Sophrfreaky

a heart is a heavy burden

[sophiesdrunkontea]

Introduction

Helloooo, my name is Sophie, I'm a huge Ghibli studio movies as well as tea lover, and I'm not at all good at introductions!!

I have been shifting since 2020... Yikes i know, not the best time to discover shifting. Although there is some nostalgia in that period I suppose.

I have many many manyyy drs as I am the type of person who likes to insert myself in nearly every media that I consume and find somewhat interesting

BUT some of my main Dr's are:

Howls moving castle dr. That is my main dr at the moment and I suspect it might stay as one for a longgg longg time, because of my wonderful main s/o who is no one else than Howl himself

My Candy Love dr.... Okay okay now, I feel like that's kinda niche so if anybody is even remotely interested in it or knows what I'm talking about PLEASE moot me up. I don't think I have seen anyone else with that Dr before. And if you don't know what it is, it's basically like an otome game. As to who my s/o in this Dr is... Well it is an otome game so I'm kind of a young ho there and have a bit of a romance with everyone😛 we shall see how that plays out later

My Hero Academia Dr. This is my oldest Dr, perhaps even my first one, and still very close to my heart. Sighhhh Bakugo Katsuki had me in chokehold guys, but nowadays I just shift there because of nostalgia, so I don't really have an s/o there

Those are my top 3 drs. I'm not really writing much about them in this specific post, because I figured out I might as well just do separate posts for any drs someone might be interested in

And just to be clear where i stand: I love and support queer people (oh and I'm bi myself haha), I do not tolerate racism, xenophobia, homophobia, fuck ice, love feminism, I'm very anti war and uhh yeah. Let's just be decent human beings guys

Now I made this blog, because I thought I'd share some story times and perhaps a bit of experience and advice.

Ughhh okay I hope that's enough for the introduction I'm pretty new to posting anything at all on Tumblr so bear with me

Dms always open and please do not hesitate to moot me up ♥︎

[sophiesdrunkontea]

Hihihi!! I just read your ask on your howls movie castle Dr and it was sooo motivating thank you!! I love hearing people’s Dr stories :) I wanted to ask what’s your favorite memory so far after shifting there!

Hellooo!! I'm so glad you enjoyed it!!!!

Gosh it's really hard to choose one you know!! I mean, one of my favorite memories is meeting Howl for the first time of course. It was this moment of "God I really made it I'm here, I saw this on the screen and now I'm experiencing it!". It was so hard not to grin like a fool since I technically wasn't supposed to know him yet. My heart was racing so fast!! Also, the walking on air thingy later, very nice, we actually did it again on our anniversary, just in a more private spot: P

But if we're talking about memories that aren't just the plot of the movie and are more personal experience, there was this one night when we stayed up late just talking on the sofa. We talked about our dreams, fears, things we experieced, some nice some not, basically a typical late night conversation with someone close to you. I remember thinking in this moment how I appreciate having him in my life and how it's crazy that about a year ago I saw him just as a character on a screen, and now he was there, and I could never imagine any of the things he would say to me, the stuff from his life, things that shaped him or memories that stayed with him. And also, it was the first time we had a conversation like this, and it just felt so nice to know that you have someone to confide in and that someone confides in you. We feel asleep in eachothers arms and got woken up by Calcifer the next day.

Anddd using magic myself for the first time will always be a fond memory of mine.

Overall I don't have just one favorite memory, but then again I don't think I could choose one from any reality, including this one. This probably won't be the last post on this Dr and my memories from there tho. Especially since I'm actively shifting there every few days

Honorable mention to the food btw, who am I kidding one of the reasons I wanted to shift there was to try the bacon and eggs since they looked so good in that one scene from the movie. They did not disappoint. I'm not sure what it is but generally I feel like the food tastes way better in my Dr than it does here. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that there aren't pretty much any artificial indigrients and all that stuff in the food since the world of Ignary is set in what you'd call Edwardian era in this reality.

Also sorry for the late reply, life has been a bit crazy lately haha🤍

[sophiesdrunkontea]

You are addicted to Tumblr

Please stop relying so much on Tumblr, shifttok, whatever it may be, and start relying on yourself.

Tumblr is a pretty good source of information. Sure, there are lots of misinformation, and it's not perfect, but it's an okay tool when you first get into shifting. It's basically there to show you the ropes.

