what it's like inside my mind - Chapter 21 : "A Letter Titled ‘This is an Ode to the Ones that I’ve Lost, & To the Ones that are Still Here’"
4 Letter Words that Describe the Ones
Fear - an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm.
Loss - the fact or process of losing something or someone
Love - a rush of deep affection for someone or something
5 Letter Words that Describe the Lost Death - a word that signifies the ending of a life
Grief - a display of intense sorrow, especially caused by death
6 & 8 Letter Words that Describe the Here
Sadness - the feeling of unhappiness
Numbness - a loss of feeling in a part of the body
So exactly as the clock hits 4 in the morning, & as it moves to 5 & then to 6 til 8
I’m stuck wondering about the memories that were dropped within wideness of my palm
If I had an ode to my heart, about every time 5 dials my number - I’d wish upon a star for my heart to be separated into 2
So the ‘Here’ would feel lesser of a burden than the ‘Ones’ that have yet experienced the ‘Lost’
For I am numb, I am numb to the parts of my body that scream your name
To the heart, that has scars, stitched & sown by the arrows that pierce them
Grieving at the sight of Love. Wishing the rush of affection wouldn’t hold any sort of consequences
Imagining what’s your life like, for the familiarity of these letter words are ever so the ones that are dear to me
Sitting by the phone with the expectation of loss
Waiting for it to ring to tell me that you’ve once again traveled to a place I can only so think of reaching
So, as I write this letter, I hope the clouds are all that you’ve ever imagined, & maybe more so
Promise me that you’ll hold my heart within the palms of your hands when the decision of my time has come
Wipe my tears, for the stream of water will be the only essence that reminds me of you
Hug my figure, & never allow me to doubt what your touch ever felt like
Hold my hand, for it maybe possibly the last time you’ll ever grip it
& When it’s time to fully let go, don’t remember me for the leaps I’ve taken, but for the memories that were shared.





















