LTF - Ch. 37
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Notes: This story takes place in 1986 up to the Top Gun: Maverick timeline. I will try to get it as accurate as possible. There may be some mistakes, so please don't hold that against me.
You sat at your desk, the divorce papers spread neatly in front of you, untouched for longer than you cared to admit.
It was early Saturday morning, and it was quieter than you expected.
Too quiet.
The house felt different nowâemptier in a way that had nothing to do with furniture or space. It was the kind of quiet that settled in after something significant had passed through and left its mark behind.
Tomâs handwritingâprecise, controlledâstared back at you from the margins. Notes. Edits. Adjustments. Everything thought through, just like he always did.
You traced your finger lightly along the edge of the top page but didnât turn it.
Not yet.
Your mind drifted back to the night before.
The drive to the airport had been⊠normal.
That was the strange part.
Tommy had been in the backseat, talking about something from schoolâsomething about a project or a game or a kid in his classâand you and Tom had listened like you always did. Like nothing had changed. Like you werenât driving him to catch a flight that felt heavier than any deployment ever had.
You could still see itâTom glancing over at you at a red light, just for a second. Not saying anything. Just⊠looking.
Like he had wanted to.
Like maybe there had been something there he didnât know how to put into words.
You swallowed, blinking the memory away as your eyes dropped back to the papers in front of you.
The airport had been quick.
Too quick.
Tommy had hugged him first, arms tight around his middle, and Tom had held on just a second longer than usual.
âBe good for your mom,â heâd said, his voice steadyâbut softer than it used to be.
âI am good,â Tommy had shot back, earning the smallest hint of a smile from him.
Then Tomâs eyes had found yours.
No crowd around you. No rushing. Just that same suspended second you seemed to keep finding yourselves in lately.
"Text or call me that you got home okay," you said.
He nodded. "I will."
And that had been it.
No drawn-out goodbye. No touching. No risk of crossing a line that had already been blurred enough the night before.
Just a look.
And then he turned and walked away.
He did text you later that he had made it home.
You exhaled slowly, bringing yourself back to the present as your fingers finally lifted the first page.
The sound of paper shifting felt louder than it should have in the stillness of the house.
Your eyes moved slowly across the page, taking in the structured, deliberate way Tom had laid everything out.
It was exactly how he flew.
Precise. Controlled. No wasted movement.
No room for error.
The first section was straightforwardâcustody.
He wanted shared custody of Tommy. Equal time, as much as his schedule would allow, with the understanding that his deployments and assignments would shift things. When he was stateside, he wanted to be present. Consistent. Reliable.
There was even a note in the marginâflexible around school schedulesâunderlined once.
Your throat tightened slightly.
Next came the house.
Tom had outlined that it would be sold.
Clean. Practical. No emotional attachment written into itâjust logistics. The proceeds split fairly, with a note about timing the sale around school breaks to minimize disruption for Tommy.
Another small note in the marginâcan stay on base housing once finalized.
Of course.
He wasnât planning on keeping it. Wasnât trying to hold onto something that didnât fit his life anymore. Base housing was simpler. Temporary. Easier to leave when duty called.
Easier⊠in a lot of ways.
Your chest felt a little tighter as you kept reading.
His pension and military benefits were addressed with the same quiet fairnessâsplit in a way that made sense, nothing excessive, nothing selfish. He wasnât trying to take more than his share.
If anything⊠it felt like he was making sure you were taken care of.
Spousal support was minimal, almost an afterthought, structured more as a safety net than anything permanent.
And then the last section.
Clean.
Final.
No contesting. No drawn-out proceedings. No dragging each other through something uglier than it already was.
Even here⊠he was trying to protect what little remained between you.
You sat back slightly in your chair, the paper still in your hands.
It wasnât cold.
It wasnât cruel.
It was⊠Tom.
Practical where it hurt. Careful where it mattered. Loving, in the quiet, restrained way heâd always been.
Your fingers brushed lightly over the edge of the page.
Of course he did it like this.
Of course he made it as simple as possible.
That was Tom.
You sighed softly when you heard the back door open.
There was only one other person who had a key.
Riley.
You listened as she moved through the kitchen like she always didâcomfortable, familiar. The cabinet opened, a mug pulled down. The quiet pour of coffee. The soft clink of ceramic against the counter.
