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nothing can make me feel anything except annoyed or disgusted or angry or bitter or sad or anxious or tired fml

my head wont stop saying im someone im notitwontstopitwontstopitwontstopitwontstop im not him stop trying to tell me i am,,

but then,,, who am i? if not a piece of shit

can somone drown me in methylane blue

i get it i get itigetitigetit im antisocial and its obvious ik ik i smell like shit and im chopped and im bitter and insecure and angry at everyone and everything anf im so fucking pressed all hthe time over shit that doesnt matter f i get it i get it i geti it i get it im a eretarrd n ik its not that deep its never that deep ntothing ever is

#it is to me #its alwyas that fuckign deep #i cant let it go #i hate it sm #fuck you all #get out of my head #where am i where did my voice go

all my thoughts are screaming at me from behidn the membrane of fog and noise and crying and i cant breahte WHY CANT I HEARTHEMWHYCANTIHEARMYOWNTHOUGHTSWHYTHEFUCKISITSOSILENTBUTSORESTLESSINMYOWNHEAD but as logn as i never understand i can enevr be anrgy right?nothingmakesanysense i cant make anything out its all jsut muttering and whispering and I CANT GER ANYFUCKING PEACE ANYWHERE but as long as i never hear anything it must be silence

#fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck #can yoy hear it #can you #what are they saying'#whay happend #i just woke up and i need to sleep forever

i made ts blog when i was depressed but now im js mad all the time and im js gonna post hate from now on lowkey

society doesnt exist,, its not real its made up,, the only thing thays real is me and everything i see in my mind,, everything else is a lie and not true and doesnt exist,,

if no one got me i know brain fog got me can i get an amen? or a cig.? or a hug..?

#fucking anythint #im so useless #i cant even movr my arms properlu #why does no one notice?

Im back and even weaker.. srry fr the hibernation if anyone cares.. id recap everything that happened but im so fucking far from reality i cant remember this morning

UP DOWN IP DOWN BEND OVER BACKWARDS FUCK YOURSELF OVE UP DOWN DOWN DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN KNEES CRACKING NECK SNAPPING UP DOWN UP DOWN DO IT RIGHT DO IT FAST DO IT NOW NOW UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN UPDOWNUPDOWNUPDOWN

wtf am i doing w my life wtf is this blog

#fucking sucks but #so does almost trying to kys after one argument #with ur only friend #and making a fool of urself splitting on them because ur so insecure #and being a toxic asshole in general #this is all i feel now #like my intestines need to wriggle out in shame and misery #i cant take it my heart is going to beat itself to death #my chest is sucked in my hand are shaking my legs cant hold me up #dont leave me

#maybe im self absorbed but some of these are weirdly familiar..#i tink im imagining things #what the fuck am i doing with my life

at this point i really do deserve to be in the pain im in cuz im just doing it to myself now

#guess which dumbass thought a doctor would take me seriously..#guess which bigger dumbass didnt stand up for himself..#i dont even know where to go from here #its always normal #its always fucking normal #my blood work is normal #my pain is normal #my attiude is somehow the only weird thing #because why complain that you have to take 6 pills a day to feel normal #just keep taking them #its not a fucking big deal its not significant at all #i feel so stupid #i feel so pathetic #im not even self sabatoging anymore i really just cant do this

if anything less than immediate death isnt a good reason to get medical help ill just wait till im already too far gone..

#well fuck me ig #my mom said i could go to rhe hospital #then came home drunk and told me i had to go early as fuck in the morning #when i wont be able to function #i know its pathetic to deny myself help just because im tired #but all i can do now is try to avoid anymore pain #i just want to sleep #maybe forever..

No one asked but idc if im a ‘poser’ emo isnt just abt the music anymore its also a style…

#idc abt 10 diff songs talking abt how bad a breakup is #or how ur classmates a big meanie #stfu #hollywood undead over that bs everyday #either b angry or horny or ready 2 party #like stop whining..

ill just skip a few more meals and this whole nightmare will be all over

#ill look beautiful #and ill be at peace #i want an open casket #i dont have the energy to help myself no one has the energy to help me so..#its only a matter of time #the sky is falling down on me #the whole world is hell #we are in debt #and i keep splitting on my only friend #now shes sick of me #AND HOLY FUCK WE ARE IN SO MUCH DEBT

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