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International Women's Day

Monday 8th March 2021

2021 theme: #ChooseToChallenge

As a woman of Pasifika heritage, I choose to challenge the status quo of the ongoing issues women face:

*Low representation of women in leadership roles

*Social and cultural constructs that contribute to gender inequality

*Gender pay disparity -in the public sector there is currently a 27 percent pay gap between Pasifika women and Palagi men

*Violence against women and girls

I choose to challenge by questioning, speaking up and out, by encouraging, empowering and lifting up other women.

I choose to challenge these issues, for myself but more importantly for the next generation - including my daughter and nieces

"Each time a woman stands up for herself, without knowing it possibly, without claiming it, she stands up for all women"

"I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who teaches by being"

- Maya Angelo

Artist cred: @urbannesian

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Been a minute since I last posted on #tmblr Decided I'd revamp my account as a blog and an outlet to verbalise my thoughts.

After my finishing my first night shift in 7 months and endless months of surviving on two to three hours sleep (combined with not having energy to do jack shit besides work every other day) I slept in this morning and awoke with an ugly wake-in-panic moment which scared my poor puskat Lola lol

I'd missed three calls from my hairdresser about missing my 10am appointment but managed to reschedule the appointment and I'm literally here now writing this blog while my hair is getting did

After that mid morning panic attack, I had a phone call from a bro who moved out of town and who I'm missing my gossip catch ups with, I messaged another group of friends to organise something for our bro, whose Mum passed away then had banana on toast with a strong coffee while watching a crime documentary about the most infamous hotel in LA, where I stayed back in 2012 (that's another blog itself)

Like most people, I was glad to see the back of 2020 but when 2021 actually rolled over, I was feeling down and out. Trying as I always have, in gratitude but not sincerely feeling it.

Fortunately, I'm blessed and that I can recognise, acknowledge and hold tight too knowing that

1 - I'm surrounded by wonderful people in my personal and professional life, who have strong values, are like minded, have big hearts and allow me time to vent in a safe space.

Secondly, I'm not denying the signs that "hey, right now, I'm not in a great mental space" and choosing to actively address it

I'm making a concious effort to be kinder to myself moving forward not just to overcome this slump but to build up my resilience as a whole and with support and love from friends and family and my own dogged determination to get out of this mental rut.

I endeavour to silence the saboteur who lives rent free in my head. Who always questioning my happiness and so critical of everything I do. From judging how I look and my ongoing struggle with my weight to feverishly celebrating my faults and failures, like those arsehole neighbours who party for days on end while you miss out on sleep for work.

I'll share later how I think this mental rut came about but right now, I'm going to enjoy having someone else wash my hair, dye out my silver streaks and make my hair look good again (so I can tie it up in a bun like I have all my life lol) but I'm going to enjoy this moment.

#WorkingTowardsHappiness #TheJourney #BloggingItOut #PasifikaMentalHealth #WomensMentalHealth #MentalHealth #BuildingResilience #BeingHonest #EncourageOthersToLive

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So many things to do with you Yet so little time spent together Come back soon weekend and try not to rush away I love you weekend 😘

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trying to stick to my Lent vows but my mouth just got away from me.... I'm sorry 😞😔 #IGaveUpThugLifeForLent 😑

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Love this song Love this movie Movie night with my Lalah 💕 #aknightstale #GoldenYears

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I dunno what's better The pe'a or his physique 😍

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Last night of leave yet I'm feeling good Work 2016 Come at me bruh....I gotcha

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Not usually into lamington cakes But our neighbour makes them so well Afternoon tea 😃😄

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Shared by a friend on fb 'Just anything' don't cut it Not for my daughter

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Manuia le tausaga fou 😃😄

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A tragic day in Samoa history: 28.12.1929 The Mau movement began as early as the 1800s with early european colonial settlement in Samoa and strived for independence from foreign dominance Mau movement leader: Tupua Tamasese Lealofi III and several other Samoan are murdered with others injured by the New Zealand millitary police during a peaceful protest The last and dying words of Tupua Tamasese Lealofi III were 'My blood has been spilt for Samoa I am proud to give it Do not dream of avenging it, as it was spilt in peace If I die, peace must be maintained at any price' Respect and honour to our forefathers and mothers of Samoa for their bravery courage, perseverance and belief in an independent Samoa and to those who perished in the killings on #BlackSaturday Rest in Peace #SamoaMoSamoa

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Soundtrack for cleaning my room Day 8 day.... Yip it's been an 8 day stint 😒😞😂 Just don't know where to start I own too much shit But I'm not getting rid of anything lol #LoveMiguel #DoYouLike....

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Chill time......a classic from the Wayan bros with a mean as soundtrack Mo Money, Mo Money Yo 💵 #MoMoney

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Day 9 #100DaysOfHappiness I have had the privilege of having honorable, humble, strong and great women come into my life as friends Whether it was for a reason or a season each have gifted me me a life tool/skill, a different perspective, an affirmation or a constructive criticism..... regardless of what they imparted with me, I have am blessed with each of these gifts which have helped mould me into the woman I am today and I am grateful #EverydaySuperHeros #WomenOfWorth #WomenOfIntegrity #WomenOfStrength #WomenOfFaith #Blessed #NobleWomen

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Watchu know about #FannyPack 😆😂

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watching the humanitarian crisis of the Syrian refugees on the news and particularly since this precious wee childs lifeless bodies washed ashore, my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to the Syrian people in need.... If you're not in the know about whats going on........Anti-government demonstrations began in March 2011 demanding president Assad's regisnation and what began as peaceful protests escalated quickly with the Syrian government's violent reaction to the protests and Syrian rebels began fighting back against the regime. Further still, since the civil war begin, there is now in-fighting between the various rebel fractions More than four years after the Syrian civil war started the death toll is estimated at over 220,000 people, half of whom are believed to be civilians......innocent lives: men, women and children Currently more than 11 million people are displaced with hundreds of thousands of refugees attempt crossing to the Mediterranean Sea and often in over crowded dinghies in hope of a safe place The UN has reported that an estimated 12.2 million people are in need of humanitarian assistance inside Syria, including 5.6 million children What can we do to provide support? Red Cross New Zealand have a link for donations to aid the Mediterranean refugee crisis.... https://www.redcross.org.nz/donate/mediterranean-refugee-crisis/?gclid=CO7LhcPO3ccCFUKSvQodMrUHtQ Please support if you can otherwise your prayers for peace for these people are just as needed.... Before we are defined as individuals by creed, race, colour, gender, age, class, financial status, sexual preference, social status, caste or education.....we are defined as humans...... it is our humanity, our compassion and empathy that makes us human #FreeTheOppressed #AllLivesMatter

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Day 4 #100DaysOfHappiness It's been a lil bit hectic lately..... Reflecting on things that are unfolding at work and in my personal life I need to keep an optimistic and affirmative perspective within myself as well as in my approach to others.... Happiness can not be given to us by others It's grown like a seed within ourselves..... We just need to nourish it 😊😆😃😄