Soon-to-be-sth

There is a small girl inside adult businesswoman. This is my way to talk to freely.

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It's a tough day. Can't concentrate tasks feel like to much and there is a tough week following this Monday

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Today is really tough... I just wanted someone to know. It's hard to concentrate, hard to go through the day. The tasks are too big and too complicated. I'm sad...

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Lost

Hi! I don’t get what is happening. I don’t feel our connection anymore, however it seems you are ruling all the way. I don’t feel any compassion. I just don’t like the way you are overwhelming me. It’s so frustrating and tiring. I wish I would be strong enough to put you in some schedule and principles. I’m just too weak... You get anything you like by your outbursts and paralyzing my efforts, but still that’s not enough and you are not happy, or maybe that’s me that is not happy and that is why it’s so hard.

I’m so lost I don’t like any tasks, but I’m too bored not doing them.

I think I’m disappointed by both of us. No one is winning and I have no will and mental strength to fight for solution to reason. I should divide my time for grownup and child in me, but I don’t know how to do it. 

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Stubborn

Hello Littleone, stubborn today, aren’t we? You do not want o do anything, Netflix seems so comfy... There are two challenging days ahead and nothing seems to be good to be done. But let’s do some tasks, ok? Why don’t we start with the millions of tabs you have already opened?

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Needing grown-up

Sometimes businesswoman isn’t enough for the little girl. That’s when the girl looks for someone else. The daddy. It’s not always when she can tell him what she needs or wants because just like she is, the daddy is engraved into another grown-up. She wishes to write to him to express her deepest desires and thoughts.

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Lost in time

I am unable to do anything I plan. I slept too long and did not want to get up. I didn’t manage to do the easiest task from the list in 3 hours. Today I am sick of you little girl. I do not have any sympathy or understanding. Do you know we have to work? I want to break free as strong as you. I have no strength to live step by step.

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Are you lost?

Hello Little Ona, we do have a strict plan to follow, but you don’t feel like it, am I right. I have no strength or will to make you. It’s the dreams we are fighting for and this fight is not so hard. I feel like you are missing the person you put as your dad. Yeah me too. He is very busy you know, and he is fighting his own demons... We will try to spend some time with him I promise, but it can not be fully like you want. He can’t play the dad, it’s to much when he needs guidance himself.

We did 8 out of 140... let’s do some more... I have no idea how much, but another 22 would be something. Oh and there is that phone call. Yeah we need to find this businesswoman onside and nail it ... anyhow...

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Long break

We haven’t talk for a while. Are you getting more angry on me? Do I supress your needs? I’m not sure what I want and what you want. I believe both of us are lost. Even the one playing the parent is not strong enough. Be strong, be proud... be...

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Structure

Hello Little One, how have you been? We haven’t talk a while, but it didn’t make my moods easier..Today it’s time to work. Could we please swtch work and play whole day? Let’s start with 30 minutes of smoe less bothering work, then one of te ugly ones, ok? and then 30 minutes of break? You can listen to your book.

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I see you

Today I learnt, little one ,that you not only want to sleep and eat. You also have emotions that you want to share with world. You want others t know what you feel and what you need. Well, we wouldn’t like it to be a disaster, so we need to take it step by step, how? I don’t know that is something to think of.

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Lost

Hello little one, today we are not efficient, are we? The day goes by and we are in that state, when we exist but that’s how far it can get. Could we please do at least 2 tasks from the list? The most short. Wasn’t sleeping what you wanted and needed? We can not only sleep and eat there will be no time like this, but I really try to give you as many fun as you like.

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Shell we?

Hello little one, you were very strong on Friday. We made the incredible big and tough task. Today we started with play, you could solve the jigsaw puzzle. Now we need to try to work. There is no huge task but also none of them is fun. Yes, no lies. Let’s start with the formal one, ok? Could we please try to do it for 1h and then get a half of hour break? I’m so sorry to remind you, but there will be no days anly for fun now. The other one of me is adult and needs to do her businesswonam stuff...

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Stay strong

We are half of the way. Yes it’s hard I know little girl. I wish I could promise you we will rest soon, but I can’t we will rest when we are done. Ok? Would you please let us finish the task? We are doing great! Now 30 min. of break. Feel free to play and eat sweets

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Stay strong

Hallo little one. Today we do have this terryfing task. Today we have one day for the task supposed to take whole week. I need  to remind you that we will not keep up the time to do whatever you wish and sleep and eat . I will try to keep up with a little bit of it but not with the whole. Please help me with this task. Could we try to do it please?

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Thank you

We made it. How did you feel little girl? You wanted to stop and do sth new a few times, but we managed to stay on track. It was much longer than expected, wasn’t it? Now we will do something you want and than go back to buying phone after discussion with him- ok? And this big task I told you about. It’s huge, but could we try to do it? To start it today?Just for like a 1 hour... Ok, no promisses. Still we closed 3 topics- congrats.

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Please

Little One, I know you want only to do what you want not to plan and not to work. But we can’t do it. We can’t get the time you missed. Could we work on the e-mails and then buy that phone, please. Buying phone is fun and thinking about Christmass gifts is too. I won’t lie there is big, hard task in front of us too. I am afraid you won’t be willing to do it. I’m with you on this one, but maybe we can make it work anyhow... Let’s start with e-mails, phone and Christmas and then we can do whatever you like for sometime. Please...

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Hello

It seems like many years ago there was only one of us. And then you didn’t get what you need so you stopped growing and maturing. But I didn’t I have not know that you were there inside me and I neved listened to you or your needs. But you can not be a typical little girl. You have already seen some adult stuff too. Well we need to get through it. I need to comunicate with you so you could become a part of grown businesswoman and we would stop fighting. I can not take it any more.