disconnective

24. Pseudo Thinker. Caffeine dependent life form who is treading his way into the daily drama!Instagram - inishant__

[soofarlost]

I don’t know what to say

At the end of the day, if someone wants to be in your life, they will be. Truly — they are capable, they will make the effort, they will show up. If they do not — let that be your closure. However, you do not have to hate them. You do not have to remember their contribution to your life as anything but beautiful. Do not ruin them in your mind, do not grip until you feel resentment. Instead, love them without attachment. Love the lessons they taught you. Wish them well every single time you think about them. Miss them, but do not ache for them to come back. If the people in your life left because they were not ready to value you, or love you, or be there for you, do not wish for them back, do not ask for them to be more than they can be at the moment. Wish for them to figure themselves out. Wish for them to grow. They are on their own journey — a journey you are not a part of. And that is okay. You have to learn that that is okay. So instead of focusing on the people who left, focus on the people in your life who have chosen to be there. Focus on the ones who stayed, on the ones who appreciate you and respect you. Focus on the people who match the love you give them, focus on the people who empower you and grow you and make your life beautiful. You are surrounded by human beings who will not shy away from the love you give. You are surrounded by human beings who know that they want you in their life, people who show you that every single day. Do not take them for granted. Do not lose touch of what you have, chasing what you no longer do. Trust me when I say — you will miss out on beautiful things if you continue to stay rooted in all of the ways you were wronged, if you continue to let your past pull you from experiencing what the present has to offer you. Do not close yourself off to your potential. Instead, open yourself to the world, and allow for it to fill that space with the kinds of people, the kinds of moments, and the kinds of experiences that exhilarate you, that compel you — that make you love yourself, and your life, and what you have to offer, more and more each day.

[soofarlost]

i need to start writing again!

[soofarlost]

We were/ are made for each other”, I say, but what I really mean is “I lost her and I don’t know how to get her back”, it’s “I’m sorry, but I don’t know if I can get back things to normal ”. When distance gets in the way and it’s difficult to own up to your mistakes, because you are actually not present to feel the pain of the other person , we tend to bury our apologies. Suddenly we talk about the weather and our jobs, about things we know no one really cares about, and then we talk about nothing at all, our silence filling the spaces we carved between our outstretched hands. I look at our photos , I keep looking at WhatsApp to see if you are online and it makes me stop everything, because I still want to know what you’re up to and it kind of makes me sad that I do not have direct access to your life like before . It’s like I’m looking at a faded photograph I can no longer touch, I can no longer be a part of. I still want to know if you’re happy, and I hope you are, even if your happiness lies no longer with me. Even if you no longer share it, telling me of your latest adventures, no longer whisper secrets that smell like cherries, I still want to know. You can avert your eyes and pretend that you don’t miss me , you can block my number, or stop calling me neo or stop messaging me . You don’t have to say hello to me ever again, even though we never really said goodbye. I can’t take back the things I have done to you and can’t erase the way I know you and always will. The memories we made sit in the back of my mind like deadweight, dragging me down, but I can’t forget. I won’t let myself forget. Everyone tells us about heartbreak and about love gone to waste. About the tears we will cry and how it will hurt but won’t matter years down the road. But what about ending? What about friends turning into strangers? I wish there was a warning about  relationship coming with an expiration date. I wish we sometimes remembered that two people can part ways from one day to the next when they’d sworn they’d never end.

[soofarlost]

Sometimes you get so carried away by life that you forget your roots , you forget your priorities , your thoughts just flow like a leaf in the river , going the direction where the flow takes you . Remember stay in the present , fight for the present rather than thinking about what you will do in future . 

