Do I Have sons?

AU John Winchester RP blog. Sodlier!John Winchester. Father to Sam (winchestercommasam) and Dean (deanwinchesterway) Winchester.

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I am not going to die. But I need to get to them Sam, I have to! I’ve been trying my whole life.

I am not trying to manipulate you. This is not about us, it’s about keeping you alive.  They are very dangerous, very powerful….Just…listen to your father for once.

Oh Sam, you have no idea….Let me handle this, please.

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I know you have, because that’s been our entire life.

I know exactly what it’s about, okay.  I know what the priorities are.

Look, I’m going to get off of here.  I need to get over to Dean’s.

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Sam! Ok, go find Dean and be careful! Promise me that, please!

You don't know what we are dealing with Sam and I am going to let you know one day but for now you'll have to trust me son.

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Sam…I had no other choice, boy…Those people…They killed your mother. Frank is responsible for your mother’s death. I am sorry I had to lie to you but I don’t want you going after them, especially Dean, I am sure that as soon as he finds out he’s going to do something stupid and get killed.

I don’t want to lose you too, boys. DO NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID!

I am still your father. Listen to me, please. Do it for Dean, for Gabriel.

I am going to stop them, trust me, I won’t let them come to you even if I have to die, but you need to stay out of it!

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Dean isn’t going to do anything stupid.

Don’t…try to use Dean or Gabriel to make me do things your way.  I’ll do whatever the right thing is.  Don’t manipulate me.

… I don’t want you to die either.  What the hell.  I said I’ll talk to Dean, and I will.  I’m not giving him the number, but you should know I know exactly where they called from.  I don’t really know what else to say.  This is fucked.

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I am not going to die. But I need to get to them Sam, I have to! I've been trying my whole life.

I am not trying to manipulate you. This is not about us, it's about keeping you alive.  They are very dangerous, very powerful....Just...listen to your father for once.

Oh Sam, you have no idea....Let me handle this, please.

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Sam, I know you are angry at me but you have to trust me, I am your father. They could and would kill you son, you and your brother. Stand down and let me handle this! They are dangerous people, there is nothing you can do to stop them. I need to find them, do you understand?

Trust me.

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This has nothing to do with me being angry at you.

If you’re dealing with people that could have hurt Dean or me, you should have told us before it got to this point.  From what I understand, you should have told us anyway.  I GET that they’re dangerous.

I trust Dean.  I’ll talk to him and decide what to do.

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Sam...I had no other choice, boy...Those people...They killed your mother. Frank is responsible for your mother's death. I am sorry I had to lie to you but I don't want you going after them, especially Dean, I am sure that as soon as he finds out he's going to do something stupid and get killed.

I don't want to lose you too, boys. DO NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID!

I am still your father. Listen to me, please. Do it for Dean, for Gabriel.

I am going to stop them, trust me, I won't let them come to you even if I have to die, but you need to stay out of it!

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Sam, you have no idea. Please don’t ask me questions I have no answers for! Those people are DANGEROUS, listen to me! You stay home, and tell Dean to be careful. I am going to take care of everything, nothing’s gonna happen to you! 

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Ask no questions.  Right.  So, just do what you say with no explanation at all?

I don’t think so.

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Sam, I know you are angry at me but you have to trust me, I am your father. They could and would kill you son, you and your brother. Stand down and let me handle this! They are dangerous people, there is nothing you can do to stop them. I need to find them, do you understand?

Trust me.

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[John calls Sam-Answering machine]

Sam pick it up, son. Pick it up! Please!

(When Sam picks up)

SAM, SAM! DON’T DO ANYTHING STUPID! I am going to take care of this, give me their number Sam. Listen to me, no matter what happens, YOU DON’T GO AFTER THEM!

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Do you have any idea what they said to me?  They mentioned Mom, too, by the way.

I have the number, but if you think I’m just going to sit here and twiddle my thumbs while this ass threatens the people I love, you’re out of your mind.

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Sam, you have no idea. Please don't ask me questions I have no answers for! Those people are DANGEROUS, listen to me! You stay home, and tell Dean to be careful. I am going to take care of everything, nothing's gonna happen to you! 

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winchestercommasam:

[Voice mail]  You need to call me back RIGHT NOW.  Who the hell is Frank and why is he calling me, telling me to tell YOU to back off or he'll hurt Dean.  Or me or Gabriel or Cas?

If I find out this is just some sick way of contacting me...  I swear.  Whatever you've done, you need to fix it or I'll hunt this bastard down myself.  You've got ten minutes to call me back or I'm tracking whoever this asshole is down and ripping him apart.

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[John calls Sam-Answering machine]

Sam pick it up, son. Pick it up! Please!

(When Sam picks up)

SAM, SAM! DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID! I am going to take care of this, give me their number Sam. Listen to me, no matter what happens, YOU DONT GO AFTER THEM!

