didnt post this here when it was happening, thankfully, but i am still mad.
my trailer barely works and we are in debt to credit cards. its not a massive debt, but it is enough to make it uncomfortable and out of our reach that we can pay it off while living here.
recently the electricity has been a concern. half of our power flickered and went out around a week ago, its back on and hasnt done it since then, but still, it was concerning. so i called my father, who said he would pay to have whatever it is fixed. then i called him again and floated around the idea of us moving into one of his spare rooms (he has three.) and we would pay him rent + help him around the house. he seemed to consider it and told me to ask my mother. i do, and she is fine with it.
so then maybe 4-5 hours later i get a call from my sister. she says that father has asked her to help me apply for low income apartments and such, and that he wants me to see if i can find a different cheap trailer. turns out he doesnt want us to rent his spare room after all and instead wants us to PAY EVEN MORE IN RENT with a newer trailer because he would only pay the first month and we would be saddled with not only lot rent like right now, but also the loan for the trailer, which would make it around $600 a month. we can barely do anything right now and our lot rent is $430.
he says that he wants to keep us independent and them independent. because independence is having a trailer you cannot bathe in, are always worried about power issues, rotting floors, dripping windows when it rains, cannot be cooled efficiently so summers are awful and youre in pain all the time. you barely have money to do anything with, your car is heavily used and makes noises when it is running, the lot rent is raised every year by $45 when no benefit is added.
in exchange for a room they don't even use he would have gotten extra money each month, stop having to occasionally send money so i can get gas, stop having to pay for repairs, help around the house and the kitchen would actually be clean for once, we already have to bathe and do laundry over there so that is already something he pays for. but no, he just lies to me to keep me hopeful, then denies me through my sister, and tells me he is "always rooting for me."
no the fuck he isnt. he doesnt show that at all, and doesnt help beyond throwing money at my trailer. he thinks living with him would be easy for me??? we feel trapped man, thats why i got desperate. but no, im just screwed.