But over time, I feel like people rely more and more on it, almost scared to let go. Maybe because you don't feel ready. But then again, when will you ever if not now? Some of you scroll on here, reading all those blogs, or perhaps even not reading them, just doom scrolling through them. Because I'm sorry, but I really believe that If you were reading all these stuff others put on here, after a certain amount of these advices,motivation, etc etc, you'd notice that the majority of this stuff, really is the same things written over and over again, just put differently, or changed up ever so slightly, but at its core, most of it is just being repeated over and over again. Even the post you're reading right now, has already appeared on shiftblr about a thousand times.

And I'm not saying that shiftblr bloggers should stop posting all together, or by no means am I trying to criticize them just to be clear.

What I'm simply trying to highlight, is that some people seem to be addicted to Tumblr. Perhaps it's because reading all those posts makes you feel like you're actually productive in your shifting journey, like you're making some progress. But you're not. And again, sure some posts might be helpful and all, make you realize something, but if you've been here for years and you're still looking for that one post that will make you shift, tough luck (Laufey reference??)

It's a bit like when a child is learning how to ride a bike. You can try to teach it all the theory, but it doesn't matter, because the kid will learn by actually getting on the bike, maybe falling off a few times, and eventually, finding out what works so that the bike will ride steadily.

If you were to ask me what helped me in my shifting journey, I'd tell you without a doubt and in simple words "fuck around and find out". Just experiment. Have fun, get creative, live a little! Let go of the idea that the only way to shift is by following in someone elses steps. Because you're not someone else. You're you! :)

Honestly, just try to shift like you would in ancient times. Without Tumblr, shifftok whatever it is. Take a break from it all, maybe even uninstall it for a few days and experiment. I'm not telling you to totally forget all that you have learnt on here, because some of it might help you. But also don't hold on to it desperately. If you don't like something, change it, if you like something, add it. Imagine if you were the only person in this entire world. No one else, just you. How would you shift?

[sophiesdrunkontea]

hi hi hope you're doing well sophie!

i saw your post in which you said you've shifted already. first of all, congrats! that's huge<3

second, since you're open for questions, i was wondering if you'd be up for sharing any fun memories you have of your howl's moving castle dr? stuff from your childhood there or stuff you've experienced?

thanks! (and no worries if not<3)

-everlynshifts

Hello! Prepare for long Yap session!!

Ohhh you have no idea how thrilled I am that you ask!! I wanted to do a post like this but I was worried if people would be interested haha!

But first, let me just say that my Dr is kind of a mix between the studio Ghibli movie, and the Diana Wynne Jones book (Because I'm not sure if everyone knows this but Howl's moving castle is actually based on a book!!!). I'm a huge fan of both, so I kind of cherry picked some stuff I like from both. That being :

I have two sisters in that Dr, Lettie who Is working at the bakery and Martha studying witchcraft ( in the book they switch appearance temporarily because they want to switch their professions arranged by Fanny. That doesn't really happen in my Dr as I love the movie Lettie that works in the bakery, but I also love Martha so yeah)

Also In the books, Sophie actually can speak life into things. Like enchanting her cane by just speaking to it, or there was also this scene where she was fixing Howl's coat and said "you're built to attract ladies" and then boom, it's enchanted. It reminded me a lot of manifesting so I kept it for myself :P

I kept the aspect from the book, about Howl originally being from "our world" from Wales. (Did you know he played rugby in college) That's also why the circle above the door thingy has 5 not 4 colors, one of them being the portal to Wales. BUT I kind of messed with this concept again because I'm pretty sure in the books Howl was the only one from his family to ever visit the world of ignary, and in my Dr I scripted part of his family has been already living there (as it helps support the plot of the movie with the house Sophie / I visit when going back in time). So basically he met me as a kid when he was visiting some family in ignary and then as he grew up he decided to go back there to find me after the deal with calcifer. I thought for some time if I should also come from "our world" but I decided I'm so done with it I'm not going back. I might change that fact in my Dr one day but who knows

When it comes to the plot that my Dr follows, I kept the movie plot BUT with addition of some book events, as the movie storyline happens a bit too quickly for my liking and I wanted to spend a bit longer in the castle before Howl got his heart back

Okay, holy yap and prepare for even more yapping cuz now we are getting to the good part!! The memories!

