anon!

i wrote yours to keep on ao3!! :D

[soitgoesanonymous]

links and stuff:

hey hey, if you’re here, i wrote the yours to keep series on ao3!! i’m anonymous there and here, and i’m only on tumblr sporadically.

you’re welcome to ask questions or leave asks but i often don’t get around to responding to them, although i’ve been meaning to for a few days! i’ll do my best to answer questions and anything else you might want to know :)

i don’t really have any specific pronouns or anything, you can refer to me how you want. i’m not bothered! :D

here are some links for you:

donate to gaza: https://www.unicef.org.uk/donate/children-in-gaza-crisis-appeal/

donate to ukraine: https://donate.redcrossredcrescent.org/ua/donate2/~my-donation

donate to médecins sans frontières!: https://msf.org.uk

thank you for reading my works <3

[soitgoesanonymous]

anatomy practice with ghost except i actually have an exam tomorrow so this is just revision

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yours to keep by Anonymous (@soitgoesanonymous)

“You look like a fuckin’ idiot with those on indoors, you know.” “You were the one complaining!” “You were the one that looked sick!” “Captain,” Ghost sighed, and Soap imagined that behind the glasses, he was rolling his eyes. “I’m not sick. And if I was, I wouldn’t’ve waited two hours before wheels up to say something about it.”

Image source: The martyrdom of Saint Sebastian, Bologna School circa 1600-1620

[soitgoesanonymous]

ghost as st sebastian is so good not just as the patron saint of soldiers (among other things) but also because the very obvious queer iconography <3 i’m very fond of this thank u

[soitgoesanonymous]

you know what it’s been long enough and i have a confession

I’ve never drank alcohol and I’ve never been in a club or an actual pub for anything more than a meal, and even that was brief. when i wrote pt65 i was really paranoid that it would be obvious because the extent of my experience is babysitting a variety of drunk friends. to this day i don’t know if it was glaringly obvious or not

[soitgoesanonymous]

roach is really the main character of ytk

wonder about your indifference (8,780 words) - anon

It had been a long time since he had been anything but a ghost, a long time since anyone had wanted him to be— and as much as he trusted MacTavish’s judgement, Ghost knew he was better suited to it when there was a problem with a clear solution, one where he was only expected to switch off his mind and do anything it took to get to it.

It was busy. There wasn’t a moment of quiet, not a moment where he could stop and think— and worse than that was the way that people looked to him as he thought, waited for his opinion, staked their own on his.

Second-in-command. The words didn’t even suit him, came out oddly on his lips as he sounded them out.

ghost is coping with the war, and the new position, and the distance, absolutely fine as far as anyone is concerned. he doesn't have the right to feel any different, anyway.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Fandom:

Call of Duty (Video Games)

Relationships:

Simon "Ghost" Riley & Gary "Roach" Sanderson, John "Soap" MacTavish/Simon "Ghost" Riley

Characters:

Simon "Ghost" Riley, John "Soap" MacTavish, Gary "Roach" Sanderson

Additional Tags:

Hurt/Comfor, tEmotional Hurt/Comfort, Game: Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 (2009), Captain John "Soap" MacTavish, Lieutenant Simon "Ghost" Riley, Gary "Roach" Sanderson & Simon "Ghost" Riley Friendship, Pining, Simon "Ghost" Riley Loves John "Soap" MacTavish, and he's coping about it great, Soft Simon "Ghost" Riley, Soft Gary "Roach" Sanderson, During Canon, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Violence, the complex feeling of finding your dead brother in someone else

(the song is leith ross’s we’ll never have sex, and for some reason i made jt the title completely opposite to the actual song lol)

[soitgoesanonymous]

hi! 8 with etched in the surface <3

8: what part of etched in the surface is your favorite?

okay, i actually have 2 answers here:

1) the duct tape scene which genuinely makes me sound insane bc i went back and forth on it sooo many times bc i was worried it was too much. but i think it was a really good metaphor for everything, i’m glad i didn’t talk myself out of it, bc i think its super easy for characters to not want to acknowledge something until u literally throw it in their face and it works as a metaphor for captav’s worst fears about their relationship, and i think its the only thing extreme enough to justify him leaving after? if it was anything softer, it would have been cruel to leave, but captav had to see himself as a monster and doing ghost a favour by leaving for the scene to work. so. i’m not insane i promise

weirdly, the original plans for the scene were much more… romantic, in a way? not romantic but kind of warped romance, like ghost is letting him in so close and letting him touch him especially on such a tender wound. and it only internally bothers captav because he can’t help but draw parallels, like it should be romantic but its not. but then it would have been really horrible for captav to sneak out after all that :( tbf the entire thing was lowkey horrible for everyone on all sides. but that was my fault so sorry guys

