One step at a time

Just me talking about my life occasionally.This is a side blog to @belathora 

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Last year was rough, looking like more of the same. Not great for my mental health. (Pretty sure I am not alone in that sentiment)

last year started with my cat dying. miss her so much.

My sister had another baby at the end of summer. Adorable chunky baby. Her other is a mischievous demon child, love him so much.

Been avoiding the bulk of my mom's side of the family because they voted for this shitty regime.

and after bailing on the family christmas thing I spent several months making scarves for the family, they decided to do it this year and then guilt me for not going this year. (last year) so that was fun.

my mom is not my mom anymore, not disowned just who is this woman. she's acting like my dead dad and I hate that so much.

Very upset at myself for not getting anything written and posted/published. second year of no writing. Hate that for me.

I am trying to get back on track. Just letting too many things get in my way of it.

anyway, I'm alive. surviving.

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I should post a Life update soon. In the meantime, have a pic of my long put off blanket thingy.

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Been forgetting to plop things here. Have some life updates.

Sad stuff. Lost 5 family members since in the past 4 years. One from Covid. two from cancer. one old age. and one's body just couldn't fight itself anymore.

My sister had her miracle baby. (with her medical stuff it was thought highly unlikely she'd have one.) He's 2 now, I babysit him while she works and he is an exhausting rascal. Adorable little shit, the curls.

Hubbs changed jobs. The other job was draining the life out of him. He's much happier and making a little more than what he was before, which is helpful for us.

Almost lost our house. Still in debt. But it is less overwhelming for the most part. also learned our house is covered in lead based paint. Lovely.

Angery things. parts of my family voted for the fascist and I am having a crisis about it. others didn't vote. I understand that more than the voting for orange tv man.

mostly just doing my best to not sink back into the depths of depression and anxiety full time.

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The Queen of England died yesterday on my birthday. The memes were many. 

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practicing visible stitching. I think this works well for my wonky sewing skills. 

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little things irritating me today. nothing that should be bothering me but they are regardless. 

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We are most likely going to overdraft this week because mortgage is coming out and there isn’t enough to cover water and/or power. With no overtime and and a box of cookies as a Christmas/Thanks for killing yourself this year gift from Hubb’s work, I am ripping my hair out and crying a lot. If you can help that would be lovely. 

This year as certainly been a year…

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I‘ll take care of her!

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Every time I declutter a space she has to explore it.

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2020 has just been one long dissociation. Suicidal thoughts did creep back into my brain. I’m fine (well not really), I do have a good enough support base to keep the demons at bay even while I find myself in a depressive state constantly when not having constant anxiety attacks about having to buy food to feed my household.  It’s weird because I feel like it is still the beginning of the year. I also feel like I am still in a dream-state most days even while forcing myself out of bed to make sure my spouse and child are able to do their work and school things.

I don’t know what to expect in the coming year, I am not sure how this one is going to end. But I’m existing, so yay?

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omfg that is just too adorable

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This kitteh having a little halloween adventure is one of my favourite posts of all time :)

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Every fall like clockwork this photo set pops up and we all must reblog it

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You know it’s getting close to Halloween when you see it appear :D

This will always be one of my favorite comics ever. It gives me warm fuzzies~

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my heart….

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Pandemic Hairdo and playing with phone filter.

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The imp made another eye for my friend.

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The imp left an eye on my keyboard so I moved it to my friend.

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Think I am just going to use this side blog to plop random pictures I take. Because i hate seeing this side-blog sitting stagnant.

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Someone who had become a toxic friend reaches out a year later and I am just talking to them wondering if we are going to address the elephant in the room or not.