i just think softgrunge was funny

26/her/horror fan/german/polish/ like seriously, what even was softgrunge supposed to be

[fishpondfish]

it is impossible to watch a movie. every night i think i want to watch a movie. no movie gets watched. because it's not possible

[softcrustgrunge]

So. Appearently i fulfill a lot of the criteria for schizoid personality disorder and i was panicking at first but i informed myself and realized it has nothing to do with schizophrenia. I just don't trust people on a very fundamental level and it's the reason i need alone time at least 90% of the time 🫠

[softcrustgrunge]

Kind of an issue to name a neurological disorder with hallucinations and loss of reality almost the same as the "i have been through so much i just wanna be alone" disorder

[softcrustgrunge]

So. Appearently i fulfill a lot of the criteria for schizoid personality disorder and i was panicking at first but i informed myself and realized it has nothing to do with schizophrenia. I just don't trust people on a very fundamental level and it's the reason i need alone time at least 90% of the time 🫠

[softcrustgrunge]

So. Appearently. Eventhough i feel like the most selfish person in the world i don't do shit that serves me. It feels like harassment every time i text someone. People say they like me and want to hang out with me and very rarely did anyone tell me no when i try something new but i still feel it's bc i curated those meetings. It's so difficult and feels like playing the bitch for Attention but i genuinely feel worthless with this degree in my hand

[softcrustgrunge]

Completely forgot to add what the initial thought was. Therapist basically said i need to become meaner

[softcrustgrunge]

So. Appearently. Eventhough i feel like the most selfish person in the world i don't do shit that serves me. It feels like harassment every time i text someone. People say they like me and want to hang out with me and very rarely did anyone tell me no when i try something new but i still feel it's bc i curated those meetings. It's so difficult and feels like playing the bitch for Attention but i genuinely feel worthless with this degree in my hand

[softcrustgrunge]

Still thinking every day about that girl that manipulated her pee color with her diet to make a pee pallette for a uni art project. She really went out of her way to see a doctor and then decided to ignore them when she wanted to consume nothing but whiskey (no water) for days to achieve a certain rare pee color

[softcrustgrunge]

Somehow lars von trier, in his messy misogynist brain, managed to give us some of the most feminist films ever made and made me feel understood like noone else ever could, in the female experience specifically

[softcrustgrunge]

Maybe the bar is also just so low that portraying a woman as a complex humam being is enough but idk especially antichrist struck a nerve with me and still does

[softcrustgrunge]

Somehow lars von trier, in his messy misogynist brain, managed to give us some of the most feminist films ever made and made me feel understood like noone else ever could, in the female experience specifically

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[charl0ttan]

you could just hit other people as a kid

[beadyeyes]

Tell me why Portland refuses to establish some orc outposts?

[softcrustgrunge]

So appearently schizo and schizophrenic adjecent are two completely different things and i do show a lot of schizo symptoms 😅

Schizo means there must've been some trauma in my past that makes me not connect with people in a 'normal' way. I do not have hallicinations of any kind, different disorder, they should've named it way more different

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