REJUVINATION

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In all honesty it feels heavy announcing this because I never really saw it as something I’d be doing until further down the road. But, I’m done with tumblr roleplay. It’s been fun–it has, but with all of the the things that have happened in the community over the past few months and the things I’ve seen, the community is not a place that is healthy for me. I’ve slowly been drawing away more and more and distancing myself. Though I don’t want to go, exactly, this newly found distance has shown me just how negative of a place this is for me and how it’s not doing anything for me except stressing me out and only furthering a lot of bad stuff I have going on, mentally.

Not everyone in the community is awful and negative and I’ve met so many amazing people, but with how things stand right now, I don’t feel comfortable being here and the distance has shown me it is not healthy for me to be here. Tumblr roleplay used to be something that got me excited, but now it just honest to god exhausts me. I don’t know if or when I’m going back, or if I’ll be returning to this muse in particular, only time will tell, but as long as there are things about my life I need to get together, I know for sure tumblr isn’t going to help me mentally and give me the energy I need to do to heal and persevere.

And, like I said, this isn’t even my followers–I’ve met so many wonderful people–it’s the negative things I have to see day to day here that don’t help me. I know it sounds kind of weird to be so stressed out by a website, but this community has really had adverse effects on my mental health and I refuse to let it ruin me more than it already has.

I’m sorry if that sounds selfish, but I have to leave for my well-being.

I made a new Dis.cord. If you want to keep in contact; message me privately and I’ll give it to you! 

But, for now, this is good-bye.

[humanprayers-archive-deactivate]

In all honesty it feels heavy announcing this because I never really saw it as something I’d be doing until further down the road. But, I’m done with tumblr roleplay. It’s been fun–it has, but with all of the the things that have happened in the community over the past few months and the things I’ve seen, the community is not a place that is healthy for me. I’ve slowly been drawing away more and more and distancing myself. Though I don’t want to go, exactly, this newly found distance has shown me just how negative of a place this is for me and how it’s not doing anything for me except stressing me out and only furthering a lot of bad stuff I have going on, mentally.

Not everyone in the community is awful and negative and I’ve met so many amazing people, but with how things stand right now, I don’t feel comfortable being here and the distance has shown me it is not healthy for me to be here. Tumblr roleplay used to be something that got me excited, but now it just honest to god exhausts me. I don’t know if or when I’m going back, or if I’ll be returning to this muse in particular, only time will tell, but as long as there are things about my life I need to get together, I know for sure tumblr isn’t going to help me mentally and give me the energy I need to do to heal and persevere.

And, like I said, this isn’t even my followers–I’ve met so many wonderful people–it’s the negative things I have to see day to day here that don’t help me. I know it sounds kind of weird to be so stressed out by a website, but this community has really had adverse effects on my mental health and I refuse to let it ruin me more than it already has.

I’m sorry if that sounds selfish, but I have to leave for my well-being.

I made a new Dis.cord. If you want to keep in contact; message me privately and I’ll give it to you! 

But, for now, this is good-bye.

[humanprayers-archive-deactivate]

In all honesty it feels heavy announcing this because I never really saw it as something I’d be doing until further down the road. But, I’m done with tumblr roleplay. It’s been fun–it has, but with all of the the things that have happened in the community over the past few months and the things I’ve seen, the community is not a place that is healthy for me. I’ve slowly been drawing away more and more and distancing myself. Though I don’t want to go, exactly, this newly found distance has shown me just how negative of a place this is for me and how it’s not doing anything for me except stressing me out and only furthering a lot of bad stuff I have going on, mentally.

Not everyone in the community is awful and negative and I’ve met so many amazing people, but with how things stand right now, I don’t feel comfortable being here and the distance has shown me it is not healthy for me to be here. Tumblr roleplay used to be something that got me excited, but now it just honest to god exhausts me. I don’t know if or when I’m going back, or if I’ll be returning to this muse in particular, only time will tell, but as long as there are things about my life I need to get together, I know for sure tumblr isn’t going to help me mentally and give me the energy I need to do to heal and persevere.

And, like I said, this isn’t even my followers–I’ve met so many wonderful people–it’s the negative things I have to see day to day here that don’t help me. I know it sounds kind of weird to be so stressed out by a website, but this community has really had adverse effects on my mental health and I refuse to let it ruin me more than it already has.

