Smoke Bloom

Life is smoke. Watch it disappearing.

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If you’re here

...be ready for the fact this profile is mostly mental shit release. How can we get rid of the shit we've gathered while living from others or ourselves? Just putting it outside to the light, watching it properly without analyzing. You just take it ouf of your deep so that it cannot stink on your life any longer. But this process takes time and it's gonna be a hard time ahead 'cause you're going to drop youself this way. Cause this "self" consists of this shit partially or fully. I thougth it would be easy to admit my negative but it turned out much more difficult than I'd expected. That's because we don't like to see ourselves this way. We don't wanna look angry, sulky, restless. We don't want to loose our negative affections acting masochistic because life sometimes seems to be so empty that we're ready to make it full of different things, even the shitty ones just not to feel life to be meaningless. But you know what it IS meaningless, nobody's watching you taking on account how many good or bad things you've done. Damn, what a childish idea of life-controlling. We people are so afraid of living and its meaningsless itself that we created a god not to aware that obvious thing. Well If you're reading this now and are already ready to convince me that the god IS don't just waste your time. Remember about the diversity of opinions and individuals, take it easy and go find to read smth else that doesn't bother you. This will be a diary I'm not even sure somebody'll ever read but it doesn't matter at all. I just need to feel like this is gonna be written for some addressee no matter whether he exists or not. So let's get the party started.

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If someone would ask me ‘What’d you like to shoot most of all?’ I’d certainly answer ‘It’s fog’. Yeah, this is my favorite nature phenomenon. Everything trivial becomes magic covered by the mist. Unfortunately fog is a rare occasion in my town. 

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I took up photography about 1-2 years ago. That’s because I have to self-express not to be surrounded by my fantasies so massive. It’s a good way to relax and also goes for developing of your attention too. Yes, I noticed I became more attentive than I used to be. 

Taking and editing shots is a nice way of speechless reltranstlation of your inner vision and perception. Actually I don’t understand creating without adding a little “self” to it. 

I ask myself what the hell I’m talking about it. I don’t know. The only thing I’m sure about is that I want to practice my English. You must have already noticed that I’m not a native english-speaker. I’ve never been abroad either. But I like learning languages. 

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I tried to capture sunset with a light like this many times. I finally did it.

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I've felt sick and tired of Instagram. I've escaped for some days. Do you know this feeling when somebody attacks you with his or her prejudice remembering how you were ten years ago or so? When you’re in a cotinuous process of changing, but people round you stay the same all time and you’re just getting bored with them? One day i decided to avoid judging people cause... people are people, They’re not perfect. It’s just impossible to be that kind but still this feeling comes back to me sometimes and I can’t help seeing them as a sort of creatures walking the same roads, doing the same things again and again, talking their usual talks. I remember Rustin Cohle and his ‘Life is a flat circle’. May be it is. For some people. 

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Jonny Slut (Specimen)