No question it problem is stupid. Hang in there I've had issues my whole life, PTSD, ADHD, anxiety and depression I'm still here and doing my best. I've fallen 100 times but I get back up and just keep going. I'm 61
Also have child abuse issues do I try not to take myself to seriously. I find myself here at the moment this lady well my gf she calls me names all the time so I finally out for down and told her I'm leaving tomorrow which is in a few hours to I'll find a soberr living environment. I start a job in Thursday I'm excited. This women don't deserve my time. If to need things it's it scary yes but I'll be ok I have that faith. Do hang in there. Things change constantly. Keep on walking thru. Good bless, be good to you above all else. Hugs