Truth or a dream? | seongwoo
genre: angst
member: seongwoo
requested: nope
summary: you never knew that you are just a rebound to the most important person on earth to you.
side note: hiii everyone!! i’m not sure if anyone still remembers me but i’m back here with another scenario :> i know this is really out of the blue because i’ve disappeared for a good 8 months since my last scenario and trust me, i really do miss updating and writing as much as i used to do.
it has been a really really long time since i wrote something so please do forgive me because i know this is really crap... i just wanted to write something but unfortunately, i think i have lost all of my writing skills which really suck :( even having hiatus for 8 months, i still can’t get my life together :’) can someone explain why is my life such a mess
anyways,, i do hope everyone is doing well in this new year 💓
“how can i ever forget someone that once meant the world to me?” you sighed as you lied on your bed
you honestly wished you knew the risk of love earlier
way earlier before you met seongwoo
because he crushed every little hope you have about love in your mind
just like how fairy tales are never true
looking at the condition of your heart, you knew it is a wiser choice to have never meet seongwoo at all
you thought seongwoo is finally the one after waiting patiently for all these years
you thought that he’s the guy that would stay with you
that would embrace your flaws
that would love you when you let your true self out
you thought seongwoo could help you get out of your comfort zone and turn your life around
but guess what
your dreams of finding such a person don’t exist after all
you had chills all over whenever you thought about seongwoo
because he fits exactly into your ideal type
tall? checked
a witty person? checked
having boyfriend manners that would melt your heart? checked
you just don’t get it sometimes
seongwoo fits exactly into your ideal type
and yet
he is also the one that broke your heart
ironic isn’t it?
and no matter how hard you try
your mind still remembers every single day with him, clearly
as in your memories with seongwoo is already part of your blood
right from day one, where you first met him at your part-time job, at the convenience store
he already left a positive impression
you realized how happy you were back then
and not only the first day
it happened for the next day and the day after
and surprisingly, even after bidding goodbye to seongwoo
that smile on your face has never left
he is probably the first guy that made you smile in such a long while
you assumed that all these kind of wild thoughts you were having would only last a couple of days
but oh boy
you are very wrong here
you smiled and brush off the thought of possibly falling in love with him
you even suspected yourself for being crazy for liking someone that you just met 2 weeks ago??
“nah nah that is not happening and that will never happen”
butttt
the more you denied, the harder you fall for seongwoo
you realized how doomed you are when he’s the last and first person on your mind
and before you know it, you really did like seongwoo already
your heart isn’t helping as well
it is already beating so fast just with the thought of seeing him later in the evening
the thought of having dinner together also gets you excited
and your smile got even wider after knowing that both of you stay near each other
“i swear you’re driving me nuts, seongwoo” that’s your conclusion whenever your heart beats like mad
and when you finally see at the store, oh boy
you could become like a fool
and honestly, it was freaking hard to control your feelings
when seongwoo would trap you between those shelves when you couldn’t reach for something on top
or all those moments where he would ruffle or pat your head just because he thinks you’re cute
your feelings would just get deeper each time
and every single day at work, it is just like an adventure
you have no idea what he would say to make your heart race a little more
“i got your back, you can always lean on me”
seongwoo reassures you whenever he could tell that something is bothering you
with that, your trust got deeper each time, knowing that he always say such comforting words
you started letting seongwoo into your heart, thinking that he is someone worth entering your heart
you knew you were in love with seongwoo when you wrote everything that happened for the day in your diary
simply because you’re afraid that you will forget about all these precious memories that won’t come twice
you’re so afraid that a disaster might happen tomorrow and seongwoo would just leave you
but guess what :-)
each day with seongwoo just gets better
you have never look forward to working this much before
although it can be freaking tiring to sit there and just stare at all those snacks
but you know when seongwoo joins you for work, you never felt tired anymore
and even on days where seongwoo is working on another shift, your heart still skips a beat whenever you see his name appear on your phone’s notification
you’re just super happy whenever he texts you
and although you guys could be talking about random stuff, that makes your heart full enough
and the fact that he always tells you goodnight is really warming you up
at this rate, you started questioning yourself if seongwoo ever likes you
and when Christmas day comes, you really thought you got yourself an answer
“if you wanna see the christmas tree at the town later on, i don’t mind meeting you and we could go together”
when you read that text, you’re about to explode into billion pieces
did your crush really just asked you out????
you couldn’t believe your eyes
obviously, you agreed and went to meet seongwoo
oh god you thought working with him at the store alone is nice enough
that night was the best night ever
there wasn’t a moment that you didn’t stop smiling
you guys walked so close to each other that your shoulders would meet his once in a while
not to mention
your hands would brush against his and seongwoo didn’t even bother moving away
it was so freaking obvious you were in love that night
and that night is also the night you were pretty sure seongwoo felt the same way
you guys took a photo together like how couples would do
he held you close by the waist
while your heart could jump out any moment
after that night, things continued to get better
until one day
a day, just like any other day
but just that things started to collapse
seongwoo started working lesser and lesser
same goes for the number of text
and even if you do text him, you just couldn’t help but sense that coldness in his tone
“what’s wrong?” you wondered to yourself
you didn’t want to sound to overprotective and ask him that
your heart started to ache because it’s a question that you’ll never have the answer to
you constantly prayed that this would stop and it is just a nightmare for a day
but things continued to spiral down
he didn’t bother replying to your text
and you know things are so wrong when he decided to ignore and walk past you when you’re obviously there standing, looking at him
it drives you crazy
because how can someone that means the world to you, is also the reason why you’re hurting now
you just don’t understand how could things changed in a week
just shortly in a week, you forget how it’s like to smile
how it’s like to go to bed without having these endless thoughts running around
you just couldn’t figure out why
until your close friend, soojin asked if there’s anything bothering you and you just spilled everything
“i’m sorry that you’re going through this now but from what i see... i think you’re just a rebound to seongwoo”
“seongwoo just broke up with his girlfriend 2 months before you came and... they lasted for a good 5 years”
“... rebound?”
that’s all it takes to break your heart
now that you recalled every single memory, every single day spent with seongwoo
it really does seem like it
you were just a rebound after all
how great is that
now the question is, “how can i ever forget someone that once meant the world to me?”
you sighed as you lied your bed
were you in a dream all these while?
plsss do forgive me if this is really bad!! :(