I’m sorry if that sounds selfish, but I have to leave for my well-being.

I made a new Dis.cord. If you want to keep in contact; message me privately and I’ll give it to you! 

But, for now, this is good-bye.

[humanprayers-archive-deactivate]

In all honesty it feels heavy announcing this because I never really saw it as something I’d be doing until further down the road. But, I’m done with tumblr roleplay. It’s been fun–it has, but with all of the the things that have happened in the community over the past few months and the things I’ve seen, the community is not a place that is healthy for me. I’ve slowly been drawing away more and more and distancing myself. Though I don’t want to go, exactly, this newly found distance has shown me just how negative of a place this is for me and how it’s not doing anything for me except stressing me out and only furthering a lot of bad stuff I have going on, mentally.

Not everyone in the community is awful and negative and I’ve met so many amazing people, but with how things stand right now, I don’t feel comfortable being here and the distance has shown me it is not healthy for me to be here. Tumblr roleplay used to be something that got me excited, but now it just honest to god exhausts me. I don’t know if or when I’m going back, or if I’ll be returning to this muse in particular, only time will tell, but as long as there are things about my life I need to get together, I know for sure tumblr isn’t going to help me mentally and give me the energy I need to do to heal and persevere.

And, like I said, this isn’t even my followers–I’ve met so many wonderful people–it’s the negative things I have to see day to day here that don’t help me. I know it sounds kind of weird to be so stressed out by a website, but this community has really had adverse effects on my mental health and I refuse to let it ruin me more than it already has.

I’m sorry if that sounds selfish, but I have to leave for my well-being.

I made a new Dis.cord. If you want to keep in contact; message me privately and I’ll give it to you! 

But, for now, this is good-bye.

[humanprayers-archive-deactivate]

In all honesty it feels heavy announcing this because I never really saw it as something I’d be doing until further down the road. But, I’m done with tumblr roleplay. It’s been fun–it has, but with all of the the things that have happened in the community over the past few months and the things I’ve seen, the community is not a place that is healthy for me. I’ve slowly been drawing away more and more and distancing myself. Though I don’t want to go, exactly, this newly found distance has shown me just how negative of a place this is for me and how it’s not doing anything for me except stressing me out and only furthering a lot of bad stuff I have going on, mentally.

Not everyone in the community is awful and negative and I’ve met so many amazing people, but with how things stand right now, I don’t feel comfortable being here and the distance has shown me it is not healthy for me to be here. Tumblr roleplay used to be something that got me excited, but now it just honest to god exhausts me. I don’t know if or when I’m going back, or if I’ll be returning to this muse in particular, only time will tell, but as long as there are things about my life I need to get together, I know for sure tumblr isn’t going to help me mentally and give me the energy I need to do to heal and persevere.

And, like I said, this isn’t even my followers–I’ve met so many wonderful people–it’s the negative things I have to see day to day here that don’t help me. I know it sounds kind of weird to be so stressed out by a website, but this community has really had adverse effects on my mental health and I refuse to let it ruin me more than it already has.

I’m sorry if that sounds selfish, but I have to leave for my well-being.

I made a new Dis.cord. If you want to keep in contact; message me privately and I’ll give it to you! 

But, for now, this is good-bye.

[soughtdawn-blog]

❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞

( this was a meme // closed )

Truly? Shiro hesitated, lips parted as if he intended some semblance of a reply. He inhaled, smiling tightly, a bit of nervousness twitching at the corners of such. How odd that he would say such a thing, what with Shiro’s most horrid habit of night terrors, awaking his master in the dead of the night, the old soldier inconsolable as he cried out names that, of course, the albino would have no way of knowing, nor divining who such people had been. The surprise acrost Shiro’s features was evident, something unguarded and vulnerable in the gesture. Accept the compliment, his mind instructed him, to refute it was to indicate that a certain part of him retained a degree of disdain for himself. He laughed, perhaps too tightly to be genuine, head shaking in the slightest. Shiro lowered his own shoulders, uncrossing his arms, as if looking for less tense posture. He cared for his master, he did, perhaps more than he had any right to, yet the mere notion of damning him to whatever personal hell Shiro had gotten himself within was disgusting. Let him destroy himself and bring not another into the proverbial equation. ❝ ... thank you. I’m glad I’ve met you too. It’s been... interesting, to say the least. I can’t imagine learning magic from anyone else. ❞

