Story of my life

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21

[sorimxlee]

"Steady My Heart"

Wish it could be easy

Why is life so messy? Why is pain a part of us? There are days I feel like Nothing ever goes right Sometimes it just hurts so much But You're here You're real I know I can trust You Even when it hurts Even when it's hard Even when it all just falls apart I will run to You 'Cause I know that You are Lover of my soul Healer of my scars You steady my heart [x2] I'm not gonna worry I know that You've got me Right inside the palm of your hand Each and every moment What's good and what gets broken Happens just the way You plan You are here You're real I know I can trust You Even when it hurts Even when it's hard Even when it all just falls apart I will run to You 'Cause I know that You are Lover of my soul Healer of my scars You steady my heart [x2] And I will run to You And find refuge in Your arms And I will sing to You 'Cause of everything You are You steady my heart [x2] Even when it hurts Even when it's hard Even when it all just falls apart I will run to You 'Cause I know that You are Lover of my soul Healer of my scars You steady my heart [x2] I'm not gonna worry I know that you've got me Right inside the palm of your hand

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You need to know you’re loved no matter what.

That doesn’t hinge on your GPA, or your family history, or that talent show, or your singing voice, or your secret addiction, or your sharp theology, or some blogger’s comments, or your dirty past, or your weight, or that fake...

[sorimxlee]

when i was overwhelmed with the world..........God reminded me....that I am loved no matter what. Thank you Lord for the reminder..which I need like..everyday haha 

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when my heart was filled with doubts and anxieties...

Time to time God makes things so clear for us to see because we are constantly knocking at his door...but usually, God makes things clear just because he is God. one of the many attributes of God that I experience literally everyday is His grace. the funny thing is that I experience it everyday but I forget it by the end of each day. Today, God showed grace upon me once again, when I was making my problems bigger than him and when I prioritized myself before Him. I think there is a greater chance of me remembering this moment now since i'm writing about it. I want to cherish each moment God touched my heart. maybe i won't be able to remember everything but this can be my first step. 

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To my Lord and my Savior...

past couple of weeks I haven't been the best daughter...I was so busy with so many other things that I neglected His words. The cool thing is that I do this ALL the time, but God reaches out to me ALL the time. He's the one that's committed to this relationship. He's the one that tries in this relationship. He's the one that shows unconditional love. what am i doing? constantly running away from him. Then coming back to him to repent. However, God still loves me unconditionally. haha say what? 

After my surgery, I finally had the chance to open up my bible to Ezra 1:1-11. Before reading, I asked God to give me the desire to want to forgive certain people in my life. It is so hard for me to forgive certain people. However, God has been telling me to forgive and be merciful through sermons, friends and daily bible verse. He loves me THAT much to reach out to me through so many different options to tell me that -_-.  and of course Ezra was about God moving Cyrus's heart to fulfill his will. Through this chapter I learned God is a promise keeper and he's almighty but is gentle at the same time. He reassured me if i'm not ready to forgive them it's okay. because he IS patient. However, God did asked me to give him my heart. completely. not just part of it but every single part of my heart. even the broken sides, scratched up sides..even the parts where there are scars everywhere. He wants it.

Trusting in HIS characters and HIS promises..knowing that HE is merciful/gracious/loving/just/powerful God...and that he keeps his promises..May God use my heart to whatever pleases him. Lord here is my heart, move it to wherever pleases You. 

[sorimxlee]

Being a youth group counselor ...

This is my first year being a youth group counselor...Funny how I became one this year. ever since I was in high school I've always wanted to be a counselor for the girls. I think it's because my girl counselor back then made a huge impact in my life.I thought about joining youth group when i first got saved, but somehow God lead me to children ministry first. I served there for 2 years, and now God is leading me to youth group. 

being a prideful person that i am, I didn't really think too much about being a counselor. "oh it's just gonna take a lot of energy." I also had a debate with my brother about whether or not the counselor has to be saved in order to teach the kids. My brother thinks so, but I thought even counselors can get saved through being counselors. I honestly didnt' want to limit God. However, my brother told me how serious false teaching is. I just came back from a retreat, and God definitely humbled me.

