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Haven’t posted in what seems like forever and not likely to start again in any regular capacity. Looking through these old posts has me feeling some things for sure though.

Funny how I never connected the dots with my mental health when it was documented here all along. Here’s to a better tomorrow. Hopeful and scared shitless..

My heart is very heavy hearing about the passing of Scott. Frightened Rabbits is and will continue to be one of my favourite bands. Their lyrics have gotten me through countless instances of my own struggles over the years.

I was lucky enough to see them a while back and wasn’t aware that Billy’s set-list would become one of my most treasured items. The world has lost a very talented and compassionate person this week. Hold the people you care about close #frightenedrabbit

I have learned to stop saying yes when I don't mean it -- to live as authentically as I know how.

To allow the tips of my fingers to skirt the darkness, as long as I remember to keep my eyes fixed one the light.

And as one door opens and another closes, I will move forward with the knowledge that unlike so many others, I have another year ahead of me -- another shot at making it all the way around the sun,

And a chance to get it right this time round.

New Beginnings- Lang Leav

#lang leav

If these last few weeks have taught me anything it’s that my friends are so incredibly important to me. The only thing that feels not okay about that is how afraid I am to lose them all.

This week my therapist told me I’m very good at being busy. That being busy helps me be distracted. I need to get better at the times where I stop.

Had a wonderful weekend and then realized I spent most of it running at high speed. Wondering if I can still be happy and not do that.

I adopted a cat. His name is spike and I am so in love.

What if I feel stressed because I like it?

It feels like my chest is caving in. I am so nervous and so anxious and it has all come from having one day alone. I am beginning to worry that I’m not very good at this life business.

Wondering if I’ll ever learn that someone not wanting me doesn’t need to be directly tied to me feeling good about myself.

Wonderful, wonderful weekend. I’m all smiles.

Don't know the first thing about who you are.

My heart is waiting, taken in from the start.

If we don't go now, we won't get very far.

Don't know the first thing about who you are...

Beirut - No No No

#beirut #nonono #amazing #uh oh #no no no

That year was certainly full of growing. For me and for all of my plant babies. I’m glad it’s done but I’m also, pretty happy and acutely aware that I wouldn’t be where I am without it. I am cautiously optimistic to see what this year will bring me. Things so far have been quite amazing. Forever questioning whether it’s just my turn for good or if my increasingly positive attitude has turned me into a complete dolt who doesn’t expect too much. Only time will tell.

#happy

Oh boy. That was a fun time. I am both confused and content and that feels strange.

Haven’t posted anything in a while because I was all emotional and trying not to dwell on it. I’ve been trying to take care of myself and not drink as often. I’ve been cooking myself really healthy food almost every night and eating lots of fruit and vegetables. I’ve cut out so much sugar and the best part is that it’s all kind of happened naturally. I guess something had to give. I’m feeling better for it so far and have been enjoying the time I’ve taken for myself. I have focused my energy on good friends and people who have my back instead of people who don’t want me around. Sydney is still feeling as lonely as ever but things are looking up.

Starting to get that feeling like maybe things do happen for a reason. Last night was lovely.

I feel strange and very not like myself. Lonely days are becoming difficult.

#sad

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