Deviant Leader

indie pacifist Markus rp. highly selective. about / rules (mobile under con.) really just here to write.

[memesomething]

Questioning Minds meme

for muses who notice & ask questions about it. some of these are statements more than questions - but they’re still asking about something, so they are on the list. have fun!

“How long have you had this?”

“Have you ever thought maybe you didn’t want to…?”

“What do you like about it?”

“You don’t ask for a lot.”

“Did you ever…?”

“What is it about that [item/place]?”

“You’re not surprised.”

“Where did you get that scar?”

“You know more about this than I do.”

“Are you afraid of it?”

“Can I help?”

“What made you do it?”

“What were you thinking?”

“They have a much different impression of you than I do.”

“Why are you here?”

“What was your mother/father/childhood like?”

“This isn’t the first time this has happened.”

“When you had [experience]… what was that like for you?”

“What was your first impression of me?”

“Did you ever think we’d end up like this?”

“How’s your breathing?”

“Are you thinking of doing [x] again?”

“Do you need me to come home?”

“I love you.” (oh boy, when this is a question, not a statement.)

“Did you ever speak to someone about it?”

[bookofoctober-deactivated201908]

[soulprompts]

𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

basically i was looking over the protective prompts and the hero prompts and it hit me that like. the unbridled angst and vibes of the whole “post-battle” scene, or a scene set after an attack or a disaster or smth, needs to be ADDRESSED!!! and so y’all get the full weight of my angst today, sprinkled with a lot of teamwork and selfless and sacrificing vibes. i hope you enjoy! do NOT add further contributions to this list!!! i will curse your potato crops!!!

DIALOGUE PROMPTS.

“ can you hear me? hey… [NAME], can you hear my voice? “

“ come on… wake up. please… please wake up… “

“ oh! oh, thank god! i thought we lost you… “

“ hey, hey… look at me, okay? you gotta get up now. you think you might be able to walk? ‘cause they sent for back-up, and if they find us… we cannot let them find us. understand? “

“ go, go! save yourself! i’ll buy you some time! “

“ we both know i’m not walking out of this one. it’s okay, alright? it’s okay… just… do me a favor, will you? will you make them pay for this? i don’t care how. but… don’t let them get away with it. “

“ hey, how badly are you hurt? can you move? you think you can walk? “

“ if you can’t walk, i’m gonna have to carry you, alright? we can’t stay here. “

“ hey, look at me. i’m slowing you down, we both know it. it’s okay. i’ll hide and wait for back-up; you get yourself out of here. “

“ you’re gonna need to climb up on my back, you’re slowing us down with that injury. “

“ will you quit talking like that?! i’m not leaving you behind! “

“ what the hell are you doing here?! i told you to get out of here! “

“ you’re shivering… hey. hey, listen to me, okay? everything’s gonna be alright, i promise. here… take my jacket. don’t worry, i’m warm-blooded. “

“ i’ll get blood on your shirt… “

“ hey, don’t you dare close your eyes, you hear me? you die in my arms, and i’m gonna stick the dry-cleaning bill for this shirt in your coffin, that’s a promise! “

“ i know we almost died just now, but… am i the only one who’s hungry? “

“ we need to get you to a hospital… “

“ hey, come on now… you’re okay. you’re good, right? “

“ i must be hurt pretty bad if you’re being this nice to me. “

“ quit playing the martyr. we’re not leaving you behind. “

“ you know, i hate to be the negative voice, but… did… did we just lose? “

“ look at me… i’m not gonna make it. it’s okay, i’m fine with that. but… you can’t stay here. you’ve got a good long life ahead of you. and you’re smart, too; too smart to wait around here and waste that long life. so you get out of here, and you go live that life. live it for both of us. will you promise me you’ll do that? “

“ back-up isn’t coming. is it? we’re on our own, right? “

“ can’t sleep, huh? it’s okay. it’s probably all that adrenaline and shock; i can’t sleep, either. wanna keep each other company? “

“ i don’t give two shits about the back-up; i’m just happy you’re alive. “

ACTION PROMPTS.

as always, add a “+ REVERSE” to switch the roles!

[ CARRY ]:     having found the receiver in an injured/weak/unconscious state, the sender carries them in their arms to safety.

[ TILT ]:     the sender gently tilts the receiver’s chin up so that they can check to see if they’re okay.

[ PULL ]:     sender takes the fallen receiver’s hands and carefully pulls them up so that they’re standing once more.

[ WAIST ]:     sender, while physically supporting and steadying the receiver, loops an arm around their waist for extra support.

[ BACK ]:     sender crouches down slightly to let the wounded receiver climb on their back, giving them a piggy-back ride to safety afterwards.

[ HAIR ]:     while in the process of checking the receiver for injuries or other signs of harm, the sender gently brushes several strands of hair from their eyes.

[ TEND ]:     sender begins to care for the receiver’s injuries.

[ LEAN ]:     the wounded sender leans against the receiver for physical support.

[ SUPPORT ]:     the sender encourages the wounded receiver to lean against them for physical support.

[ PUSH ]:     the sender gently pushes the receiver back to lie down so they can check them properly for injuries.