There are certain things that I realized through this retreat:

counselors intercede for the kids- counselors are constantly praying for the kids. we have to keep praying for their salvations and pray on their behalves as well. I barely had time to pray for my needs.

counselors have the most opportunity to share the gospel- if you don't know the gospel yourself, this is impossible.

counselors have to be abiding in God's words- kids asked me so many questions and if I didn't abide in God's words, this would've been impossible or this would've been out of my own wisdom.   

counselors have to be careful with what they say and post up on facebook/tumblr/instagram- they look up to you, and not that you have to be fake but you have to discern so that you won't hinder anyone. 

counselors have to be consistent- if it's a one time thing, then i shouldn't even think about it. kids will get hurt if i make them open up to me and just let them be. 

now that Im REALLY officially starting the youth group, God please forgive this prideful girl right here and lead the way!! 

[sorimxlee]

GO..TELL..

"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.."

-Matthew 28:19-

"Tell the whole community of Israel that on the tenth day of this month each man is to take a lamb[a] for his family, one for each household"

-Exodus 12:3-

As i was doing my qt today it dawned on me how common it is to see the words TELL and GO in the bible. He tells Abraham to pack up all his things and GO to the land He was going to show. God tells Moses to GO back to Egypt to lead his people out of there to the promise land. He gave directions to certain people so they could go as an intermediator for God and the people.  there were many prophets in the bible God used to tell the messages to his people.Our ultimate intermediator and savior, Jesus Christ was told by God to GO down and save His people from His wrath.  sooo much mercy right here O.O

now..as His child, what am i doing? God has specifically told me in the bible to go and share the gospel. God always wants us to GO AND SHARE our experiences, our struggles, our thoughts with others. we might not be called to go and rescue people from North Korea or Afghanistan, or to go on mission trips outside of the USA..but we are definitely called to go out and share what God wants his people to see!! 

LETS GO!! AND LETS TELL!!

[sorimxlee]

when we are secure in His love...

I've been reading psalms here and there lately and man yes you do learn more and more about God...but you also learn more and more about David's prayers and his characteristics. I always knew that David was a man after Gods own heart. but through reading psalms i've gotten to know how David was a man after Gods own heart and why he was known for that. so many of his prayers were so fearless...

"Search me, God, and know my heart;    test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me,     and lead me in the way everlasting."

                              -Psalm 139:23-24-

"if I have repaid my ally with evil     or without cause have robbed my foe—  then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;     let him trample my life to the ground     and make me sleep in the dust."

                           - Psalms 7:4-5-

He prays for God's justice..not just on his enemies but on himself as well.when i first read this, I was thinking--oh man this is a hard prayer for me. I don't want God to search too deep into my heart because I know that my intentions can be bad and i know how sinnful i can be. GOOD FOR YOU DAVID. 

but then, my pastor reminded all of us today how David was able to pray all these prayers because he was secure in God's love. He was so sure that he was loved by God and was able to pray all these "scary" things.  Never thought about it like that. there is difference between fearing God and being scared of God... 

lets be secure in his love susan :) 

[sorimxlee]

SEEK GOD OF GRACE NOT GRACE OF GOD

[sorimxlee]

i wonder....

i wonder if Puerta Peru found more leaders to send out to other villages

i wonder how big the baby is now...if he's able to talk and walk 

i wonder how my boyfriends are doing..if they are walking and abiding in the Lord...

i wonder how the baby mama is doing, the last time i saw her she was pregnant again...

i wonder how Angi is doing...she's probably almost 10 now.

i wonder how God is working in the catholic school we visited...

i wonder how the las vegas church is going...the last time we visited, it was building...

i wonder how the church that we laid the foundation is doing...

this year, God closed the door on me for missions. I physically can't go this year due to my foot pain that came to be randomly. God is funny because back in 2011 i hated the thought of going on missions and felt forced to go  that year because every time i prayed he kept telling me to go. But ever since then, i look forward to going on missions. I loved seeing the connection that was created through Christ. because of his death and resurrection, we became brothers and sisters. No matter how different we are, Christ brings us together. but...God is telling me to stay in MD this year. what is it Lord? what is it that you want me to see/do here? 

sigh all i can do is pray :) 

i can't wait till we all go to heaven and see each other again. because then, nothing would separate us! till then I shall pray and seek HIM!! 