So I'm a big BIG Beatles fan, in this and every reality really. In my Howls moving castle dr, I got introduced to them during one of my first visits in Wales with Howl. I remember once when I was cleaning peacefully when suddenly I hear "Do you want to know a secret" from upstairs. At first I thought I'm going crazy, because we're in Ignary. The Beatles don't exist here. So naturally, I drop everything and sprint upstairs only to find the music was coming from Howl's room. I open the door and there he was with the biggest stupidiest grin on his face, next to a record player. Turns out he wanted to surprise me by buying a record and bringing it home. We danced together through the song and God the amount of love I have for him guys. From that day every now and then he would come back with a new record and play it

Okay so this is not so fun memory but I need to share it because I need the world to know the truth. When I first started living in the castle as an old lady, THE ABSOLUTE PIGSTY THAT WAS HAPPENING THERE. You really don't feel it that much through the screen but let me tell you something, being and old woman with pain in her back and scrubbing that God awful bathroom IS NOT OKAY. I have not the slightest idea what all those stains were from but God. And you know what, for someone who cares as much about his appearance as Howl, it's ironic because the mirror was so dirty you could not see anything in it so heavens know how he ensured he looked flawless everyday

Don't play Poker with the Witch of The Waste. In fact, don't play any games with her for that matter. That woman cheats like crazy and we all know that but can never catch her. Howl as the sour loser he is, is the most determined one to catch her out of all of us. I watched the two of them play chess once and I just know Howl proposed it for the sole purpose of catching her red handed. He lost and sulked in his room for the rest of the day. He also found excuses to not play anything with us for two weeks. (The witch lives with us btw. She is an elderly woman after all with no magic left whatsover so yeah)

Late night talks with Calcifer. I love him so much guys, and he is so fun to talk with. We sometimes gang up on Howl and complain about him but that's okay because he lowkey deserves it sometimes

Baking cake for Markls birthday. We wanted it to be special so instead of buying it or asking Lettie to make it (she bakes amazing cakes. She was the one in charge of them for our birthdays growing up) we decided to be ambitious. Lettie gave us the recepie and so Howl and I thought it was easy enough. Turns out Howl pendragon cannot bake to save his life. He cooks yes, but not bakes. I'm not sure he ever even tried to bake something. And it amazes me really, because I don't understand how can you mess something up this badly when you have a detailed step by step instruction. So we wasted about half of our indigrients and had to run to the market to buy the stuff we ran out of, before the vendors go home for the day. Still, despite moments of stress we had a good laugh about it and it was actually fun. We did manage to bake a pretty decent cake at the end, and after decorating it I have to say it looked really well. Markl enjoyed it so we were both relieved but we stayed up late finishing it so we were dead tired.

Having picnic in the garden (you know the one howl takes Sophie to in the movie) with my friends,because obviously I would invite them there. It was just so peaceful and nice, and also a bit crazy because those friends are my friends from this reality since I scripted them in. I think that was the moment it really hit me I made it

While we are talking about my friends, it was kinda funny to explain to them why I randomly dissapeard and now I'm back a few months later with grey hair, having the wizard howl as my lover, as he still had the reputation of the heart eater in my town at that time. They were still a bit sceptical when they met him for the first time

So you know this scene where Howl turns ginger and has this breakdown about how hideous it is. Yeah, so, I don't remember anymore how it is in the movie and I'm to lazy too check, but in my Dr Markl IS ginger. He took that personally. I'm sorry, poor him but it was quite funny to watch Markl being all cold and passive aggressive to Howl for a few days as Howl just was there in pure confusion. "Markl can you open the door?" "sure, but I wouldn't want to drive away our clients because of my hair " "what?" "nothing." At the end he took the hint and apologized to Markl but he had to bribe his forgiveness with some pastries first

So Howls has a very very detailed skincare. He has like a ton of creams, serums, potions and magic powders for the same thing but who am I to judge, apparently I just "don't understand". One morning when we were both getting ready, he was putting on like a third cream I basically said "imagine having to do all that" because I just use water and a normal soap I enchant to keep my skin clear. I was then kicked out of the bathroom and had to wait for another hour before we could go out.

