Health & Happiness from the Kitchen.

This is a weight loss blog. A cooking blog. A ranting blog. This is my life...losing weight. My life has changed dramatically lately and I had to change my eating habits, which got me cooking and baking a lot more. It's amazing how much less money you will spend on your grocery bill when you stop buying pre-packaged items.   The Journey: Stats & Stuff (weight) Progress Blog   How to Contact Me: MyFitnessPal Daily Mile [email protected]   Other important things: Progress | Work-Outs | About Me | GPOYW | Weigh in Wednesday | What I Ate var sc_project=6337858; var sc_invisible=1; var sc_security="91f7d04b";

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I took this photo a few days ago. One of my first selfies in....a while. Weight loss has been so slow lately. No the only way I've been blessed to love nothing has been with low crab/no wheat/no sugar. It's a life style change I've been willing to take on. But some days are so much easier than others.

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I barely matter. 

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You matter a ton to me

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I just weighed myself for the first time in probably close to two months. 229 lbs I'm so disappointed at myself because I was nearly out of the 220s for the first time in nearly 18 months back in November/early December. I know I'm tall but it still. It sucks. But then I got so exhausted from my utter lack of help while helping every one else that my motivation took a nose drive. We have eaten out so much lately and I can't even remember the last time I worked out (before thanksgiving?!). I've thrown away probably $200 worth of spoiled food because I've been too fucking lazy and exhausted to cook. I'm writing this to get myself more on track than anything. We're struggling financial because of the eating out. It's ridiculous. I can't wait for this move/selling that my parents are going through so that I can actually have some help once in a while as opposed to burning the candle at both ends. That being said, anyone looking to buy a house in Tucson?

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It's my 29th birthday in 59 minutes

I am so sick of my 20s. I'm so glad this is the last year of it.

Only good things about my 20s is my husband and sweet baby.

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I had to write this email today and I'm still steaming about it: Hello [redact], I am in your advanced nutrition class. I was beyond distraught at your section on breastfeeding and weaning as there were quite a few facts that were completely wrong. In fact they are perpetually taught as facts and it's infuriating. Breastfeeding is tough. I've been doing it for 2 years & 3 months and the misinformation out there is maddening. I'm hoping that you will retract the information in your next lecture as you are teaching the next generation of nutritionist and we need to stop the flow of incorrect information! (1) if a mom is sober enough to hold her baby she is fine to nurse. Women do not need to wait 4 hours after a drink nor do they need to pump and dump. (2) caffeine enters breastmilk in negligible amounts. (3) a baby should have NO solid food before 6 months. Not 4-6 months. 6 months. Prior to 6 months causes gut (and I believe stomach) issues. (4) food before 1 is just for fun. If a baby is still nursing they do not NEED any food to help with anything. They could live solely (and healthily) off breastmilk until 1. (5) while breastfeeding does burn a substantial amount of calories, poles show most women (above 50%) do not lose weight faster by breastfeeding. Some even gain weight AND both sets of women get frustrated because they've been told they would lose weight. Also I believe WHO now recommend breastfeeding until at least 2. And the world average of weaning is 3-5 years of age (which you didn't mention). I can send you literature that backs this up soon. But I'm in bed stuck under my nursing toddler right now and just wanted to get this email off while I was thinking of it. I do really hope you consider changing those slides and informing your students it has changed. Thank you for your time.

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I started my period

I can't stop watching "Devious Maids." Or crying. And I can't stop thinking about what might happen tomorrow. Is it just another meeting? Is it a job offer? Am I about to not be a stay at home mom?

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I have been so. busy. I'm in school again (shaw academy nutrition), I'm working a few freelance design jobs, plus working out & cooking & being a mom! But I feel like I'm back on track. A few people have commented on how much weight I've lost (I haven't. Still holding strong at 225 lol) but I guess I've lost inches. I should measure.... Anyway. I'm excited to be back in nutrition & doing better! Game plan for now: 100 oz of water a day. 7 fruits & vegetables. 30 mins of physical activity a day.

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Fuck you

Seriously? No excuses? No excuses?! I never said I was making excuses. I have a 2 year old & a husband working 6 days a week. 10-12 hr days. My house is a wreck. I'm never home. I work out hard once a week because that's literally the only time I have. It's not an excuse. It's a priority. My son is my priority. It's. Not. An. Excuse. I don't need your flippant verbiage that you *think* is motivational.

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Trigger

Everything seems to trigger my binge eating. I'm so sick of being fat. I'm sick of that overfull feeling. I'm sick of being depressed & frustrated & exhausted.

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I am super-duper shocked I zipped this jeans. I haven't been able to zip a pair of size 12s in 3 years! I had a maaaajor muffin top but polar bear don't care they zipped! I'm also finally back to my post whole-30 weight. It's been a stressful few months....

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Grilled cheese & peas for my toddler (after nap) & raw red bell peppers & eggplant hummus for me after a busy morning at the zoo. Hellos to every animal! It was adorable.

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Second birthday party in the bag. 😭😭😭😭😭 Also. I need to stop. eating. cake.

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Hey everyone! The last few weeks have been non-stop and my toddler turns two on Tuesday (sob)! I finished up my groupon for the personal trainer & I cannot believe the strides I've made. I can touch the ground now (that's a biiiiig fucking deal for me) and do legit squats! My eats been eh, but between being so busy & a bad case of the poors I'm not surprised. Weight wise I keep losing & gaining the same two pounds. I'm doing terrible on hydrating myself. I have no idea why. It's just been a huge struggle. Now I'm off to get ready to take the toddler to a fire station for a tour & then getting ready for the Sesame Street party we're having here tomorrow. Zoinks

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Dear toddlers of the world: how is this comfortable?! PS Arizona was on point tonight.

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::Scene:: Toddler: here you go mama! (hands me apple) Apple! Big apple! Me: yes. Thank you. Toddler: mama eat! Me: (takes a bite) Toddler: no no no my apple. Me: 😑

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Made the toddler (& me) smoothie packs! Bananas, berries, apples, wheat grass, flax, chia, oats & Brewers yeast. All I have to do is add full fat plain Greek yogurt & juice (either carrot/orange or peach/mango). Hopefully this makes my mornings a little easier! Also!! The toddler ate 3 bites of eggs this morning & a chorus of angels sung "hallelujah!"

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I'm so cranky today. I guess tired would be more accurate. These 2 year molars are killing me. So many 1:30/2/3am wake ups that take forever to get him back to sleep, if I even can. Yesterday's work out was so good. I can feel my rang of motion improving. I'm already sad I'll have to stop with the personal trainer soon and I have 5 sessions left. After training we went swimming at my grandmas. We're working on getting the toddler to not cling desperately to me so I can actually swim. It worked a little bit, I need goggles though. I cannot believe my toddler is 2 in a month. Here are cute pictures to cover up me being sad & cranky.