[sorimxlee]

Quiet time....

when you think of  your quiet time with God...what do you think of? 

for me I express myself the most and the best through dancing. when things get crazy and i get frustrated i just go to my basement and do bodyworships that I know. Of course I read his words and pray to him during my quiet time.but time to time, when words can't express how i feel, i let my body talk. I'm not the best dancer in the world, but I definitely do love dancing. It calms me down, and it helps me to worship him without thinking so much. 

I dont' think quiet time is limited to always reading and praying. It's about how you spend your time with God and how you get to know Him. Of course reading and praying are important but time to time we all need something else when we get stuck. For me, that something else is dancing. PTL for giving us different ways to worship him and spend time with him. 

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[sorimxlee]

Perfection of God is unchanging...

Promises of God are unchanging...

Purposes of God are unchanging...

Plans of God are unfolding...

God created prayers for us to not just watch history but to shape history. God wills to work through willing intercessors, who plead for God’s glory to fill the earth.

He wants us to be part of His unfolding plan through prayers!

-David Platt- 

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“In the morning, O Lord, You hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before You and wait in expectation” (Psalm 5:3, NIV).

In the Bible, David was called a man after God’s own heart. He knew God and saw incredible miracles throughout his life. But notice in this verse what David did. He set the tone for His whole day by spending time with the Lord every morning. It didn’t matter what was going on his life, David had his priorities set. Even though he was mistreated by his family, manipulated, made fun of, hunted down by King Saul, and even made some major mistakes on his own, David realized that each morning held the promise of new hope.

Just like David, if you’ll make spending time with God a priority in your life, you will see Him move mightily on your behalf. Make it a habit to seek Him first every single day. No matter what is happening, seek Him in the morning. Let Him set the tone for your day and set you on the course for victory in every area of your life!

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"The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." (1 Samuel 16:7, NIV)

Your Creator can see things in you that other people cannot see. Sometimes people will try to push you down or make you feel insignificant. Sometimes our own thoughts will try to convince us that we don’t measure up. But God looks beyond the surface, beyond the mistakes you’ve made, beyond what somebody said about you and sees your incredible value. You may think, “ I’ve messed up. I have blown it. I have failed. I’m all washed up.” No, God still sees more in you. God doesn’t just see what you are; He sees what you can become. You may have made some mistakes, but God still sees victory on the inside of you. People may have tried to push you down, but God sees you rising higher.

Now, you’ve got to do your part and get rid of those condemning thoughts. Get rid of what somebody has spoken over you and start renewing your mind. Down deep, start believing that you are redeemed, restored, talented and valuable. Even if you have made mistakes, believe that there is more in store. God’s not finished with you. He looks beyond the surface and sees your potential. Stay in step with Him and watch His plan for your life unfold.

A Prayer for Today

Father, thank You for looking beyond the surface and seeing the real me. Thank You for placing Your potential on the inside of me. Help me to know You more and see You more clearly so I can follow Your ways all the days of my life in Jesus’ name. Amen.

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“Is any thing too hard for the LORD? …” (Genesis 18:14, KJV)

In Genesis, God promised Sarah that she was going to have a child. At first she didn’t believe it. She thought she was too old. She thought her time had passed. But do you know what God said to her? He simply asked, “Sarah, is there anything too hard for the Lord?” I believe God is saying the same thing to us today. “Is there anything too hard for Me?”

Do you think your dreams are too big for God to bring to pass? Do you think that a relationship is too far gone for God to restore it? Do you think you have to just live with sickness the rest of your life? Get a new vision today because there is nothing too hard for God! God is saying today, “I am all-powerful. I can turn any situation around.” It doesn’t matter what things look like in the natural, we serve a supernatural God. The Amplified version puts it this way, “Is there anything too wonderful for the Lord?”

The next time you think, “That’s just too good to be true,” remember, God wants to bless you beyond your wildest dreams. Take the limits off and dare to believe that He has wonderful things in store for you!