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you have one voice mail...

winchestercommasam

I didn't think you'd pick up, Dad.  Too scared to answer, right?  You've never really liked answering questions.  You always liked asking them, even when you had no right to ask them.  ...Look, you may think I'm ruined... I don't, but you can think what you want.  But, Dean raised me.  You didn't.  You weren't there.  He taught me to drive and how to turn on a stove.  He helped my with my homework and, for a long time, he kept me from hating you.  The only person who ever had a right to call me ruined was the man who raised me.  That'll never be you.

You shouldn't have hurt Cas.  And you damn well should have NEVER spit on my brother.  You called him worthless.  [Sam breathes out, and the sound is sharp and fast.]  How dare you.  How dare you.  You're always have so much to say about doing things for mom?  What would she say about you now?  Huh?

You want another son?  A better one?  There is none better than Dean and you damn well know it.  That's why you're so scared, scared you're losing your hold on him.  Well tough.  He's in love, and it's with a man, and you're just gonna have to get over because your bullshit isn't breaking anything this time.

You wanted a another son.  Well, John.  Good luck with that.  All you did was lose one.  Don't call me again.  We have nothing to say to one another.

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John leaned his forehead against the wall as he listened to Sam's message over and over.

Sammy's angry. He is more than angry. He is furious. Enraged. Disgusted.

Where the fuck did he go wrong? When did he start losing his sons?

He had spat on Dean's face. He called him worthless and a failure. He wished he was never born.

What would Mary think? Was he such a terrible father?

He loved them. Both of them. 

But how could Dean do this to him? It wasn't HIS fault, right?

Was he being an asshole? Did it matter that Cas was a man? Yes. Yes AND no. Sam was right, even though John would never admit it.

He didn't want to lose control over Dean. He just couldn't. 

No.

He had to keep trying. He needed Dean more than anyone. He would make him do as he said. Dean had to do as he said....

He had, hadn't he?

John banged his head against the wall. Twice. 

Was it time to let go?

What would Mary do? What would she say?

What.....

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missingprince replied to your post: Can John meet Gabriel please???? ^__^!

((Another one for me to stalk! Damn…How I love you John! *grabs you and squeezes you.* You are ADORABLE! -Me and my craziness again! I think I am the only one that loves John! Hhe))

I don't even like him haha! But he is badass and he loves his sons, he would die for them. But he's kind of a jerk and not that open minded. 

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winchestercommasam replied to your post: Can John meet Gabriel please???? ^__^!

D:

Oh YEAH!

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So yeah, I do have sons. Let's drop by Dean's place.

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John clenched his jaw so tightly he felt like it would shatter. He could practically hear his teeth grit together. He scrunched his eyes shut and took a long breath, in a desperate attempt to calm down. 

It was too late. Before he knew, he grabbed Castiel’s shirt, and his fist connected with the left side of Castiel’s jaw with lightening speed, sending him stumbling back a step or two.

“That should teach you a lesson, you fucking spoiled brat! So your boyfriend is very lucky to have you huh? He’s lucky that he is not here right now!!!” he growled.

He could not stop himself anymore. He’s had enough!

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Castiel stumbled back after the blow only feeling the pain of being hit a few seconds after it actually occurred. He placed his hand over where he had been hit without saying a word.

He was done trying to be calm with this man. If he wanted to punch him then he could play that game too.

Nothing pissed Castiel off more then when someone assumed he was a pushover that just anyone could pick on. He was a lot stronger than he looked. He took a step forward and took a swing at the older man, his fist connecting with his jaw.

“Get out of my dorm now.” he spat. “I never want to see your face again.”

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John felt warm blood dripping down his lips and off his jaw. He hadn't moved one step but that punch did hurt like a mother fucker. The kid sure knew how to punch.  

"Is that all you've got, kid?" he snarled as a thick stream of blood flowed freely from his nose down his face.

He took a step closer to Castiel, raised his fist and drew his hand back, ready to punch him again, but he stopped.

He couldn't do it. That was Victor's boy. He just couldn't do it, even though he was fuming inside.

He dropped his hand to his side and sighed. He knew that he had to get out of there immediately.

"Very well...I am going to go now, Castiel. I am going to...find your boyfriend!" he snapped before turning around to get out of there.

He was not finished yet though, no. In fact he hadn't even started...

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Can John meet Gabriel please???? ^__^!

But, OF COURSE!!!

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So yeah, I do have sons. Let's drop by Dean's place.

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“Oh cease your tiresome chatter Novak! Shut the hell up already! I am going to leave, I have nothing more to say to you!”

A man like him. What was that supposed to mean? John worked very hard, he was a decent man, and even though he was not a perfect father, he did love his boys.

“I highly suggest that you shut your mouth right now. Tame your tongue for your own good, boy! If you care about your…..boyfriend!” he said, his voice dripping with irony, and glared at him.

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“I do care about my boyfriend.” he answered in an extremely angry tone.

“However by the sounds of how you treat him, you obviously don’t care much for him.” he couldn’t help but voice his opinion. He was sincerely pissed off that anyone could treat their child like that, that anyone would treat Dean like that.