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i may be slow af but im doing my best

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steals one of his shirts

❝ It looks good on you. ❞ Of course, it draped over Lucio most comically, what with Shiro’s superior height and bulky physique, yet even at how it hung from the other’s frame in most comical folds, Shiro found it incredibly charming. Smiling around Lucio came naturally, even if he never quite meant to smile so broadly. It was second nature whilst in his company, really, something about his demeanor and Shiro’s own sentiments leaving flowers to bloom within his chest. Where one would have expected suffocation, Shiro found only contentment, as if pleased that he was not so damaged that he could not love properly. ❝ You don’t have to steal things from me, though. I’d give you any shirt or sweater you want. ❞ There was more Shiro was willing to give, so much more that should it have been said aloud, one would have laughed; instant memories of old poets writing their hearts onto paper surfacing. 

Shiro found himself carefully lifting Lucio bridal style before seating himself, Lucio soon placed atop his lap. ❝ It really does look good, though. You wear it better than I ever could. ❞

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just sleeps in here on him.

Shiro did not move her from her position, nor did he rise to permit her fall onto the nearest surface. In fact, he stood nearly perfectly still with a soldier’s immaculate posture, so as to not disturb her rest. The cosmos knew that most needed their rest, their world one of motion and disquiet. For such moments of respite, there was no price, no equal, even should one’s own weight in gold been offered as price. Nothing could compare with a peace of mind, though many would refute such. It was in quiet contemplation he wondered if her sleep was dreamless and in a similar vein, he tried to remember what comforting, dreamless sleep was like. It would do him no good, however, to think of it. Carefully, he shifted his datapad upon his lap, tilting the screen to read it better. Where had he left off before she had fallen asleep on him? He might as well encounter productivity, gaining the impression that he would be seated there for a while.

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❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞

( this was a meme // closed )

❝ You’re right, not all good people are innocent. But just because someone is good doesn’t mean they can’t make mistakes. We all make mistakes, Keith. Human or alien, we’re still people and people are never perfect--it’s why we have to strive to become more than what we are and learn from our mistakes. If we let them define us, we can’t move forward. ❞ He said good as would any other person, yet it weighed heavily upon his tongue, for he had passed judgment unto himself. Good--good they called Shiro. Shiro with his metallic arm, his atrocities. 

He was not innocent, he had not been some idle bystander to his own actions, even if they had been forced. Shiro had killed many within the arena, no innocence in the gesture, only silent prayers as he ran someone through with whatever weapon his captors had decided they should like to see him use. Shiro was good, yet he was not innocence, and even then he was still weighing the word “good” upon his own tongue--if such was even applicable to him despite his penance. 

Perhaps part of leading was atonement, to set into motion a better universe where no others should experience the overwhelming sorrow life had burdened him with. It was impossible to catch wind of his tempestuous thoughts, however, for as he spoke unto the other, his tone was level, nothing betrayed. Lips twisted into a kindly smile, always glad to impart whatever wisdom he could unto Keith. 

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anyways uh!! formal apology for lack of activity across all blogs. it’s been very rough mental health wise (as i’ve previously mentioned), and i have a lot going on in real life that it has a great toll that just doesn’t leave me with a lot of inclinations to rp. i’ll do my best to get on here!! but it will be very inconsistent. i won’t go into the details of my mental health rn bc i don’t feel comfortable, but days of absence will be common. it’s not blog abandonment but i can’t always be on here stressing myself out over tumblr

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Gonna try and get on this evening!! Sorry about the lack of activity my mental health has been a little rocky over the last few days

[tullipsink]

There was nothing poetic about the pain I felt. It was crying my eyes out at two in the morning and clutching at my chest as I tried to regain my breath because if I let go, I was scared I’d fall apart.

A.M.// sleepless nights again (via tullipsink)

[theclassicsreader]

…my heartbeat boomed like a dull motor in my ears. I am I am I am.

Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via theclassicsreader)

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cries i missed u

!!!! uhm??? grabs ur hands!! i missed u too ilu

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i fell asleep how we doin

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