Normal sounds.
Everyday sounds.
A sharp contrast to everything sitting in front of you.
Her footsteps grew closer, unhurried, until she appeared in the doorway of your office.
You looked up.
Riley leaned against the frame, mug in hand, studying you a little too closely.
âWell,â she said lightly, lifting the mug to her lips, âyou look like someone whoâs either had a very long week⊠or a very interesting one.â
You huffed out a quiet breath, leaning back in your chair. âItâs been a week.â
âThat bad, huh?â she asked, stepping inside without waiting for an invitation, her eyes flicking briefly to the papers spread across your desk. âOr⊠that complicated?â
You hesitated just a second too long.
And Riley caught it.
She always did.
Her brows lifted slightly as she took another sip of her coffee, watching you over the rim.
âWell?â she asked, more pointed now.
âIt was⊠fine,â you said, knowing even as the words left your mouth that they sounded weak.
Riley let out a quiet, knowing hum.
âMm,â she murmured. âBullshit, I donât believe you.â
Your lips pressed together, but you didnât argue.
That was all it took.
Riley straightened slightly, her expression shiftingâcuriosity sharpening into something more perceptive.
âOkay,â she said slowly. âSo not just âfine.ââ
You exhaled through your nose, shaking your head faintly. âRileyââ
âNo, no,â she cut in, holding up a hand, already piecing it together. âLet me guess. He comes into town, you two play house for a few days, thereâs unresolved tension, years of historyââ
You closed your eyes briefly.
That was another answer.
Riley blinked once.
Then twice.
ââŠOh my God,â she said, lowering her mug just slightly. âYou didnât.â
You didnât say anything.
Didnât look at her.
Didnât have to.
Her eyes widened.
âYou did,â she breathed, equal parts disbelief and understanding. âYou and Tomââ
âRiley,â you warned quietly, finally looking up at her.
But there was no real heat behind it.
Just⊠resignation.
She stared at you for a second longer, then let out a slow breath, shifting her weight as she processed it.
âOkay,â she said after a moment, calmer nowâbut her voice softer. âOkay.â
Another beat passed.
ââŠDo you regret it?â
The question landed gently, but it still landed.
Your gaze dropped back to the papers in front of you, your fingers resting against the edge of them.
You thought about the night before.
The way it hadnât felt like a mistake.
The way it had felt like⊠something real.
âNo,â you said quietly. âI donât.â
Riley watched you carefully for a beat, like she was weighing thatâturning it over, making sure you meant it.
Then she shrugged lightly, taking another sip of her coffee.
âI mean,â she said casually, âI wouldnât either. Heâs still hot.â
You rolled your eyes, heat creeping into your cheeks despite yourself. âGeez, Riles.â
âWhat?â she shot back, a hint of a grin tugging at her mouth. âIâm just saying what everyone else is thinking.â
âNo one else is thinking that,â you muttered.
âOh, please,â Riley scoffed, pushing off the doorframe and stepping further into the room. âTop Gun golden boy husband shows up looking like that? You expect me to believe there wasnât at least a moment where you were likeââ she gestured vaguely, âââhmm, maybe this is a bad idea⊠but also maybe not?ââ
You tried to hold your expression steady.
You failed.
Rileyâs grin widened. âYeah. Thatâs what I thought.â
You shook your head, but there was no real annoyance behind itâjust a tired kind of amusement.
âIt wasnât like that,â you said, quieter now.
Her expression softened almost immediately.
âNo?â she asked gently.
You hesitated, your fingers tracing the edge of the papers again.
âIt wasnât just⊠physical,â you admitted. âThatâs the problem.â
Riley didnât interrupt this time.
Didnât joke.
Didnât push.
She just listened.
âIt feltâŠâ you trailed off, searching for the right word before settling on the only honest one. âFamiliar.â
That seemed to land harder than anything else.
Riley exhaled slowly, nodding once. "Okay."
"Until he told me had divorce papers for e to look over."
The words came out flatter than you meant them to, but they still carried weight.
Rileyâs expression shifted, her brows pulling together slightly. âOuch,â she murmured, quieter now. âYeah⊠thatâll do it.â
You let out a small breath, your gaze dropping back to the stack in front of you.
