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[sorryslobby]

Title, if you want one.

It was 8:30 pm all the kids in the nebiorhood had just got on the bus.

I was out for smokes and coffee a young lady walking her dog by me says good morning and I say it back then she asks how are you? I look at her and she's grinning under her bangs petting her dog. I don't respond I'm shocked, stuck in a question leaving a pretty girl ignored even tho I wanted to say good how are you but I don't think about it.

I think how I don't remember the last time a stranger has asked me how I was let alone a girl, a nice one at that but it doesn't matter

It never does

[sorryslobby]

In the depth of darkness you find a different shade of black. It’s when you travel threw tunnels for a mile do you find the light to be forgiving of everything you thought.

[sorryslobby]

Never be hopeful or hopeless be graceful threw this life

My cat.

[sorryslobby]

Yes I found out the truth and it didn't kill me.

I found out the truth it didn't kill me or make me stronger, It made me hide bottles of booze under the sink like my father used to. chain smoke cigs and cry every chance I get, even if it's only for a second.

[sorryslobby]

Dirge is a fright liner.

Holding onto the side of the story that hurt you Detached from any emotion that doesn't involve you I held the same hand that you call death Now it only seeks out my grasp when I don't ask for it

[sorryslobby]

Love the wind.

My heart doesn't lead me down the same path, doesn't hold doors open or look people in the eye. My heart hides waiting to give.

[sorryslobby]

Hours to go and all I can think of is home.

Three years and another life play out as I try to act like I'm the same.

[sorryslobby]

All I have is time

This was your demon and I only feed it, never bet that it would rest under my bed no matter where I left it.

[sorryslobby]

Acadia national park

There's always a soft song playing in my head inviting me to do things that I tell myself I can't.

[sorryslobby]

No more.

It’s lost, I mean gone. Where? I don’t know and I don’t really think about if it found a place.

[sorryslobby]

The asshole I lost, the only one that could read my writing.

I still think I can drink beyond my age, still huff down smokes in a closed room. Stay quiet and only laugh in my head. Still believe I'll be alone and I never left home.

[sorryslobby]

The situation we're in doesn't matter

I can still see your face and it'll feel cheap but I love it. We'll get our shit together one day. Until then let's endlessly write what we can't say. We'll find truth and hope in our conversations and rarely a lie and if there is one it's only for good health.

[sorryslobby]

I've lost touch with me and that's just fine

The whiskey speaks for me while the smoke lingers on listening to everything and gently vanishing. The trouble in speaking is not trying to be humble.

[sorryslobby]

I can't help unexpected things and I can't wait expecting things to come

They used to find me in darkness, quietly sleeping threw the day.

They’d open the curtains and crack open the window from the smell of stale smoke and the stench from the liqueur I had been drinking from night till morning.

[sorryslobby]

The only coward

Soft screams, silently waiting for a phone to answer. It keeps ringing. what I thought was important drifts and I only remember what I had to scream, but I know I wouldn't scream given the chance.

[sorryslobby]

A face that looks sadder then yours

There was a phone call that showed a face that, that I’d hope to forget, but it still was. I held a conversation with questions filled with answered thoughts, That weren’t to far from the truth.

[sorryslobby]

I've grown scared of noises. I sit in Silence, I know I shouldn't be afraid of being alone but there's just something.

It's soft, and I feel alright I never thought I'd see the night time again closing in on me, and I forgot how to breath but I'm standing here gasping for air silently, No I've never been this nervous but I've never been this alone.