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John clenched his jaw so tightly he felt like it would shatter. He could practically hear his teeth grit together. He scrunched his eyes shut and took a long breath, in a desperate attempt to calm down. 

It was too late. Before he knew, he grabbed Castiel's shirt, and his fist connected with the left side of Castiel's jaw with lightening speed, sending him stumbling back a step or two.

"That should teach you a lesson, you fucking spoiled brat! So your boyfriend is very lucky to have you huh? He's lucky that he is not here right now!!!" he growled.

He could not stop himself anymore. He's had enough!

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So yeah, I do have sons. Let's drop by Dean's place.

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“Treat him like what? I am doing the best I can for my son! I made him the man he is! If you love him, you should show me some respect, boy!” he hissed and took another step closer to Castiel.

He was that close to punching him. That kid was driving him crazy. What did he know about Sam and Dean? Had they even told him about their mother?

“He refused to come with me and join the Army, he never told me he’s into men, he didn’t even answer my calls. He was supposed to be watching out for Sammy! He keeps lying or hiding the truth from me. He has let me down and he needs to know that!” he yelled in Castiel’s face. 

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“I refuse to show a man like you any respect.” he snapped back, continuing to glare at him.

“Didn’t I ask you to leave?” he huffed. He was done trying to convince this man to stop treating Dean like crap. He obviously didn’t want to listen. He just wanted him to leave now.

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"Oh cease your tiresome chatter Novak! Shut the hell up already! I am going to leave, I have nothing more to say to you!"

A man like him. What was that supposed to mean? John worked very hard, he was a decent man, and even though he was not a perfect father, he did love his boys.

"I highly suggest that you shut your mouth right now. Tame your tongue for your own good, boy! If you care about your.....boyfriend!" he said, his voice dripping with irony, and glared at him.

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So yeah, I do have sons. Let's drop by Dean's place.

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“What do you know about life Novak, you are just a bird in its perfect gold cage! That’s bullshit!” he snapped and clenched his fists in anger.

“I don’t give a shit boy, Dean can do anything he wants with you. The fact that he has been constantly lying to me though, that? I can’t let it go! You can’t tell me how to be a father to Dean, you don’t have this right! He is my son and I can do anything I want to him! I trusted him and he lied to me again and again and again! What do you suggest I do, huh?!”

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Castiel tilted his head to the side in confusion. “And what exactly did he lie to you about, John?” he may or may not have said his name a little bitterly.

He frowned at the part where John said ‘He is my son and I can do anything I want to him!’ He gave him a glare before voicing his honest opinion, “Even though you are his father that doesn’t give you the right to treat him like that.”

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"Treat him like what? I am doing the best I can for my son! I made him the man he is! If you love him, you should show me some respect, boy!" he hissed and took another step closer to Castiel.

He was that close to punching him. That kid was driving him crazy. What did he know about Sam and Dean? Had they even told him about their mother?

"He refused to come with me and join the Army, he never told me he's into men, he didn't even answer my calls. He was supposed to be watching out for Sammy! He keeps lying or hiding the truth from me. He has let me down and he needs to know that!" he yelled in Castiel's face. 

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[Text] Sam, try to understand, son. I am doing this for you, you and Dean. 

[Text] I know I have not always been there for you but you can still call me anytime. 

[Text] You are my sons and I love you.

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[Text]  I get it.

[Text]  I’ll call if I need to.

[Text]  We love you.

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[Text] Alright, as you wish.

[Text] I love you too, son. Take care.

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So yeah, I do have sons. Let's drop by Dean's place.

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John immediately tensed up. How could this kid talk to him like that?

“Shut up!” he growled and took a few steps closer to Castiel. He resisted the urge to grab him by his shirt. For now.

“I just want the best for my sons! That doesn’t make me a bad father, Novak! What do you know about us? You’ve no idea!” he screamed in his face and then grabbed him by his shirt. He couldn’t stop himself.

“Dean is my son, if I say he can’t be a faggot, then he can’t!!!” he hissed and shoved him back. 

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Castiel didn’t even flinch when John approached him. He was used to dealing with bullies and that’s basically what he was being right now

“That sounds like a bunch of bullshit excuses to me.” he let himself be grabbed by the shirt and did nothing to stop it. 

“Dean is an adult, you don’t make his decisions for him. And I don’t know if you know this but love is love. Genders are a bit irrelevant when it comes to it.” he replied calmly after he had stumbled back and brushed his shirt off.

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"What do you know about life Novak, you are just a bird in its perfect gold cage! That's bullshit!" he snapped and clenched his fists in anger.

"I don't give a shit boy, Dean can do anything he wants with you. The fact that he has been constantly lying to me though, that? I can't let it go! You can't tell me how to be a father to Dean, you don't have this right! He is my son and I can do anything I want to him! I trusted him and he lied to me again and again and again! What do you suggest I do, huh?!"