âIt was like being pulled right back into reality,â you said. âOne second it felt like⊠nothing had changed. And the nextââ you gestured faintly to the papers, ââthis.â
Riley leaned her hip against the edge of your desk, crossing her arms loosely.
âThatâs the thing about history,â she said. âIt doesnât disappear just because the present looks different for a minute.â
You huffed softly. âYeah, well⊠wouldâve been nice if it did.â
A small smile tugged at her lips, but it didnât quite reach her eyes.
âMm. Temporary amnesia for emotional damage? Pretty sure everyone would sign up for that.â
That earned the faintest hint of a smile from you.
It faded just as quickly.
âI think what messes with me the most,â you admitted, quieter now, âis that it wasnât awkward. It wasnât forced. It just⊠happened. Like we never stopped knowing each other.â
Riley didnât respond right away.
She just watched you, thoughtful.
âDo you wish it hadnât?â she asked finally.
You shook your head almost immediately.
âNo.â
No hesitation.
No doubt.
Her eyes softened slightly at that.
âOkay,â she said again, more certain this time. âThen donât turn it into something ugly just because the timing sucks.â
You glanced up at her.
âIâm not,â you said. âI justââ you paused, exhaling slowly. âI donât know what to do with it.â
Riley gave a small shrug. âMaybe you donât have to do anything with it.â
You frowned slightly.
âThat sounds like avoidance.â
âItâs not,â she countered. âItâs acceptance. Thereâs a difference.â
She gestured toward the papers.
âThis?â she said. âThis is a decision. A legal one. A practical one.â
Then she nodded toward you.
âAnd that?â she added, softer. âThat was something real. You donât have to shove it into the same box just because they happened at the same time.â
You sat with that for a moment, letting it settle.
Letting it make sense.
Your fingers brushed over the top page again, but this time your grip didnât tighten.
âSo, what do the divorce papers say?â Riley asked, nodding toward the stack.
You let out a quiet breath, leaning back slightly in your chair. âPretty much exactly what youâd expect from Tom. Split custody of Tommy. He wants to sell the house and divide the profits.â You paused, glancing down at the page. âThereâs alimony, and I get a portion of his pension⊠but only if I never remarry.â You huffed softly, a hint of dry humor slipping through. âGotta love the military.â
Rileyâs eyes widened, her posture straightening. âWaitâhold on. You wonât get any of his military pension if you remarry?â
âCorrect.â
She blinked, clearly trying to process that. âThat feels⊠wildly unfair.â
You gave a small shrug, though it didnât quite reach your eyes. âItâs standard. There are rules about how itâs structured. Survivor benefits, remarriage clauses⊠all of it.â
Riley shook her head, taking a slow sip of her coffee. âSo basically, if you ever move on with someone else, you lose that safety net?â
âPretty much.â
âWow,â she muttered. âNothing says âfresh startâ like a built-in penalty.â
That pulled the faintest smirk from you.
âYeah,â you said. âItâs not exactly subtle.â
Riley studied you for a moment, her expression shifting againâless disbelief now, more curiosity.
ââŠAnd how do you feel about that?â she asked.
Your gaze dropped back to the papers, thumb sliding along the margin where Tom had made one of his neat, precise notes.
âI think,â you said slowly, âit makes everything feel a lot more⊠permanent.â
Riley didnât interrupt.
âItâs one thing to sign papers,â you continued quietly. âItâs another to realize the government has already decided what moving on is supposed to look like.â
Riley exhaled softly, leaning her hip against the desk again.
âDo you think he put that in there on purpose?â she asked. âOr is it just⊠standard issue Iceman paperwork?â
You shook your head immediately. âNo, thatâs not him. If anything, he made this easier on me than he had to.â
Your fingers tapped lightly against the page.
âHeâs not trying to trap me,â you added. âHeâs trying to⊠take care of things. The only way he knows how.â
Rileyâs expression softened at that.
âYeah,â she murmured. âThat sounds like him.â
A quiet settled over the room again, but it wasnât as heavy as beforeâjust thoughtful.
Then Riley tilted her head slightly, a glint of something returning to her eyes.
