Fern

5 time champion of the losing friends olympics

[mierdaseca]

Creep (2014) dir. Patrick Brice

[jupiterslifelessmoons]

The reason Goncharov was fun and worked well is because Tumblr didn’t plan for it, we just “yes and” it, everyone went with it and added to it with no planning while TikTok people with Zepotha are trying to recreate that by deciding to start a trend and tell people this movie existed, there isn’t even much more than “you look like this character” and sometimes people saying it was actually them.

[softspokenfern]

the part of alcoholism they don’t tell you about is the random crying because you know if you don’t quit you’ll possibly die but

you.

just.

can’t.

quit.

i know i need to get better but i need the alcohol. i can’t go without it.

[softspokenfern]

be honest about how you’re feeling!

BUT don’t get too deep, NO ONE wants to hear about that!

you don’t wanna sound like a PSYCHO or MANIPULATIVE!

don’t be shy, tell us how you REALLY feel!

[softspokenfern]

it’s the same people who preach about mental health that attack people who are going through mental health issues. then they turn around and start preaching like nothing happened. fuck you fr

[softspokenfern]

break up with your girlfriend, she’s a piece of shit

[softspokenfern]

i don’t wanna be here anymore

[softspokenfern]

i was gonna actually k word myself a year ago and not a single person reached out to me yesterday.

literally no one.

literally no one cares that i lived a year i wasn’t supposed to.

no one cares that i survived.

not even the fucking people i stayed alive for.

and the sad thing is that i knew it.

i knew this was gonna happen.

[softspokenfern]

4 more days. i’m not ready. i can’t celebrate with them, not that they would care anyways

[softspokenfern]

how/why tf to bitches get mad when they get caught MULTIPLE TIMES doing shitty things??? like fr bro you got a good following that are blind to your shit and now people are finally calling you out and you get mad and post “receipts” that just prove everyone’s point??? dumb as hell bro

[softspokenfern]

lmao when you love someone but you know it’s never gonna work out but it’s all you can think about. gotta love life :)

[softspokenfern]

it bugs me so much that there’s people who draw steve-o on drugs. man’s clean and sober. idk it’s just gross

[pgw-deactivated20230210]

as simple as it was, the meter fairy has and will always be my favorite skit.

[girlbyherself]

yupppp!

[softspokenfern]

if i had to see this so do you.

i love you, don’t ever forget that.

[softspokenfern]

i heard max’s voice and now i want to cry. i miss him

[softspokenfern]

an open letter // to whom it may concern (unfinished)

i’m leaving.

no suicidal shit but there’s no point of being here anymore. i may never return and it honestly sounds like the best idea.

i’m in the worst spot in my life in nearly 8 years and have been since october. i’ve tried everything to keep people around me but as always i’m left to figure it out myself. to the few of you that recently left, don’t try and reach me now. someday i’ll come to you when i’m comfortable enough to. and if something happens to me and i don’t make it back don’t ever say you’re sorry or that you miss and love me. you weren’t there when i needed you and still aren’t.

there’s so much i kept to myself that no one really knows because i feel like i can’t talk about things anymore, like i started using and purposely taking enough to cause an overdose multiple times in the past month. nothing has happened and i’m okay.

but what hurts the most is looking back at old messages i saved for encouragement, all the times i saw “whatever you’re feeling is valid” makes me wonder what about me makes me excluded from that. i can tell you right now i never felt like i could say anything without someone else’s mental health issues being brought up or being told to ‘get help’ or to ‘work on myself’