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this is not public

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i can be ruthless because i dont need to care

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who would have thought i eventually actually caught up with u all, but i did

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i respond to training very well

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it isn't about weirdness. this operates absolutely in the midst of reality. Everyones wearing brown clothes and someone just spilled a milkshake. you lick it up.

thinking of language without tropes; i still think of mud; the most high technological thing in the world.

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the world doesn't need one more sculpture of a pelvic bone

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There is taste in people, visual taste, taste in emotion - and there is taste in acts, taste in morality. Intelligence, as well, is really a kind of taste: taste in ideas. (One of the facts to be reckoned with is that taste tends to develop very unevenly. It's rare that the same person has good visual taste and good taste in people and taste in ideas.)

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Hahah i wish i used to be edgy so i could go back to being ”natural”, people love that shit, love thinking you reveal something of yourself

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why do you call your office a studio ;)

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i wash myself with vetiver in a river and wrap myself afterwards in heavy linen cloths. Black silk and orchids. Red flowers and grass.

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Dreaming of telling someone all your secrets and then they dream of them at night. An element of desire is important. Desire is what creates and drives fantasy, fantasy is what creates reality. Bell hooks writes: Traditionally male fantasy has been regarded as creating reality, while female fantasy has been viewed as escapism. Desire that function as a sunbeam, the object of desire and the direction of it being the same thing.

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An element of desire is important, desire is what creates fantasy, fantasy is what creates reality.

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i wash myself with vetiver in a river and wrap myself afterwards in heavy linen cloths. 

Black silk and orchids. 

Red flowers and grass. 

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My eyes are far away in that picture i think thats why i like it The nightbus together the nightbus together i havent taken the nightbus together in years? Havent taken the nightbus at all in years I used to always me now i go home Alone on my bike yes alien

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Would someone ever call me absurdely beautiful or am i being manic

My co worker told me stay pretty and everything will be fine i sort of love him for that

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what is it that i miss when i miss that place all of that, why is it i can't get it here

I'm like overcome with memories of highways and hangovers and clubs closing, random tube trips hanging out in the city city, in the city city

city city cities

focus, safety, consistency but i feel like i am wasting my youth away, this life makes me tired and i don't know if its my own fault. i can't go after what i want to the same extent anymore, i don't know what it is

even this city is a memory of it self hahaha sorry buut mmm

when i walk around in my neighborhood i feel...nothing

like I'm genuinely not experiencing ANY emotion this place make me feel nothing i don't want a new life i just want to change my life

i feel like i was put here so that something in me could form and harden so that i could move on but in doing that it or i also lost momentum because i guess yeah it formed and hardened but now i can't move it or i I 

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hade massa konstiga drömmar, drömde om redemption, drömde om saker som blev sagda utan att man behövde säga något :) drömde att en ja känner ringde o fråga va ja gjorde, vi båda låtsa som att det inte var något konstigt sen kom han hem till mig och vi bara hängde, drömde om hela famlijen på besök på mariatorget men självklart såg det helt annorlunda ut, mer som hoppborg