ââŠStill doesnât change the fact that you slept with him right before reviewing all of this.â
You closed your eyes briefly. âRileyââ
âIâm just saying,â she continued, holding up her hands innocently, âthe timing? Incredible. Truly.â
Despite everything, a small laugh slipped out of you.
âYeah,â you admitted, shaking your head. âTell me about it.â
Riley smirked, tilting her head. âYouâre such a slut,â she teased.
You snorted, grabbing the stress ball off your desk and tossing it at her.
It bounced harmlessly off her shoulder.
âHey!â she laughed, catching it before it hit the floor. âIâm kiddingâmostly.â
You shook your head, a reluctant smile still lingering. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd you,â she shot back, pointing the stress ball at you, âare deflecting.â
Your smile faded just slightly at thatâjust enough for her to notice.
Rileyâs expression softened, her tone easing. "You're not thinking about giving this all up and going back, are you?"
You looked at her. "As much as I love that man...no. I can't do that again. I finally have the life I wanted." You sigh. "i just wish he could've been involved."
Riley looked at you. "You two were great together back in the day."
You hesitated, then gave a small nod.
âYeah,â you said quietly as thoughts of your past seeped into your head. âYeah we were."
The pitter patter of feet running down the hallway broke you from your thoughts.
"Aunt Riley!" Tommy's voice yelled.
You watched as Riley turned around and you quickly put the divorce papers in a folder on your desk.
"Hey kiddo!" She lifted Tommy into her arms.
That night, after putting Tommy to bed, you returned to your office and pulled the manila folder back onto your desk. For a moment, you just stared at it.
Then you opened it.
You flipped through the pages againâslower this time, more deliberate. Reading every line and note. Every careful decision heâd made.
By the time you reached the last page, your mind was made up.
You reached for your phone and dialed Tomâs number.
He answered on the first ring.
âHey,â he said.
âI take it youâre at work?â you asked, glancing at the clock.
âYeah,â he replied. âEverything okay?â
You exhaled softly, leaning back in your chair.
âYeah,â you said. âI went through the papers.â
There was a brief pause on the other endâquiet, but attentive.
âAnd?â he asked.
âTheyâre⊠fair,â you answered honestly. âMore than fair. I agree to all of it.â
You could almost hear the shift in his posture through the phoneâthe way he processed things, steady and controlled.
âOkay,â he said, voice low.
âI mean it,â you continued. âCustody, the house, everything. It all makes sense.â
âAlright,â he repeated, a little more firmly this time. âThen weâll move forward.â
You nodded to yourself, even though he couldnât see it.
âWhat happens next?â you asked.
Tom didnât hesitate.
âSince weâve already been separated almost a year, Virginia makes it pretty straightforward,â he explained. âWe can file as an uncontested divorce. No court fight, no drawn-out hearings.â
His tone shifted slightlyâmore procedural now, like he was walking you through a checklist.
âThereâs a mandatory separation period, but weâve already met it,â he continued. âSo once we file the agreement and paperwork, itâs mostly administrative. A judge reviews it, signs off, and thatâs it.â
âThatâs it?â you echoed quietly.
âYeah,â he said. âNo court appearance unless something gets contested. Which it wonât.â
A small, almost ironic breath left you.
âOf course it wonât,â you murmured.
Tom was quiet for a second.
âI wanted it to be as easy on you as possible,â he said.
Your chest tightened slightly at that, but your voice stayed steady. âI know.â
Another pause settled inâfamiliar now, but not uncomfortable.
Just⊠real.
âIâll have my lawyer file everything Monday,â he added. âIâll send you copies of whatever you need.â
âOkay,â you said.
Silence lingered for a moment longer, like neither of you was quite ready to hang upâbut neither of you knew what else to say either.
âTomâŠâ you started, then stopped.
He waited.
You swallowed lightly, your grip tightening just slightly on the phone.
âThank you,â you said finally. âFor⊠how you handled all of this.â
His response came quieter.
âYeah,â he said. âOf course.â
Another pause.
Thenâ
âIâll talk to you soon,â he added.
âYeah,â you said softly. âYou will.â
And when the call ended, the silence that followed didnât feel as heavy.
Just⊠final. As a single tear slowly rolled down one side of your face.
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This literally is me as I pulled a pint of ice cream from the freezer before reading this chapter.