2) weirdly, lorena from ch4? i think i just have a soft spot for characters w kids and its really brief (she’s only there for like 1/3 of a chapter) but it also works as a plot device and opens the door to their individual perceptions of the situation, especially bc they’re both seeing ghost in that situation. captav thinks she’ll get home, ghost thinks they’ve thrown her out of the frying pan and into the fire, but by the end ghost is the one telling captav that she’s probably on her way home because he wants to believe it and he wants mactavish to not feel all hope is lost, too. also i had so much fun w the spanish and the dialects i got a proofreader and everything. however iirc no one really commented on it so I’m hoping it was just one of those plot points no one minded instead of it being disliked :,,)

[soitgoesanonymous]

4 and 19 pretty please

4: is there an au or trope that you haven't written before, but would want to try?

not in ytk but for ghoap or ghost specifically, i always thought any au that messes with the perception of humanity would be a really fun way to explore his character. anything from hybrid/winged aus to hyper realistic androids, i just think it could be fun to do a character study on the humanity of someone when the au allows for such a good allegory for it!!

19: give a hint/teaser about something you're writing without any context or explanation!

oh gosh I’m running out of these hmm. brothers maybe? or pillow forts :3 this is shockingly difficult to do with wips lol i’m scared i’ll just change my mind and then i’ll b a liar

[soitgoesanonymous]

Hiii, 2 and 20 for the asks game! (:

2: if you could sit down and finish any completely new fic without anything stopping you (time, tiredness, etc), what would you write? tell us about it if you want!

i’ve always sat on this idea abt time travel ‘22 ghoap, but for some reason i never got around to writing it! quite frankly if i could sit and write the rest of the ytk fics without getting tired i would appreciate that. my mitochondria is getting in the way of my yaoi

20: is there a certain kind of fic that feels the most satisfying to finish? any reason why?

i’m very fond of self contained fics, like i love it when all the little plot points complete each other. writing cohesive fics is hard!!!! but i just happen to like it when the little subplot thats going on gets answered by the main plot, or when a plot hole in the A plot gets neatly covered up by the B plot. it also makes it wayy easier to write, like whenever i’m getting stuck i just take a step back and figure oht what themes i’m going for, and then whatever it is, i just lean way more into it!!! i’m not great at this 100% of the time but i just really like it when everything falls into place

the only example i can think of is ‘god only knows’ for some reason but basically that entire thing was primarily supposed to be fluff, but i was just struggling. and i realised a big theme of it is feeling like u have a family, so i added that, and then a big part of that is captav feeling alienated from his family, so i made that the main internal conflict, and basically all that gets answered by ghost finally accepting his silly pyjamas as a gift :3 so it just feels nice to finish, like i tied it all into a neat bow :3

[soitgoesanonymous]

14…. was gonna ask twelve but then i realized all your fics are songs so you’re basically putting together a playlist haha

14: is there anything outside of your normal content that you want to write?

hm i’ve always wanted to mess with some darker themes, but every time i try and write it i’m just like :c imagining myself in that situation so maybe i’m just not built for it. at the risk of sounding a bit conceited i actually just really like hurt/comfort works, it’s my favourite 100% of the time, i don’t think there’s much else i want to write. the fluff i write turns into hurt/comfort. the angst i write turns into hurt/comfort. i’m like king midas if king midas turned everything into difficult emotions soothed away by love and safety.

(12: i’ll b so real with you some of the songs r just the titles cause i was listening to them. sometimes i listen to the most 09 ghoap song ever but i can’t make a title out of it so i just give up lol)

[soitgoesanonymous]

3, 6, and 18? :3

this isn’t your question but i LOVE all your reaction pics i can’t stress enough. this is truly a horse with large wine glass situation

3: what do you like about your writing?

i like how sensory it is. if any of u have ever read anything by christy lefteri, she is a massive influence on my writing style!! idk i just like being able to feel everything in a scene, yk? i’m nosy i want to know whats going on

6: if you were to write a part two/sequel to a fic, what fic would you want to write it for?

ooh wait i wanted to write a ch3 for ‘gently in the cold dark earth’ for AGES it was just going to be a short chapter abt ghost leaving the hospital and finding out everyone stayed awake to see how he was. and being like ???? but in a kind of heartwarmed way, like ‘what the fuck are you guys doing?❤️’

i kind of want to write that scene from etched in the surface after captav leaves but from ghost’s perspective, but that will probably only ever get posted here anyway even if i write it

actually weirdly i don’t have very many works i want to write a sequel for!! i wish i had put more detail into the original work sometimes, just to clarify things, but i quite like starting and ending stories from unconventional spots. half my works start in the middle of a load of action bc i started writing it from the logical start and then instantly got SOOO bored i just skipped to the fun part and started writing. so normally by the time they end i think i’ve ran out of stuff to go on abt. i will update this if i remember anything tho