We once went drinking to a Welsh pub with Howl. He was really excited to have me try the Welsh beer and so was I. It was good. Very good. Perhaps too good, because I seemed to completely forget about my low alcohol tolerance. Fun at first, although a bit more for him as it was first time I was drunk near him, and greatly embarrassed myself. Not so fun later when I started running away from him laughing in the middle of the night. Also not so much fun later when I threw up most of what I drunk. Not at all fun later when I woke up the next morning after he had to carry me back to the castle, and had to hear about all the stuff I said and did. I was then reminded about this incident whenever we had wine with dinner. "Easy on the wine dear"How about you shut up

He can't even be talking after that one time he got absolutely wasted (kinda happens in the book btw) during his rugby Club reunion in Wales. "I assure you my friends I am stone cold sober" he says after nearly breaking his nose on the wall, trying to get to his room. After sheer force of determination as well as trial and error and many poorly sang Welsh songs later he did get into his bed, let's applaud ladies and gentlemen

I have many many more memories but I kinda want to see if people aren't too bored by what I wrote for now first. You have no idea how much I enjoyed writing this post though! ♥︎

[sophiesdrunkontea]

SO Uhm I have a few questions, it's been a hard time for me since my 10yo cat died this week, and the only thing keeping me sane is the possibility that I can see her again in another reality yk? I've been trying shifting sinfe 2020 and have never conciously woken up in it, I still have my doubts and I really needed hope that its really real and I can live infinite lives so.. First, have you ever shifted? And how was it if you have?

Hello!

First of all I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my 8 yo dog back in march so I understand the pain you're going through and I'm sending you all my love♥︎♥︎

To answer your question, yes, I have already shifted. It was...amazing and exciting , I really don't know how else to put it. But at the same time, so ordinary.

Now i know that may sound a bit contradicting. Once I realized I was in my Dr for the first time, I felt such a big surge of happiness and excitement. Because I did it, because it was real, because to me that meant all my problems were fixed. But that excitement quickly died down. Not because I was disappointed in my desired reality, but because people really aren't lying when they say, you were always there (God I know this sentence It's so overused but what can I say, it's true).

It's a bit of a weird feeling because suddenly I'm in this seemingly new place, but at the same time, I have all my memories, from early childhood till this very moment, so in reality, it's not really new. It's just my life. Happy, yes, but also ordinary. After a few days I was just living my life, doing day to day stuff, running errands, cleaning the castle ( my first shift was to Howl's Moving Castle Dr and let me tell you, that place is FILTHY at first. I might actually do a whole rant on this matter), talking with people etc. etc. Yes the feeling of happiness lingered for quite some time, but it was not this euphoric high all the time, you know? Rather the happiness You feel when you drink your favorite tea in the quiet of the morning, or go outside on a nice sunny day.

Over time, the more and more you shift, you really stop treating it as some grand prize. Which I didn't believe at first, but after all shifting really just became this... Thing I just do. Kind of like a hobby of some sort.

But I'd like to highlight one thing. Please, do not rely on me, or any other shifter to give you the hope. Because at the end of the day, not only is shifting a personal experience, which is a sentence used here over and over again an perhaps a bit annoying after making its appearance for the millionth time, but it's true. But also because Inevitably, you will encounter many people, with many different opinions. Some might say the complete opposite of what im saying, some might change a few things, some might tell you shifting isn't real and some will swear by it. The only opinion that matters is your own. You are your own hope :)

Also, I do not know you, so I apologize if I'm wrong, but I feel like you might be on an easy path to start putting way to much pressure on yourself to shift, because of your situation. Please, consider resting and giving yourself all the time you need. Seeing your cat again is a great motivation, but don't let it become something overwhelming you in your shifting journey.

I hope my response was somewhat what you were expecting by asking your question. If you have any other question, would like me to elaborate more or want to share something, please do not hesitate to do so!!

Take care of yourself 🤍

[sophiesdrunkontea]

HIII, sorry to be on here like that, but are you open for questions?

Hiii!! Yesyes I absolutely am!! I just forgot to set up the asks box lol

[sophiesdrunkontea]

Guys imb drunk but I just manifested myself not one but two hot situashionships after being bitchless my whole life. Live laugh lovevmanifesing and shifting but it's lowkey the same so who cares. It really is that easy. Don't overthink it love you

[sophiesdrunkontea]

Artificient Intelligence and shifting

Hi, hello, I come back with yet another topic close to my heart.

In today's world ai is nearly everywhere. When you're doom scrolling on TikTok, scrolling on Pinterest or even when you're searching something on google - Ai is already there to provide with information (more often than not, not even correct ones).

