mountains to settle such dispute, it’d take what? Almost a moon for you to come back? Gods, it’d break my heart so terribly.” You curled your fingers over the back of his hand so that you could press his palm on the soft swell of your chest where he could feel your heartbeat. “To be away from you for that long. I’d miss you so, so much.”
Robb’s eyes darkened with desire as they lingered on your cleavage, then snapped up to your lips again. “Would you?”
You knew you were supposed to come up with a seductive remark as an answer, this was the perfect moment; and yet what you ended up saying was more of a heartfelt confession rather than some southern wordplay.
“I know the whole north says it’s just because we’re newlyweds, but…” You lowered your glances, your heart skipping a beat at the heat of his gaze alone. “Robb, I don’t believe anyone understands how much I crave you, all the time. It’s intimidating sometimes.”
He swallowed thickly, his other hand sliding up to cradle your cheek, tracing the line of your bottom lip with his thumb as he tilted your head up.
“And why is it intimidating, my beautiful wife?” he asked, the deep rumble of his voice sending a pleasant shiver through you before he pressed open-mouthed kisses on your chest while tugging at the front laces of your gown. “My heart is at your command forever, you know this.”
You had to try really, really hard to focus and pull yourself together through the haze of want, especially with the way you could feel the proof of his desire under you.
“I thought, for—” A curt laugh escaped you. “I feared for a moment just now, that you would go to them and not the other way around. But you would not, surely?”
He paused for a second, then he lifted his head to look at you; his eyes heavy-lidded like he was as intoxicated with your presence as you were with his.
“Of course not.”
You nodded, batting your lashes. “They’ll come here instead?”
“Aye,” he murmured. “They’ll come here instead.”
You couldn’t stop the proud smile lighting up your face before he grabbed your waist and flipped you under him, making you squeal.
“Robb! My love, we have guests for dinner—”
“They’ll wait,” he growled as he trailed his lips down your neck, untying the laces of your gown. “The whole castle, the whole north, the whole realm. If my wife craves me, they’re all going to wait.”
George R. R. Martin and his commitment to brown-haired firstborn pretty boys who exist purely to suffer emotionally, briefly thrive, and then meet an absolutely unceremonious tragedy.
summary: valarr has always been wary of his soon to be wife. but after darkness strikes ashford, she shines a light.
valarr targayren x witch!fem!reader
w.c: 3.9k
c.w: reader is a follower of r'hllor, resurrection, coldish reader, valarr likes his bethrothed more than he lets on, hurt/comfort ? idk how else to tag it, minor spoilers for next weeks ep, making up lord of light bullshit, not proofread!
a.n: when i was sobbing my heart out over baelor but then here comes head homo lyonel in the preview looking fine as fuck
Valarr has always had mixed feelings about his betrothed.
whenever they met, albeit it these meetings were scarce, he thought she was nice. she was kind, respectful, smart, every time they met he had almost forgotten why he was wary of her in the first place.
yet every single time she reminded him why he tended to keep his distance during his visits. she was a witch, one who practiced all sorts of magic to further her knowledge and strength. she was the daughter of an important man in tyrosh which was enough for his father to agree to the two of them married.
she traveled to westeros at least once a year, sometimes she came to dragonstone, sometimes she went to kings landing, it simply depended on where he was at that time even if his father was not there.
this year however she was not in dragonstone or kings landing but instead she was in ashford. she always came to westeros around the same time every year, but this year due to the tourney valarr thought her visit would be postponed and he almost thanked the gods. yet the gods were not so merciful as she still made the trip out. his father informed him this would be last time traveling to westeros as she would be permanently moving to dragonstone. she had arrived to ashford two days after him after dropping off your stuff at dragonstone.
it was obvious you had no idea what was going on. the atmosphere was so tense. many a squire and servant almost bumped into you as you walked by. the clouds completely covered the sky leaving a thick fog over the land. the ground was muddy, full of foot and horse prints, if you were not watching your step you would have slipped. you had thought this was supposed to be a happy affair to celebrate some lord's daughter but if you did not know any better you would have thought this was someone's funeral.
you did not even announce yourself once you saw the man you were looking for. he looked grimmer than the men sitting on their horses."my lady i am sorry you had to arrive to such a grim sight." he ceased his pacing as soon as you arrived though it was obvious on his face he was worried. he was wearing what you liked to call his princely uniform, though you would never tell him that, he tried his best to shot you a polite smile though it dropped rather quickly as that worried look struck his face once more. "did something happen my prince? things are rather frightened out there."
