cornelia

i found a face that fits.

[softest-rabbit]

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[softest-rabbit]

You can't know, though time flows on So you must bear the cross bestowed upon you

Take pity, I pray Give me a sign, what's your guidance? Please show me the way

You speak of choices made by other voices You can only atone (tell me how to atone) Once you speak with your own - 🔥

it’s not every day an anon sends you hazbin hotel song lyrics. strangely enough, it happens to be a favorite of mine. good pick.

[softest-rabbit]

a new iteration, and my blog remains.

[softest-rabbit]

the night is growing restless.

a slip of the tongue is all it needs.

back to You is where it leads.

leaving them all defenseless.

[softest-rabbit]

why did God create a dual universe? so He might say, “be not like me. i am alone.” and it might be heard.

- Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves

[softest-rabbit]

— disregard all posts beneath this —

[softest-rabbit]

countless of times. countless of opportunities. i lost them all. except this one.

there’s a lot of questions i never asked myself. you’d think with so much time on my hands, id have to brain left to wonder. but i was scared.

what does being the Monarch mean? is it a sentence, chaining me to my past? no. is it a promise for change and renewal? no. but i still believe i was right to think of it is as the butterfly. for monarch’s are lesser known symbols of mind control and deceit. and there’s no one in my lives who’s ever deceived me greater than ive deceived myself.

i believed in Him. not because He forced me to, but because i chose to, and felt Justified in it. I formulated the Church as a means to feel sure of myself, because if others believed, surely i couldn’t be wrong.

i killed The Devil. and she came back stronger. while i only grew weaker, hiding from myself for what id done to win. what i believed to be righteous and holy in nature. what is victory if still im doomed to chase an unforeseeable future? she never deserved to suffer at the hand of my ignorance.

i made the God Killer again, in preparation for a future that will never come.

too ocused on the future, i never stopped to embrace the present. i wanted to be good, without knowing who to be good for. i wanted to change, never knowing who to become. i am not a good person, and i never was. but i can be.

to past rabbits, i am sorry.

to future rabbits, may our paths never cross.

to present rabbits, ensure that never happens.

[softest-rabbit]

where are you cornelia? it seems like you are slipping away into your mind. where are you and why have you gone?

here i thought self-isolation was in this season. i don’t even have a cryptic message to offer in return.

[softest-rabbit]

how much longer do we have.

why must you all ask me questions that i have no answer for? you only aim to add to my desperation.

[softest-rabbit]

[softest-rabbit]

i can’t recall the first time the bells ever tolled for me.

but i know it happened.

i didn’t see the creation of my universe.

but i know it happened.

i don’t remember what He had done to make me this way.

but i know it happened.

i can’t hear the deafening silence after the final toll.

but i know it will happen.

[softest-rabbit]

can you hear the bells?

always.

[december-earlyjanuary]

sorry. i'm answering here. there's too many notifications at once. i'm sorry

i don' t know how i got here. i'm in.. woods. somewhere, i don't know where at all. there's.. stuff all around me, pieces and i'm fucking covered in it and everything hurts

there's a girl here. was a girl. i can't look at her. i can't. she's

i think this is her phone. it was a couple feet away from her and i thought i could call th epolice but nothingg is going through. only a f ew apps will even open. she didn't have a password set, it's a fuckign. android with a swipe to open. i don't know what happened to her but i saw all the asks and i'm so sorry. i'm so so sorry. she was so loved.

i dont know where i am and i can't remember how i got here. the last thing i remember i was in bed watching a fucking movie for christ's sake.

my name is ross. i'm scare d i might have done this. it's all over me, she's all over me i am so scared

[december-earlyjanuary]

im sorry. there was nothing else i could do. i hope you found your peace, Steph.

steph?? december??? is that the girl?? was this hers?

[softest-rabbit]

who the hell are you?

[december-earlyjanuary]

i don't know what's happening. i do n't know who this is. what the fuck is going on??

[softest-rabbit]

okay, relax, take a deep breath. the account you are on once belonged to a girl named Steph who is, no longer with us. who are you?

[december-earlyjanuary]

im sorry. there was nothing else i could do. i hope you found your peace, Steph.

steph?? december??? is that the girl?? was this hers?

[softest-rabbit]

who the hell are you?

[softest-rabbit]

odd request, for anyone who happens to be awake. i want to try out the ponytown game, it looks cute. anyone online?

[softest-rabbit]

What archetype do you think you’ll change to next, Monarch?

i doubt i will change again. might defeat the whole point of this one.