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updated june 9th 2026

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terrified to check the scale after this weekend. pray for me or something 😭

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not being so active because am on that medieval festival weekend trip. coming home late tomorrow evening. quite overwhelmed and stressed by wether i'll have gained or not

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lynxie I did it! I finally got the courage to get a cane for summer camp!

yay!!! that is so great to hear!!!! i hope it makes life easier for you ☺️🩷🩷

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partially dislocated my shoulder as i was waking up. hurts.

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I GOT PAID! OH RELIEF!!!

it's amazing how depressed you get from not having enough money to be alive

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going on that weekend trip to the ren faire today with my fiancé, a friend-couple of ours, and their friend whom my fiancé and i don't like that much.

i legit just have 30$ to my name, and only my fiancé knows how poor i am atm, and the rest of them are from...quite privileged backgrounds, so i'm just feeling extremely anxious about being told "you should buy that thing! why didn't you buy that thing?? 😮" all weekend

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last night i was informed that my evil abusive ex and his gf broke up a while ago.

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getting ready for a party whilst watching barbie movies

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accidental liquid fast before the party. just 2 iced oatmilk coffees, one w sugar and one without. there might be gf pizza at the party cause i did inform the party committee of my gluten intolerance, but it's never a guarantee that they listen

so maybe a complete liquid fast day or having some gf pizza later tonight

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end of year uni summer party tonight 🌺 not sure what to wear or what style of makeup to do

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odd question. Do you have elhers danlos syndrome? (Probably spelled that incorrect)

that's what my doctors suspect, and what i have all the symptoms of, but the healthcare system sucks in my country when it comes to chronic illnesses, so i'm waiting for the updated diagnostic criteria in december to see if i can get re-assessed. first time i got assessed the rare illnesses specialist spent half of the entire session talking about how "we live in an instagram world where everyone thinks there's something wrong with them", and claimed i wasn't hypermobile, when my joints straight up dislocate from normal activity, several other specialists say i am "very hypermobile" and i was hypermobile enough to qualify for several braces... (+ i have the stretchy skin, POTS, gastrointestinal issues, abnormal scarring/wound healing, random allergic reactions, histamine intolerance, endometriosis, autism, etc...)

i might just move to the neighbouring country (my birth-country) and try to get assessed there tbh because to get diagnosed with ehlers danlos in this country you need to be straight up dying or your whole family has to have had sudden early deaths in order for them to even take a proper look at you

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i actually get super anxious talking about it, especially hearing about other people getting diagnosed or tested because i feel so insanely jealous that they're in a country that knows more about it, or are just closer to an official diagnosis than i am. i am so terrified of never getting an official diagnosis and continuing to be barred from healthcare because of that, that i get panic attacks thinking about it. i don't mind replying to the ask, but sorry if i don't reply to anyone's comments/dms about it 😭❤️

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overate today. due to exhaustion/sleep-deprivation. feel like shit.

[smallestlynxie]

odd question. Do you have elhers danlos syndrome? (Probably spelled that incorrect)

that's what my doctors suspect, and what i have all the symptoms of, but the healthcare system sucks in my country when it comes to chronic illnesses, so i'm waiting for the updated diagnostic criteria in december to see if i can get re-assessed. first time i got assessed the rare illnesses specialist spent half of the entire session talking about how "we live in an instagram world where everyone thinks there's something wrong with them", and claimed i wasn't hypermobile, when my joints straight up dislocate from normal activity, several other specialists say i am "very hypermobile" and i was hypermobile enough to qualify for several braces... (+ i have the stretchy skin, POTS, gastrointestinal issues, abnormal scarring/wound healing, random allergic reactions, histamine intolerance, endometriosis, autism, etc...)

i might just move to the neighbouring country (my birth-country) and try to get assessed there tbh because to get diagnosed with ehlers danlos in this country you need to be straight up dying or your whole family has to have had sudden early deaths in order for them to even take a proper look at you

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the bruises on my legs legit look grotesque

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watching black swan

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mmm bloated, constipated, sleep deprived, and full of a ton of undigested veggies. scale up by 1.1ƙg this morning 💔

know it's not actual ŵeigĥt gain, but my brain is still screaming, and my stomach is still protruding with bloat.