he gives you the run down of the situation. ser duncan had attacked prince aerion after aerion attacked a puppeteer during her show. prince daeron has also accused ser duncan of kidnapping his younger brother prince aegon. now aerion had demanded a trial of seven. "trial of seven?" your face was laced with confusion as you stared at him. you were a follower of r'hllor, the lord of light, you had no spent much time studying the seven. valarr was not a very devote follower so you had never saw the need.
he ended up explaining to you the basics. there was the accused and the accuser. each had to find six other champions to defend each side. whoever won or was still alive by the end was declared innocent while the other party remained guilty. yet there was something still bothering you. "you would not be so upset if things were so simple." valarr takes a deep breath like he's trying to compose himself. "my father came to ask me for my armor. he intends to take the side of ser duncan."
you reach out and grab his shoulders, turning his body to face yours. he could not hide the shock on his face as you wrapped your arms around his body pulling him into a deep hug. you remember your mentor telling you that when her children were feeling unwell she would give them a hug and make her body warm so they would relax. clearly she was right as you felt his whole body relax out of the very tense state it had been in. he lets out a content sigh as he leans his head to lay against the bare neck of your skin.
you did not really understand the logic of it. if an innocent man could only get weak men to defend himself but the guilty man could get the strongest fighters how was that fair? how could the gods judge something like that? "if ser duncan is innocent there will be no reason for the gods to punish your father."
that clearly had been the wrong thing to say as he quickly tenses up, pulling away from you just as quickly. your brows furrow at the almost furious look on his face. "well I'm very thankful for your kind words my lady but i should be off." he stormed off, headed towards the stands were he would watch the joust. a frown grows on your face as you watch him leave. you were just trying to be nice, it was true if he had explained it correctly, if ser duncan was innocent what reason was there for prince baelor to die?
"my lady if i may speak?" you whip your head to one of the servants who had been standing around. 'how long was he even there?' you don't bother to voice your thoughts out loud before you nod. the man, whose name you don't know, ends up telling you about the last trial of seven where everyone but his ancestor maegor had died. "so he's worried about his father dying.." "yes my lady."
he ends up saying no more, simply bowing before walking off. you end up realizing there were also a couple more servants in the room who walked out as well leaving just you. you had not intended to be rude, yet that always seemed to be the case when speaking to him. you should go and try to find him.
nothing terrible will happen you are certain of it.
—
prince baelor was dead.
you had found out when after the battle men had rushed towards you, no not you valarr to inform him of what had happened to his father. you barely remember the aftermath, it was so chaotic you did not even get to see the look on valarrs face until a bit later where he seemed perfectly fine.
the room was quiet, cold. the only sounds that could be hear were the sounds of grinding in a mortar while the tyroshi witch grinding up what seemed to be a potion. maekar so lost in his grief did not even seem to mind the lady was in the room while he was dealing out aerions punishment, lys was far too close to tyrosh for your liking you decide you'll send word to your father later to not allow him in should he end up making his way there.
with the potion you had been making finished and a quick prayer to r'hllor you will end up needing it, you slip it into the pocket of your robe. you manage to slip out the room as maekar and the hedge knight begin to speak to each other faintly hearing the talk of kinslaying. being a kinslayer did not matter much to you yet it seemed to be very taboo in westeros, maekar in particular seemed rather distraught about it. you make a mental note to keep your past family relations a secret.
it got even quieter the further into the halls you went. you freeze upon the sight of valarr leaning over a desk in an empty room. you could hear the faint sniffles as his shoulders shake. he was so composed earlier when speaking to the men of lord ashford on how to properly set up a funeral and where they would burn baelors body. he looked like the exact description of a great prince. yet now he looked just as he should, a young man crying for his father.
with a few steps towards him you stare at his back from the doorway. you consider walking over to him and offering him some comfort. maybe you could try hugging him again. yet all you do is turn your back and walk out the room. you knew all you would do is just make him upset like you always seemed to. you were unaware of the eyes that had turned to watch you leave, wishing you had stayed and held him.
the servants who were preparing the princes body for the burning both looked alarm at your entrance to the room before bowing their heads. "i would just like to offer the prince a private prayer in honor of my lord if that is acceptable." neither of them can refuse you as you are now to be the next queen so they end up backing away, giving you a moment with the prince. his eyes were closed, you were happy to see they had closed up the wound on the back of his head so you would not have to do it. one of the men almost stop you as you reach a knife up to cut a small chunk out of his hair but do not dare make a move, too nervous of what you would do.
your hands press together and you begin to speak to your lord in high valyrian. you did not know if it was even going to work but it was like there was a calling in your body to try. you were so sure baelor was a figure the world needed and your lord would recognize that.
it took you seven tries. its almost comical, the number. but the crowned princes eyes shoot open and he takes a deep breath in. one of the servants passes out.
maekar stops speaking as soon as shouts of his name flood his ears. all eyes are locked onto the door before it even had opened. everyone had gathered in the main hall, assuming the ceremony would happen soon since they had been working on the prince body long enough. the door slams open and everyone stares at the man who looked so pale it was like he saw a ghost.
