Ardnaxela

[free-my-mindd]

[smettila]

12/4/23 “As I got to Young Israel, the park nearby was overflowing w kids playing and moms hanging out w them. W the values we have - be off electronics, be with people. I thought of you and I felt the warmth of a brighter future l've wanted for years with you

I love you and want to be a good influence.”

1/26/24- my heart is shattered in pieces I feel like I can’t put back together. G-d please help me understand .

[smettila]

If it wasn’t for my dog. I really wouldn’t want to be here . I just got a Facebook memory of my life 10 years ago. And everything’s just gotten progressively worse. And I feel like it only gets worse, right? Eventually people die, you get uglier/older, pets die. I’m probably never going to find anyone to marry or have kids with so it’s not like I’ll get to experience any of those milestones. I was so much prettier 10 years ago and now I’m fugly and fat and no one wants me. All just fucking sucks .

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♾️

[smettila]

L'instant où nous nous sommes séparés - le battement de cœur de l'eau s'est arrêté.

L'eau que je voyais chaque fois que je plongeais mon regard dans le tien.

Au fil du temps-

Les feuilles ne chutaient plus gracieusement

Elles fanaient sur les branches

Mes yeux ne s'ouvraient plus aussi grand

Ils ne s'accrochaient plus à rien

Nous avions l'habitude de bouger à l'unisson avec la pluie.

Nous nous laissions tomber et revenir vers le ciel

S'attardant sur la peau de l'autre

Nous recouvrant complètement

Alors que nous bougions avec le monde, le temps s'arrêtait.

Quand nous nous sommes séparés, le battement de cœur de l'eau s'est arrêté

avec le mien.

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The moment we separated - the heartbeat of the water stopped.

The water I saw each time I looked into your eyes.

As time passed-

The leaves didn't fall beautifully

They shriveled off the branches

My eyes didn't open as wide

They held on to nothing

We once moved in unison with the rain.

We'd let ourselves fall and return to the sky

Lingering on one another's skin

Covering each other completely

As we moved with the world, time stood still.

When we separated, the heartbeat of the water stopped

with mine.

1-28-22

[smettila]

Ardnaxela

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Nessuno mi può giudicare, nemmeno tu

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This was the best night. January 7 2011. The start of the best year. I wonder if I’ll ever feel this again.

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it’s not getting any easier .

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Eels

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When does it get better?

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