[ COAT ]:     sender removes their jacket and drapes it around the shoulders of the trembling receiver.

[ BLANKET ]:     just as they’re all about to go to sleep, the sender covers the receiver with their own blanket.

[ AWAKE ]:     the sender, unable to sleep, gets up to go for a walk, and finds that the receiver is also unable to sleep.

[ TOGETHER ]:     when the receiver awakens, they discover that the sender has been sleeping next to them, arms wrapped around one another for warmth, comfort, protection ( or something more… )

[ BANDAGE ]:     the sender sits down across from the receiver and begins to bandage their wounds.

[ DRAG ]:     unable to leave them behind, the sender drags the wounded receiver out of danger and into a safe hiding place for both of them to wait until help arrives.

[ TOUCH ]:     the sender nudges or touches the receiver to check and see if they’re alright after the attack.

[ CLEAN ]:     the sender gently and carefully begins to bathe the blood/soot/ash/dirt from the receiver’s skin during a moment of calm.

[ PRIORITY ]:     when they arrive at a designated safe place, the sender refuses to be examined or cared for until the receiver is taken care of first.

[ PROMISE ]:     before leaving to get help/food/water/a rescue mission etc, the sender assures and promises the receiver that they’ll return safely, refusing to bring them along or to stay behind.

[ BROKEN ]:     after having promised the receiver that they’d return, it’s learned that the sender died during their mission. how does the receiver respond?

[ TRAPPED ]:     after having promised the receiver that they’d return from a mission, the receiver learns that the sender has been kidnapped or otherwise trapped, requiring a rescue mission to bring them home.

[ RESCUE ]:     the sender and receiver reunite after the sender embarked upon an infamously perilous rescue mission to save the receiver.

[ FOUND ]:     after a massive rescue mission to try and find the missing receiver, the sender is the first to find them just as the efforts are about to be abandoned.

[ HOPE ]:     just as the receiver is about to lose hope in ever finding the sender again, a message or clue of some kind is discovered that essentially guarantees that the sender is still alive, restoring the receiver’s hope once more.

[ CLING ]:     having finally been reunited, the sender pulls the receiver into a tight, overwhelmingly relieved embrace, clinging to them and burying their face in their shoulder. the whole deal. make it EMOTIONAL–

[ TEARS ]:     having finally found the receiver, or having finally been found by the receiver, the sender breaks down in tears of relief, fear, and many other emotions as they officially reunite.

[ SACRIFICE ]:     knowing that the circumstances only allow one of them to survive, the sender sacrifices their life in order to guarantee the receiver’s survival and safety.

[betrachtung]

my god, there is never any time to recover from the world

[soughtfreedcm]

PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER!

BIRTHDAY : sept 25 ZODIAC SIGN  : libra HEIGHT  : 5′11″ HOBBIES  : writing, journalling, gardening, patting cats, reading (esp non-fiction, these days) FAVOURITE COLOUR  : ppppurple? maybe FAVOURITE BOOKS  : the first book that got me into reading was Elsewhere, by Gabrielle Zevin. I started reading for fun pretty late, all things considered. it takes a lot of attention span and I’ve never had much of one LAST SONG LISTENED TO  : Perfect (Piano Version) - Daniele Leoni LAST FILM OR SHOW WATCHED  : i have been watching super, super, super mindless television recently. the target is background noise for my brain so i can Do Things without getting distracted and stopping - which is weird, but it’s how my brain works. All this to say, I’ve been going through The Simpsons again. not a good show, understand its issues, agree it’s not funny, but gosh is it good mindless television background noise that I do not have to focus on to be able to tune in and out of it smoothly. episodic television is an art form and i wish there were more noncontinuous things. thank you INSPIRATION FOR MUSE  : he’s who i would have written if I had written the first muse that made me think Ooooh from D:BH. Connor was actually a ... third ... choice (Carl) but he is very good and I love him very much. Markus is ... well, much more my speed in terms of charisma, warmth, the way he Expresses affection and thinks about things. Sometimes I think about parallels he has to the Doctor and it makes me sigh 😔 STORY BEHIND URL  :  i picked a URL and this was the URL I picked. that was how it worked

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[memesomething]

Bravery Sentence Starters

sentence starters for muses who do bravery very loudly. remember these sentences can be said to receiver’s muse or they can be said to a third party (a captor, another victim, etc!)

“Look at me! I’m scared, too. But we have to keep going.”

“We’ll do it together.”

“How do you just … speak back to him/her/them?”

“Getting yourself killed isn’t brave.”

“I don’t need you to protect me.”

“If you want him/her/them, you’re going to go through me.”

“You think you’re being brave?”

“We can get out of here or die trying. The way I see it, it’s a win-win.”

“You and me, we could do it, you know.”

“I need to know. If it hurts me, it hurts me, but I need to know.”

“I’m going to keep going.”

“I won’t stop.”

“We don’t deserve this. We deserve more.”

“I know we’re not meant to say, but… my name is [Name].”

“Take this. You need it more than I do.”

“Are you ready?”

“It’s one step at a time. We’re gonna make it.”