18: how do you want your writing to feel to your readers?

all your choices are divisible by 3!! anyways, i think like a warm blanket. when i was a kid i used to get so into books I’d literally forget where i was, so maybe sort of like that? i want it to feel warm, and familiar, and maybe exciting but with the way that u know it has to end okay :)

idk, i don’t mind how my writing makes people feel but there is a phrase i am struggling to translate, that basically means like your heart is full? i think the phrase also exists in english so its probably fine but if i can’t do that then i’ll settle for ppl reading it and feeling better :3

[soitgoesanonymous]

No. 19 for the fic writer ask game >:)

hmm okay this work is way in the future i just know j want to write it even if i’ve not ironed out the plot fully :]

videos, or pictures. or maybe the stuff thats not in the videos and pictures? :0

[soitgoesanonymous]

19 😈

hmm maybe i should be more specific for this one

a helicopter?? copious amounts of alcohol??

[soitgoesanonymous]

19 17 14 (or any one/combo of these) for the ask game ! hihii

14: hmm i’ve been meaning to write some fantasy works for 09 ghoap so if you see those and the writing style is suspiciously close to ytk but its not anon…. shh…..

17: idk if this answers the question but ‘etched in the surface’ was actually totally supposed to be titled from let down by radiohead!! there is also false flags by massive attack but considering the lyrics it feels very on the nose for a fanfic abt soldiers lolol

i will probably use some of these in the upcoming works, though, just cause i like them ᓬ:3)

19: a few people asked for this one so i will give everyone something different for the future works i have planned: stitches :]

[rowenaluvr]

✶ . ၄၃ . FIC WRITER ASK GAME !

any [insert __] is for the sender to fill in :)

1 ⧽. if you could sit down and finish any one of your wips without anything stopping you (time, tiredness, etc), which fic would you choose? tell us about it if you want!

2 ⧽. if you could sit down and finish any completely new fic without anything stopping you (time, tiredness, etc), what would you write? tell us about it if you want!

3 ⧽. what's something you like about your writing?

4 ⧽. is there an au or trope that you haven't written before, but would want to try?

5 ⧽. is there a certain kind of fic that feels the most satisfying to finish? any reason why?

6 ⧽. if you were to write a part two/sequel to a fic, what fic would you want to write it for?

7 ⧽. is there a fic you wish you received feedback on, but didn't get any/much? this ask game is asking someone else to then give feedback on said fic, pretty pretty please!!!

8 ⧽. what part of [insert fic] is your favorite?

9 ⧽. tell us about a wip/idea that you're excited about!

10 ⧽. what genre is generally the easiest or most enjoyable for you to write? which is the hardest?

11 ⧽. if you were to rewrite [insert fic] with [insert different character/ship] how do you think it might change?

12 ⧽. what's a song or two you associate with [insert fic]?

13 ⧽. do you have any writing projects/goals/plans you're working on/want to work on?

14 ⧽. is there anything outside of your normal content that you want to write?

15 ⧽. if you wrote a fic called [insert title] with [insert character/ship] what do you think it might be about?

16 ⧽. if you wrote a fic called [insert title] what character/ship would you want to write it for?

17 ⧽. are there any songs you want to write a songfic for?

18 ⧽. how do you want your writing to feel to your readers?

19 ⧽. give a hint/teaser about something you're writing without any context or explanation! tease us haha

20 ⧽. answer any one of the other questions that you want to!

[soitgoesanonymous]

idk if anyone has any questions but revision is kind of melting my braincells so if anyone is particular bored or curious pls feel free <3

[mala--draws]

he's just a lad man.... based off @scourgie 's post i just think he's real neat. those sunglasses hiding his bawling (also t-rex arms)

the ss look blurry as fuck but tumblr desktop is a liar. its legible yall'll've to cope :v:

[soitgoesanonymous]

i don’t normally do sketchier drawingsbut i had fun w this :)

[weeping-nemesis]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

He wonders if MacTavish told Shepherd about it - whether to him he's just another replaceable asset that could be thrown out the minute its most useful lifespan reached its fair end -, then shakes his head, confusing the Captain because he hasn't even said anything, is simply looking at him with those curious, icy blue eyes that have the ability to throw a better deathglare than even Riley can manage in a bad mood. MacTavish wouldn't - Riley, MacTavish, a dusty storage room, and the looming presence of nothingness. Part 3 is here!! :D It all started as an idea on tumblr, but after that I actually wrote, proofread and edited this within 3-4 days.