[soofarlost]

It’s a miracle that our relationship grows stronger and stronger each day despite the miles separating us. On your birthday, I wish you nothing but happiness, love, and good health, my love. The amount of love you shower your neo with is immense and i am grateful for having you by my side. I couldn’t have asked for a more wonderful partner than you my baby . I hate being far away from you Keo,and I know how painful it is to not have me by your side on this special day. Let me say it loud - each time we are far apart, my love for you only grows stronger. Happy birthday @koyel03

[soofarlost]

I met a beautiful soul few months back and it already seems like i have spent a decade with her . She is not perfect ,she makes mistakes ,a lot of them and i am proud of it because in every mistake that she commits she gets an experience of a lifetime . So girl don’t worry about mistakes don’t think of the outcome because at the end it will make you more wiser . Her smile its so wide and beautiful that it can make anyone content, it makes everyone think about how peacefully beautiful the world is . Your sorrows get engulfed in that smile of her . Until now we have had an adventurous ride, full of stories that will be forever in our memory and we still have a lifetime of adventure to goo. She is the kind of happy go lucky girl who goes with her heart .No one can impose their choices on her .She is a bird that will fly high ,so high that even the sky can’t be a limit for her. She s to me what i am to her . “My lifeline ” The person i just described is not just one but two with one soul . It’s me and her together. We are exact clone of each other who found love in the most beautiful way . From same choices ,same towel ,same behaviour and exact perception of life to having moles at the exact same places it not just her that I described it also me . Because i and she are just the same . Just the same in perfect amount so that each can be with the other for their best as well as the worst time. I and @koyel03.

[koyel03]

Dinner at Taj 🍽 (at The Taj Mahal Palace, Mumbai)

[soofarlost]

This picture is oozing beauty keooo!

[soofarlost]

I cry i cry i know i cry , I don't give up because I am not one those who likes to fail and fall. I'm not in depression but I'm disturbed. I'm mentally stable but emotionally drained out. But dealing with anxiety has taught me a lot which I'm going to share, I'm sure there a lot of people who deal with these issues everyday and it kills them slowly. So here's something that I want you to know, just digest and gulp it easily. I was born in a storm with chaos in my bones. I live greedily with all my heart. I will survive, with or without people. I say this every single day with all the energy that is left in me because it's easy to beat anxiety issues. Firstly, it doesn't make you look like a weak person or an asshole. It makes you look beautiful with each passing day because we know you're struggling to come out of the mess and breathe in all the good things that life has to offer. Your tired eyes are going to wander and wonder. You would miss opportunities, you might lose out on the best people, you might break your heart and you might suffocate yourself thinking that the society is calling you a sadist. But the truth is, you're healing with each passing day. You are horny for the next day to bring in the sunshine over your head. While you wait, be a little uncomfortable, it's a part of growing up honey. Let out all your feelings even if it makes you look like a jerk. Get to the breaking point, yell and let it out. Start living with compassion, confidence and kindness. It might sound too much to take but it's easy, everything is in your mind. And while you are knocking down these anxiety issues, you will discover yourself, a part of you that was missing. Oh honey, you will eventually flex your muscle and project your voice. One day, you're going to be so glad that you kept going.

[soofarlost]

Shower thought

The truth is I wish I could help everyone push through the struggles they experience everyday,to chase their pain away.But the truth is we all get their one day, feel it and live by it. I have been there, where you are now. I have lived by it and you will to. Just never give up

[koyel03]

Some moreee teaser for something little big 🍯 My queeeen we have a story so special so different. Just like you and ‘us’ ⭐️ Darrrrk chocolateeeee 🍫 @soofarlost

[soofarlost]

This bee just bit me real hard and my state of mind is really really lost. So far still so near @koyel03

[koyel03]

This is just a teaser queen for something little big ! @soofarlost Dark chocolate 🍫

[soofarlost]

How do you plan to kill the QUEEEN! @koyel03

This is AMAZING ! DUCK just stopped swimming after looking at this!

