moths, mushrooms, and misery

⋆｡°✩ ✩°｡⋆ amara • bi • sick and twisted • this is my vent/personal diary blog • feel free to say hi, i don't bite :3 (most of the time)

[zinziee]

[softsaturniids]

crestfallenna if u ever see this i want you to know i won't forget you. and i hope you're okay. i'm sorry i didn't reply for so long, i was blocked from my account and by the time i came back, your account was deactivated. i miss u

[softsaturniids]

and if you ever come back on a different account, pls message me

[softsaturniids]

crestfallenna if u ever see this i want you to know i won't forget you. and i hope you're okay. i'm sorry i didn't reply for so long, i was blocked from my account and by the time i came back, your account was deactivated. i miss u

[softsaturniids]

Hey, I’m a little worried are you alright?

hey! i was locked out of this account for ages, only now managed to get back in, sobbb

[ygrtfaiiry-deactivated20241028]

when it comes to myself, sk!nny is pretty.

but when it comes to others, i see the beauty in them regardless of their w3ight or looks.

why does my brain work the way it does?

[cocteautwinsgirl]

i feel like i'm wasting my life away. anyways.

[anxeious]

[softsaturniids]

that’s a lovely thought

[hopepunk-humanity]

You’ve heard of “don’t monetize your hobbies”; get ready for "don’t master your hobbies".

Your hobbies are here to help you decompress and have fun. They do not have to be disciplines you toil over for expertise, unless that is something you genuinely enjoy doing.

It’s okay to enjoy language-learning without ever becoming fluent, or even conversational. It’s okay to like playing guitar even if you only know a few clumsy songs. You can read books and never finish them, bowl without ever scoring even halfway to perfect. We’re here to explore and play, and we cannot do that if we’re chasing perfection in everything we do.

[ebonykain]

Amateur - from French, from Italian amatore, from Latin amator ‘lover’, from amare ‘to love’.

If you're doing it because you love it, that's already perfect

[softsaturniids]

the itchiness and pain from all my scars is not even funny omg, it’s so fucking annoying

also i’m regretting doing the ones on my arm. when i did them i told myself I wouldn’t care about hiding them, but i don’t want my little sisters to have to see them so i just have to keep hiding it

[softsaturniids]

so like, update for those who remember i exist: i quit sh (mostly because it was just too much trouble and i ran out of room) and gave up restricting, probably going to start again next month tho because we’re going to see family and i just can’t keep being such a fatass

i managed to secretly weigh myself on someone else’s scale, and i’m like, 46kg, i feel sick just thinking about it. really want to start restricting again but i’m out of practise

[ctiren]

ten people i'd like to get to know better

tagged by: @megkuna thanks <333

last song: the phantom of the opera

favorite color: muted green

last book: uhhhhhh oh man i really need to start reading books

last movie: phantom of the opera which i watched with a friend

last tv show: the original star trek which i also watched with a friend

sweet/spicy/savory: sweet, i love sugar too much

relationship status: single and not looking, i'd rather just have more friends

last thing i googled: "how to know if skincare routine is too harsh" my pimples hurt in a Different way now :(

current obsession: probably still mob psycho 100 but it's not what it used to be. yay depression

looking forward to: when my family finally moves into the new house

tagging: @scarecloud69 @disorganised-thoughtss @daneonrainbow @lawful-goof @officialkarinuzumaki @leo-probably @vychodocech @umkayonninay @mocha-blossom @spageddy29 no pressure though <3

[r4z0rberry-deactivated20251118]

Tagged by: @grimnmm

Last song : Dead Girl Walking - Christina Vee

Favourite colour : green, all shades of green

Last book : Fragmentary (a book written by my bestie)

Last movie : Professor Layton and The Eternal Diva

Last TV show : Layton’s Mystery Detective Agency

Sweet/spicy/savoury : spicy ?

Relationship status : single

Last thing I googled : Online text reader

Current obsession : Professor Layton (please at least pretend to be shocked by this)

Looking forward to : Professor Layton "new world of steam" releasing next year (hopefully)

@ all my moots all of u !! I'm nosy as fuck but also very lazy so

[softsaturniids]

crawling out from my forced inactivity to answer this lol

last song: the moon will sing - crane wives

favorite color: as of right now, maroon and black

last book: the name of the wind by patrick rothfuss, i really recommend, the worldbuilding is so good

last movie: rewatched the second lion king movie with my little sisters lol

last show: arcane!!

sweet/spicy/savoury: sweet

relationship status: happily single

last thing i googled: the name of some horror game

current obsession: epic the musical and hermitcraft 💀 oh and star wars

looking forward to: the release of the vengeance saga (epic the musical), arcane season two

any of my moots can do this! i don’t wanna tag specifically because i’ve been dead for ages and forgotten many and been forgotten by many

[softsaturniids]

May I ask, when is your birthday? :)

7th of january! :3

it's so weird that it's already almost the end of the year, sob

[softsaturniids]

we're going to visit our family in a few months and i'm secretly happy bc we'll be staying with my grandma and she'll probably have a scale in her bathroom that i can use

i've been doing so shit. like, i skip most meals, but i still make up for it by eating junk later

[softsaturniids]

i did it gang, i finally cut styros on my arm lol

it's a goddamn pain to hide tho, but at least i did it far enough up my arm that most t-shirt sleeves cover it

[r4z0rberry-deactivated20251118]

How do i feel something new

How do i feel something new

How do i feel something new

How do i

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[softsaturniids]

where i post from

[dietange1]

“We will reach our gw this month” GIRL WE BEEN SAYING THIS EVERY MONTH PLS😭