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god fuck i just want to die!!! I feel trapped!!!!!!!!!

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genuinely too embarrassed to tell any of my friends aboyt how transphobic my partner becomes when theyre mad at me!!! and its such a huge red flag to me idk whst to do!!!

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Oh also i HATE being afraid of the sound of footsteps or movements in my own house! Makes me way fucking anxious and on edge!!!!!

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cant really say this anywhere else but man am i tired of feeling bullied and shut down!!!!

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Ill be so lucky if i make it to 25 tbh

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idk how im not supposed to feel worthless rn. but my cat keeps checking on me or wanting me to be around him. it is keeping me together enough

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Please god help me today idk what to do!!

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Well! This is traumatizing!

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Where do i put it all? Is god the only one who can tell me?

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idek how to grieve anymore like my emotions are so fukex up!!

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idek how to grieve anymore like my emotions are so fukex up!!

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soooo sad hate how harmful i can be hmm m:(

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I have to keep reminding myself that i just need better medication and im not always this abusive underdeveloped monster

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Im just another fucking selfish asshole on this planet like im not doing anyone any good

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everything is fucking hopeless i hate this place

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she just looks at me like im so ugly now

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I wish I had a mom to talk to when I get scared like this