[somnomantic]

:’) my landlord just barged into my place while I was asleep demanding to use my bathroom, this might be it for me folks. My depression cave may just get me kicked out cause of how bad it is and he saw it all.

[somnomantic]

Nvm I overreacted, he said he’d help me do some cleaning and gave me a couple cookies while I had a little cry

[somnomantic]

:’) my landlord just barged into my place while I was asleep demanding to use my bathroom, this might be it for me folks. My depression cave may just get me kicked out cause of how bad it is and he saw it all.

[o0kawaii0o]

Decora Himiko! 💗💖💕

[marlowe-art]

sunlight through the cherry blossoms

[marlowe-art]

cherry blossom lane

[scoutology]

#crysobbing

[somnomantic]

Opening up about your living conditions (because of how bad the depression is) and having your very close friend say “we don’t live nearby and can’t meet in person but if I knew you in person I dunno what I would do man if you said all that to my face”. Said with a connotation of disgust. Right. This is why I can’t tell people anything that’s actually going on.

Anyways on top of that my bank has locked all access to my funds because I haven’t been able to pay minimum payments on a credit card (I was stupid at 20) I assume they are just going to take everything including my full next paycheck next month. So yaay no money for two and a half months. I have maybe like 2 weeks of food I can ration, and 20$ cash. So yeah life is super cool right now.

[somnomantic]

This just in: going out and doing things is good for your mental health

[freakoutgirl]

I don't trust anyone with my vulnerability except 10,000 strangers on Tumblr

[night-city-samurai]

tried making toga in another game i play

i think she came out pretty cute

[ukiki]

[somnomantic]

It’s like missing a limb but everyone else says it’s for the best; the limb was rotten from the beginning.

I kept trying to hold onto it. After all, it was a part of me. It hurt all the time, some times worse than others. But it was mine, and I didn’t want to let it go. The pain seemed to go away, for a while. It seemed to function almost exactly like I wanted it to, and I was just happy that it was looking healthy. Then one day you wake up and it’s rotted and visceral and the only way to save the rest of yourself is to cut it off.

I can’t talk about it. The lingering pain after the amputation. Sometimes I even feel the limb still there and it’s suffocating how much I wish it was. But everyone says “I told you. It was no good from the start. I’m proud of you for choosing this”.

I wish it wasn’t a choice I had to make in the first place.

[maggotmuncher0]

testing acrylic markers

[taylornprice]

[somnomantic]

I’m really glad you’re happy that you’re losing weight, mom. I’m happy that this is making you more confident in yourself. I’m happy that you get to buy a bikini for the first time in 30 years and are going to be brave enough to wear it in public. I’m happy that you make enough money that you can afford weight loss drugs, because you’ve tried so many diets over the years and none have helped you.

Please. Please stop telling me every week. I know you feel good about yourself now. I know you don’t intend to make me feel like this. Right? Or Is this punishment of some sort? After years of telling me that it was my fault, that you gained weight with your last pregnancy and could never lose it. Is that what this is? I remember being 13 with an undiagnosed and ignored eating disorder and skipping meals, making myself throw up whenever I could, because you were so focused on loudly counting calories that I thought I was disgusting for liking food. Now I’m an adult with a different kind of eating disorder. I either don’t eat at all, or I eat until I throw up because I never was allowed to enjoy food before, and there’s this fear in me that eating will become something that’s shameful again. I guess it is, just in a different way. Instead of being afraid to eat a slice of bread by myself, now I’m afraid of eating in front of other people. I used to think that if I was fat that I deserved to be dead, and now I can’t even imagine feeling thin anymore. Both are curses in themselves.

[freakoutgirl]

does anyone know if romantic love is real

[borrowed-thoughts]

I’m doing so fucking horrible but in like a super chill way