[koyel03]

Itnaaaaa sochegaaa toh jiyegaaa kaiseeee

Genius duck ! (via koyel03)

[fiftyshadesofselfdestruction]

Note to self: You didn’t get that job? It’s okay, it does not mean you are a failure. It means that you have to try again. You cried because of something you thought wouldn’t matter? Apparently it did. Learn from it, treat yourself a little better, buy that book you’ve wanted for ages. Someone left you? It’s okay, maybe they prefer silver over gold. That’s fine, just be true to who you are. Stay gold. You’re not feeling so good today? Do the things you enjoy, it’s okay to stay in bed but don’t stay in too often. Be nice to yourself. You’ll feel better. Lost all your reasons to stay alive? Make yourself the reason. You are important. The most important person in this world. Make sure you act like you are the most important person. You’ll feel special. You lost your best friend? Be your own. You’ll always have someone to turn to if you are your own best friend. It’s okay to be friends with yourself. Try it please. Fought with your mom? Make it up. Everyone makes mistakes and please make it up before its too late. Your mom will always be your mom and she will love you no matter what. You don’t love your parent(s)? It’s okay, make sure your reasons are valid though, you can’t unhear or take back the words you said. Be nice. Always be nice.

Things I learned when I moved out. (via fiftyshadesofselfdestruction)

[soofarlost]

You changed my life!

I want to tell you when this world lets you down, I want something of me to sit with you to make that moment a bit more happy . Because the hardest thing to do when everything is going wrong is to believe that it will be right again. Just know that whatever hardship you’re passing through is temporary. Life is ever-changing so are its moments. You should know that despair, much like happiness, is just a flying moment and we shouldn’t attach ourselves to either. Because both are unfaithful. I wish someone had told me that. You know what the world can be hugely unjust and selfish and misleading but beautiful and giving and breath-taking in equal measure. I wish someone had said us to fully live every moment of our childhood because it will be the only time we were truly happy.I wish they had said when you fall in love with someone , fall with only ninety percent, because to give all of you will leave you empty. And the world is not full of people who will refill you. If I could be where you are now I’d have laughed more, longer and louder.I’d have worried less because everything is okay in the end if everyone you love is still around you. And the ones who truly love will always be around you. I’d say make mistakes. Make lots of them. They’ll hurt like a bitch but without them you won’t grow. Travel. Wide and far. Have an open mind, you don’t know what journey someone is on and it’s not yours to judge. Be yourself. No, really. Be yourself wholeheartedly. With all your quirks and eccentricities. The good and the bad. Accept them. And i know you are my strongest superwoman and dark chocolate

[soofarlost]

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“ If no one ever told you
before today , I will make sure you know
every time I look at you,
I see sparkling, glittering, shining
stars in your eyes
and bursting, beautiful
sunsets in your smile
and the world looks better 
for those few moments we’re together,
so stay
even if I don’t ask,
don’t leave
even if I tell you to go
because when you’re not here 
half of me is lost somehow, somewhere 
forever.”

[soofarlost]

Someone with heart

“It takes a certain kind of person to meet you at your dark. To walk into your life at your lowest and see you at your emptiest and still want to stay. It takes someone with heart and character and the stomach for a struggle to not look away when they’re faced with your ugly side . Life is full of people ready to hold onto you at your fullest, your happiest, your best. It takes someone special to see beyond your layers to your core. To know that you will be once again how you were once before. It takes compassion and kindness and warmth and wisdom and faith and belief and so much fucking patience to stoop and build someone up you find broken in two. To stitch and glue and mend and repair. To believe in them when the whole world tells you there is no longer anything there. It takes a certain kind of someone to stumble upon you when you have nothing left to lose and instil within you a light of hope that you still have everything to prove. Someone who understands your past and is ready to sacrifice and erase all those moments from your life. 
Any one of seven billion can hold onto you when you’re at your absolute whole. But it takes a special kind of someone to catch you when you eventually fall.”

[refuse2obeyy]

You will meet many types of people in your life. You will meet delicate flowers, raging oceans, quiet forests, towering mountains, and colourful skies. You will meet thunderstorms, you will meet lightning. They will knock you down, they will leave you breathless. You will meet sunrises, you will meet gardens. They will give you light, they will take you on adventures. Explore them. Get lost with them. They all have something to teach you.