as god made human kind in his image, helena had taken it upon herself to mold sophia in her own likeness though most knew that, at best, the latter would be but a jewel-clad imitation of a woman whose beauty and character were legend in lands far beyond the edges of byzantium. her status alone, as an imperial princess, would have secured a fine marriage fit for a second daughter.
yet upon the announcement of sophiaâs future as tsarina, she needed to become a legend herself â or at least look the part. embroidered brocade clung on her lithe frame where gilded gemstones did not. the weight was not relieved by the conclusion of the official ceremonies, nor by the distraction of the festivities that followed.
sophia is quick to shake her head in return, offering her own apologies. âno, it is i who should apologize,â she replies, a gentle smile replacing the vacant stare from moments before, as if tugged back to reality by the womanâs words. âi should, perhaps, have been more aware.â
sophia had never been the best in sleuthing out peopleâs true intentions, not for lack of skill but rather lack of suspicion. she would be blind to a knife before her, even if the iron glinted in the sun. despite its potential for ulterior motive, she could not detect it in her counterpartâs question. indeed, she found a sort of reprieve in it. discussions of her nuptials with her family required a modicum of pretense, as if by convincing her beloved emperor and her beloved sister of her self-confidence, she might convince herself.
âin truth,â sophia admitted, leaning in slightly and lowering her voice, âi was immensely nervous. iâm not accustomed to being the center of anyoneâs attention, much less cause for a gathering of this scale.âÂ
The princess is bejewelled from top to toe, the very picture of regality, but Elizabeth knows the feeling of insecurity well, her companion for most of her life. She did not think to look for it in a Byzantine princess, but there is no mistaking the look of it in Sophiaâs eyes.Â
The thought of it melts her heart more than a little. She wants to put her arms around the girl, in a strange sort of way, much in the same manner as she would any of her friends. But they are strangers to one another, and she does not delude herself into thinking that such a gesture would be well received.Â
âThere is no apology necessary,â she responds serenely, holding up a hand to halt any further attempts to say sorry. âThere are endless people here wanting to speak to you, no doubt. I canât blame you for taking a moment to collect yourself.âÂ
And then comes the confession, one which Elizabeth suspected was the truth, but had not anticipated hearing aloud. Still, she dutifully leans in, affording Sophia all the privacy such an utterance deserves, and listens patiently. Underneath all the pomp and splendour, Sophia is just a girl, her feelings but a symptom of being human.Â
âIt is understandable,â she speaks in hushed tones. âAnd commendable that despite it all, you did what was tasked of you anyway. That is truly something to be admired.â The words are spoken warmly, comfortingly, though Elizabeth cannot know how much solace she will take from it.