"what is it boy?" today was the last day maekar wanted any sort of nonsense certainly not from some servant boy. "prince baelor…" the room went deadly still as the boy took a deep breath like he couldn't even say it. "he's alive." every single person stood up from their chairs, other than daeron who was bound to his chair from his foot injury, in shock. "what in the hells are you talking about boy."
"the tyroshi lady witch," valarr sucks in a noticeable deep breath, "she came in and um she did a ritual a couple of times then he woke up." maekar without another word stormed out of the room and off to find baelor. everyone in the room paused for a shocked moment before rushing after him. daeron simply stared after them, the vision of dunk with a dead dragon flooding his mind, the vision suddenly catches fire and burns away in his mind as if it was never there at all.
when maekar opens the door he does not even know what to expect, but he does not expect you to be applying a salve to some of his brothers wounds, his dead brother, who was sitting up looking very alive. "why so pale maekar? you look like you've seen a ghost."
one of the servants call out lord ashfords name as he faints, managing to catch him before he falls. everyone else was seemingly frozen in place except you, who was taking care of baelor still without even looking at the group, and valarr who hesitantly took a few steps towards his father.
"my boy.." baelor's hand lifted to reach out to him and valarr practically fell into his fathers arms, sobbing while his father strokes his back just like he did when he was younger. "its okay my boy its okay. I'm okay." maekar looks to the back of baelors head and gasps as he sees the wound is gone. "my savior gave me a potion which closed the wound."
baelor gives you a fond look as valarr lifts his head from his father to stare at you. he could barely believe it. you did not even look surprised. "the potion was only able to slightly heal it, you'll need to drink it regularly and have the salve i am giving you applied daily until your other wounds heal."
baelor assures you he will while valarr continues to stare at you in wonder. he notices you're holding onto chunks of hair and only then does he notice the big bald spots in his fathers head. there were seven different spots clearly sloppily cut out of his head, the cut work worse in different areas, you must have been getting desperate at some point.
"how is this even possible?" duncan must have meant to say it in his head but he had spoken aloud. everyone in the room was thankful someone finally asked the question on everyone's mind. you kept your back turned as you continued to mix up more salve. it takes you a minute to speak as if you do not know how to put your thoughts together.
"my lord is very merciful. he knew today was never meant to be his final day." everyone in the room had hundreds of more questions to ask but you simply move to leave the room without another glance. "it is time for my prayer. good day." they all watch you leave. valarr can hear someone lightly as if they should stop you but baelor raises his hand in rejection.
duncan begins to sob, holding his hand to his mouth to quiet himself. baelor sighs and stands up, rejecting the help offered to him. "lets have this conversation else where shall we? its rather cold in here." unable to refuse him the room clears out all walking slowly to ensure baelor was following them, baelor lingered behind a bit his eyes on valarr who looked conflicted. "there's somewhere else you should be than here boy."
valarr's face contorted even more, he wanted to see you. more than anything. "but father…" he also did not wish to leave his father not right now. baelor however made the decision for him. "you should speak to her. she can answer your questions better than i."
you end up stumbling back into the room where daeron was sitting all alone. he had not even touched the wine in which was brought to his side. too lost in his thoughts, mumbling to himself. "how is this even possible.. my dreams they always.." daeron can barely believe it. the visions that had haunted his life, the vision in which in encouraged him to lie on an innocent mans name, had not come to pass. "your dream did come true. do not begin to doubt your powers now. i simply corrected it after the deed was done." when you finally look at him he sees the familiar haunted look in your eyes that stare back at him in the mirror.