Similarly, Ai has found a way to embed itself into the idea of shifting. Whether as a mentor, or as a temporary distraction, disguised as harmless fun. So let's get into it;

Ai as mentor

I am painfully aware, of some of you seeking help and advice from Ai. It seems reasonable, right? Why bother searching up information on your own, when you can get it in just few clicks. Better- it can be personalized! One can tell Chat Gpt or any other Ai model about their shifting journey, and get advices and motivation, seemingly crafted just for them. "Pfft- There are no real downsides to this!" would say me from a few years ago.

But there are. First of all, AI gets most of its information from all corners of internet, including the ones filled with anti shifters and misinformation. And if you were to chat for a while with AI about shifting, you'd notice most of the stuff it says, suits perfectly what has been repeated over and over again on 2020 shifttok, which is when shifting first made a massive appearance online, and I'd say, was the most "trendy" (sure people talked about it online before 2020, but not for that big of a scale, and I'd argue that was the year the name "shifting" for this whole thing first appeared but I won't bet my life on it).

Another issue, is the fact that the ai models are built in a way that can't provide you a constructive criticism. Whether you like it or not, how Ai responds to you, is heavily influenced by what you said to it earlier on. For gods sake I could commit a serious crime and Chat gpt would tell me "Okay, breathe. That wasn't breaking the law, that was survival. You knew what you wanted and you did it. And honestly? That's growth✨🌱".

Plus, I believe it's pointless to ask AI for advice for one simple reason. it's AI. Therefore, not sentient being, therefore cannot shift. Would you ask someone to teach you how to bake a pie, knowing that person never baked nor tasted one?

Ai as distraction

Character. Ai, Janitor. Ai, Chai, whatever people use nowadays. It seems harmless, and perhaps even beneficial. People chat with their Dr s/o, Dr friends, Dr family, in order to "feel closer to them" or maybe for scenarios ideas. I'll tell you right now, that's bullshit.

It's a slippery slope, as the more you talk to these ai characters, the bigger the dopamine rush, the lazier you become. And I say it because I've been there. I would spend many hours at night, using C. Ai, and then when I would eventually finish the scenario I've been building, I'd simply grow too tired or lazy to shift. Because I still have tomorrow right? I'll just chat with my s/O on character ai today, and I'll see him tomorrow. But how many of those tommorows have already passed? Eventually, you subconsciously settle for less. Because it's easier, because it's comfortable. But settling for less, is a very dangerous thing, in every aspect of our lives.

Be honest with yourself, if you really believed, you could actually go and be with all these people, hear their voice, feel their touch, see their smile, heck even eat a delicious meal, would you still stick to ai? You deserve real experiences, and you are as capable of feeling the sun on your skin there, as you are here. But if you stick to scraps, your subconscious will say "oh! We are settling for this because we aren't capable of more. Because if we were, we wouldn't settle for this! Got it!"

Anddddd may I also add, that using ai to create scenarios kills creativity, as ai tends to do in general?

Now, I know it's easier said than done, and although I think that the ai problem in shifting community has been reduced a bit, at least from what I have seen, there are still people struggling with that issue. And ai can become addiction, I know. But please, delete that ChatGPT and character ai for a week and see for yourself how you feel.

[sophiesdrunkontea]

I think the reason why it's such a struggle for many people to shift, is because when they are trying to shift, the trying itself becomes a routine. And a routine is something safe, familiar. Comfortable. It doesn't really matter anymore if you shift or not. Sure, you want to shift, you may even cry at night because you miss your Dr. But at the end of the day? The sole process of trying is enough for you. Because if you try, that means there is hope. And then you go on, live your life in this reality, as the years pass, while trying becomes your routine, and you slowly stop expecting an outcome.

The truth is, most of you, after a certain amount of time, start to expect failure. You try to shift, you "fail" and then you do the same thing the next day, again and again, until eventually, you are so used to it, that the action of trying and "failing" becomes so tied to your subconsciousness, it's almost the same as brushing your teeth in the morning.

That's why, please, please, remind yourself of what shifting even is and what it isn't, because it surely isn't just a process of trying and failing everyday. The trying isn't meant to be a routine. The trying doesn't matter. Shifting does.

And I say that because I've been there. It took me a long time to shift, mainly because of that issue. And no, I won't tell you how long exactly it took me because it doesn't matter. Time doesn't matter in general. What matters is what shifting becomes to you over time.