I’m so sorry you’ve gotten the worst of me a lot I think and I fucking hate that I’m trying so hard for you to get more of the best of me.I’m so sorry for being so upset all the time and being in a bad mental state. I thought I was going to be better than this I thought I was going to be a better partner.maybe have my shit together at 21.I’m so fucking sorry from the bottom of my heart and I know you’ve heard the words I’m sorry too many damn times to count since we been together and I know you’ve forgiven me too many times too and for you I’m so grateful that you love me the way you do .. I don’t deserve it sometimes but you sure know how to love me so damn right and I will never ever want need or find someone better than you and how good you love me and fuck I’m just sorry it kills me everyday to know I’m not at my best for you .here I am crying and always sad over shit I put my own damn self through and I know it’s so fucking wrong to put you through my pain too and I definitely know what I have and ur heaven to me i love you to the core of you and everything you are and will be. Thank you for staying with me . (Something I texted 6/31/2018)
