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stats:

height: 152cm / 5’0

cw: 😭

lw: 41.8kg / 92 lbs

gw: 48kg / 106 lbs

i think one of the must mind numbingly exhausting things about restrictive eating disorders has to be the waiting. Waiting till you get to weigh yourself, waiting for your fast to finish, waiting till you get to eat, waiting for your friends to leave so you can log your calories, waiting for your workout to be over, waiting for you to lose the weight. It's like you're stuck in this never ending state of waiting, the days, sometimes the hours or even minutes just drag on and it's awful but almost worse it's so boring and you can distract yourself, you can be busy every second of every day but it's impossible to distract yourself from the fact that it's all just a way to pass time to get some destination that's impossible to reach.

kosmogrl

yeah I will never get over that fact that there's so much to see in this world and yet I'm stuck working 5 days a week, evil evil life

bagofcellz

I’m sorry for calling you obese, lowest weight. Please come back to me and I promise to treat you right bbg.

midnighttm00n

wish i had the type of ED where you forgot about eating/hate food. i count down every hour until i can eat again

irishestia

Does anyone else get embarrassed having an ed past 20 🥲 I feel like I’m getting too old to be dealing with shit that’s romanticized as a teen but once you become an adult it’s just inconvenient

hate-ana-but-deactivated2025081

Remember how you felt at your highest number?

Remember how you felt at your lowest number?

That should be enough motivation.

overwhelmed-overweight-deactiva

I lost 50lbs eating exactly 1,207 calories a day and exercising all the time for 5 months back in 2017. I didn't have a job, I wasn't going to college, I literally dedicated all of my brain power to self control and losing weight.

It's so goddamn hard losing weight now as an adult with numerous responsibilities. I'm more health conscious and active than ever but I just can't seem to focus hard enough on eating less.

I don't want to make excuses. But I'm so fucking exhausted trying to figure this out.

starve-or-get-a-cup-of-coffee-d

rather have a headache from not eating, than feeling bloated from binging

rosariumm

coming back to your senses halfway through a binge

nclsny

it’s never too late to start again. 5pm on a thursday can be your new monday. you don’t have to wait until the new year to better yourself. time is an illusion, don’t forget that. just because you woke up at 1pm, it doesn’t mean you messed your whole day up and that you can’t turn the mood around. it’s never too late to start again!!!