"do not dwell on it." you say nothing more as place your stuff down and turn out the room. daeron is once again left alone with his thoughts. he thinks of a dream he had many years back. you were surrounded by fire looking as peaceful as ever with your eyes closed, cradling a dead dragon in your hands before the dragon opened its eyes. he had never thought much of it but now he was pondering it. maybe it was truly about baelor but if you could bring a man back to life maybe you could bring back the dragons.
valarr finds you outside sitting alone in front of a fire, your hands clasp together while you spoke a prayer in valyrian. he approached you slowly. you do not even acknowledge him as he sits down next to you. he is not close enough to where he is touching you. yet he is still close enough to where you must notice is presence.
he simply sits in silence, the sound of your voice soothing him as all his emotions of the day washed away. he would have to ask you what you were saying at a later date. he has a lot he should be saying to you. he does not say anything even as you grow completely quiet. he only speaks when you speak. "you can ask me whatever you wish to. i will answer you with complete honesty."
there are so many things he wished to say in this moment. so many emotions he wished to express. questions he needed to ask but he could only express one thing in that moment. "why?" you do not answer, simply hum curiously encouraging him to further explain himself. "why did you go through all the effort? the man servant said you must have done the ritual seven times before it worked." one of them had mentioned it in passing when he told them he was looking for you. the servant looked quite pale.
you don't hesitate to answer him, "you were upset earlier when you thought he was going to die so i decided to at least try my best to bring him back. if he did not wake up after that last attempt i was going to give up."
he's stunned into silence. "for me?" it comes out meeker than he intended it to. you never said anything you did not mean even if the other court ladies or men would find it offensive so he knew you were being very serious when you had said that.
"who else?" he is over come with so many emotions. regret for any of his prior words, grief for a death that did not come, and a new overwhelming emotion blooming in his chest he could not put a name on, a feeling that began to ache as you looking into his eyes. "i am sorry."
he laughs uncomfortably. scratching at his neck in the hopes of the lump growing there to leave. "whatever for?" the look on your face is so sorrowful/ you have no reason to be sorrowful. you had done more for him than you probably even realized. "i was rude to you earlier. i am sorry."
he racks his head around trying to remember what you were talking about, the day so chaotic his memories are all jumbled up. he suddenly remember your earlier conversation and his chest hurts even more. "do not say you are sorry. it is i who.." his words are so strained, his hand crawls up to grip at his chest. your face turns into one of shock as you lightly say his name. there was so many words that needed to be spoke. so much air to be cleared between you.
yet you say nothing. you reach over and grab the hand on his chest. the two of you stay like that for a few moments as your eyes do all the talking. the fire lightly cracks in front of you, your eyes glowed in the fire. he realizes he had never truly taken the time to look at you. you were truly beautiful. "let us start over." your hands lace together as it almost seems like fire grows larger at your union. you glance at it for a moment before looking back at valarr. "i would like nothing more."
there is no need to look back when there is a long future ahead for the two of you, for now you can simply try again. it is not long before a guard comes to summon you, he stands as far away from you as possible. valarr finds himself opening his mouth to comment but you simply tug him along with you as you walk back to the castle. "i am a blood mage. i have always been one. these people simply now see me for who i am."
"but you saved him." "yes. but all they see is i brought a dead man back to life. even if they like him… that scares people." he does not comment any more not wishes to argue with you. he finds himself furious but holds his tongue. they should be throwing themselves at your feet and thanking you.
the two of you enter the main hall hand in hand. baelor sits at the head as if nothing had even happened. a smile on his face as he sees the two of you. maekar and lord ashford look pale, the lord even had one of his men fanning him. baelor summons his son to his side, valarr hesitates to leave you but you lightly push him towards his father nodding reassuringly at him.
once he finally takes his place baelor begins to speak. "you have done the realm a great service. you have my eternal thanks." you simply shrug not even a smile finds its way to your face, "ill be by your room tomorrow with the salve and the potion for you to drink." baelor laughs, the smile on his face remaining, "anything you wish for you shall have."
you look thoughtful for a few moments, the room is quiet as they all await for you to speak again.
"I'd like to be married in the way of my lord your grace. that is all."
baelor looks confused for a moment before he speaks, "ah you mean with the fire pit? yes of course consider it done. but you know, you are free to ask for anything else."
"i already have anything else i could want my lord." your eyes flicker for a moment to valarr but your gaze returns to the crowned prince. baelor catches the look and his grin grows even larger, "I'm sure you do." valarr looks away as his father turns to his, his ears beginning to burn.
baelor stands with a light groan, "I do not know about anyone else but i am starving. let us go eat." baelor looks to his brother and holds out his hand to help him up, maekar hesitates looking between his brothers face and hand before grabbing it and standing. they must have had a very long and needed conversation after you had left. "there are a lot of people who wish to speak to you you know?"
valarr immediately finds himself back at your side as you groan, a deep frown finds its way on to your face, this was the last thing you wanted. valarr grabs your hand once more and your face softens as you two stare at each other. there was a long road ahead but the doors that had been locked shut had finally opened for the two of you and there was a whole other world on the other side.
it wouldn't be a quick process. your personalities, your cultures, your lifestyles, your beliefs, you two would continue to clash. yet valarr finds himself believe things will all work out when he feels the warmth in your palm.
