hold on new pinned post because the last one is so old it shows up in an entirely different post editor
hi i do art :)
you can do whatever you want with my art use it for pfps / study it / trace it / steal it / etc etc. all my personal work is CC0 1.0 (as for commissions i retain all rights unless otherwise stated) i truly don't care i do this to get demons out of my brain
i love persona 5 royal & ai: the somnium files (so have spoilers for those filtered if you haven't played them yet) and i have a lot of smart & correct thoughts about them. send me asks about them i love talking about video games on the internet
more details about things i like under the cut, send asks about any of these and i'll love you forever VVVV
about persona 5, i've played royal, strikers, and tactica, i've also played p3 and p4 + the arena games
i've played both AITSF games, and every ZE game. clover is my baby
i've also played ghost trick, and i've played the original AA trilogy, the Ace Attorney Investigations games, and the TGAA games
i think the "oh i like this but i hate it because of the fandom" thing is a little overplayed, like, you know, there's a lot of annoying people online if a media gets popular it's going to be- like whatever right. but danganronpa fans are unbearable for the main reason of just not being able to admit they actually like the video game they like. i liked danganronpa! thought it was good! "i hate these games but-" live a little, man. (edit: finally winning the five year war on this take because hundred line is that good. you love to see it. he's always right. he's always right)
some of my other favourites games are portal, smile for me, anything written by davey wreden, slime rancher, deltarune, slay the princess, slow damage, and higurashi
some of my favourite anime are anohana, madoka magica, serial experiments lain, revolutionary girl utena, and talentless nana
haven't watched the dunmeshi anime yet but i read the manga 👍
my favourite movies are perfect blue, scream, and heathers
i've read one* book in the past 5 years and it was house of leaves (*fiction. i read political theory.)
every time artfight discourse comes up the only thing you need to say is "wow it's almost like trying to assign an objective point value to art based on the effort that went into it is going to lead to weird places"
fun miku activity i did with my friend koopa :^) he did the body of the first miku based off xurkitree and the head & texturing on steel miku and i did the reverse*
loose concept sketch
*koopa did the textures on the xurmiku body and i sent mine untextured. because i spent the time modeling shoes instead.
the two positions a cat can be in are "dude your ears are literally triangles. does he even know. he's paws." and "that sure is all the same anatomy as a human arranged slightly differently"
the point of this is that i'm a person who used to think like this 24/7 and i'm not anymore but responses exist in context until recontextualised and sometimes you wake up stessed at 5 am with a sore throat and that's the first time it's happened since you decided you didn't want to die anymore. #mykitty
art is areas of harmony and contrast used to express meaning, if you don't like your own art the problem is somewhere in that sentence. see my cool chart and please stop telling people it's normal to go months hating your own art without knowing why and you just have to wait for the "ability to see" line to go back up. i am on my knees begging you.
i used visual art terminology in the e.g.s but this is true for writing and game design and everything else i can think of
counselors aren't medical doctors they're personal trainers for mental health but if personal trainers could arrest you for being too bad at exercise.
the two options are not "go to therapy" or "suicidal forever" it is a skill you can learn.
there's no big secret it's just different applied metaphors for "treat yourself the way you would treat a friend" and a consistent schedule. you have to find a way of thinking about it that works for you, and do the thing repeatedly to make the sims skill bar go up.
you do not control your thoughts or emotions in the same way you can't willpower yourself into having good fighting form without training, and these things are always harder in real life situations. as soon as pressure is applied you're going to jump for the easier thing that sucks until the good thing is easy too, and that takes time.
excise any iteration of the concept of "useless eaters" from your political framework. and your political framework has to include you or it's broken from the start.
you need to stop playing the pascal's wager set by a version of yourself that was trying to rationalise abuse and systemic violence against you, it's never gonna land on heads. you do not need permission to be saved, you don't need someone to save you to prove you deserved it. you do, you always have, i promise.
you know The Thing you have to go in and edit after the sketch in every drawing.
when you finally sit down and learn to actually do The Thing right the first time by drawing on a different coloured background or putting down the undo key, it's like five minutes of practice for what looks like months of work. because you've been avoiding it for so long. and it feels good.
and that means, it's gonna feel even better the longer you spend not doing it. so you should keep going in to correct it manually every drawing instead of doing the literally five minutes of practice. because you only get chances like this a few times in your life. you want it to feel good when it happens. this is what they invented computers for.
ffor more information look up "edge control digital art,
anyway uh (puts the mic back on the stand to take an incredibly long sip of water while holding a finger up) mm. i've gotten used to not checking music lyrics when i can't make them out because whatever but i feel like nine times out of ten when it's a whole sentence and not just a conjunction or something i look it up and it's french. anyone else noticed that? just a french line in the middle of an english song. every time. it should be vindicating but it's like do i even have auditory processing issues or what
recent colour & light practice while i'm on here. all images except the last one are from @modelsof-color because i have to drop everything to draw like every second photo i see on there