“Let’s do it before I change my mind.”

“Slowly, okay?”

“I need you to be brave with me.”

“I’m used to it. And I really shouldn’t be.”

“I’m willing to die for it.”

“You think I would betray him/her/them?”

“Staying alive is a type of bravery.”

“You didn’t have to be brave. It shouldn’t have happened anyway.” 

“Being brave won’t get us out of here, but it’s a start.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“Take my hand. We’ll be okay.”

“Close your eyes.”

“Trust me.”

“How long have you been living like this?”

“How is it brave to just disappear whenever they’re being cruel?”

“You’re being brave, now.”

“Being afraid doesn’t make you a bad person.” 

“I would have been scared, too.”

“That sounds scary.” 

“That was brave.”

[soughtfreedcm]

Did your Markus push Leo back or -? (Curious)

No, he didn't. He does not know what would have happened 'if' and doesn't spend a lot of time caught up in it, because the fact of the matter is that he didn't shove him back, he chose to not escalate and neither as a result of that nor because it was his fault, his father's life was cut short.

Was he 'wrong' to have let it happen? No. He was being shoved, not beaten, and Leo was high, edgy, and also (also) Carl's son. It was unfair. Personhood was not something Leo would have had the advantage of considering (the advantage of having-it-sat-in-front-of-him-to-look-at; people aren't bad people because they don't continuously think of & about social issues themselves) at that point because there really weren't conversations about Androids being people at that point, despite the way in which & the terms on which he had lived with Carl for several years. It was a series of shoves. Leo was high and he would have stopped and left, and if he hadn't then Markus would have escalated, but Leo would have stopped and left and neither one of them would have been hurt. Leo wasn't there to destroy anyone or anything. It was not fair, and asking ordering him not to defend himself definitely wasn't fair, but Markus did not shove him back and that wasn't a 'wrong' choice to have made.

Would he let it happen again, today? No, I don't think so.

Would he change how he acted? "It doesn't matter," he reiterates: "what's done is done. We still have tomorrow."

[felineverdures]

[soulprompts]

"𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥" 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘴.

i'm a sucker for that scene where one person is injured and alone and ends up knocking on another person's door in their hour of need, and i'm an even bigger sucker for the tending to the injuries and the quiet emotional content that follows, and i'm here to make it everyone else's problem! as always, to reverse the actions, just add "+ REVERSE" to the end!

from the injured.

" i didn't know where else to go... "

" whatever you've been told about me, whatever you've heard or seen or listened to... none of it's true. "

" at least i have you to look after me, eh? "

" would you believe me if i said i got all these injuries by slipping in the rain? "

" i'm sorry... i know this isn't what you signed up for. "

" you're the only one i can trust. "

" do you believe what they're saying about me? "

" aren't you going to say i told you so? "

" i am grateful, you know. for everything you've ever done for me... i notice. and i see you. and i've never thanked you properly before, so... thank you. "

" i know i must be the last person you expected to see tonight, but... i'm afraid i have nowhere else to turn to. "

" thank you for not asking questions. "

" i know you have no reason to believe me, much less to trust me, but... i promise you. i swear to you, i am being set up. "

" you know, you'd make a nice profit if you turned this place into a safehouse. "

" why are you helping me? "

" why the hell did you open your door for me if you're so angry at me?! "

to the injured.

" quickly, get in before anyone sees you... "

" you came to the right place. hurry, get in... "

" what the hell happened to you!? "

" are you going to tell me what happened to you tonight? "

" i assume that the rumors surrounding you are all false and unrelated to why you're bleeding out on my sofa? "

" do you honestly expect me to just forget about the past so i can bandage you up? "

" you don't need to thank me. you'd fix me up if i came to your door with this much trouble, too. "

" regardless of everything you've said and done in the past, there isn't a single part of me that wouldn't open the door when you're knocking on it. "

" we can talk in the morning. for now, you need to rest. "

" i found you unconscious on my doorstep. "

" oh, i get it. i can stitch you up and let you get blood all over my bed sheets until the cows come home, but heaven forbid i start to ask questions about why you're bleeding in the first place. "

" things must be really bad if you're trying to say i was your best chance at being helped. "

" don't be stupid. you're not going anywhere. come on, back into bed... "

" i called in sick. we have the whole day to figure out what your next moves are going to be. "

" good! you're awake. i was beginning to worry... "

" you're not allowed to die in my bedroom. the rumours would never stop... "

" perhaps we ought to let bygones be bygones. until i'm confident that you're not going to die on my sofa, that is. "

" it's a bit late to worry about dragging me into your mess, don't you think? "

" you know why i opened that door... "

ACTIONS.

[ BANDAGE ]: sender gently begins to bandage receiver's wounds.

[ BED ]: sender guides receiver into bed, tucking them in and taking a seat by their bedside.

[ FEVER ]: having noticed the receiver beginning to spike a fever, sender presses a cool cloth to their forehead to try and bring it down.

[ CLOTHES ]: after tending to the receiver's wounds, sender brings them fresh clean clothes to change into.

[ FOOD ]: after ensuring the receiver is safe and stable, sender brings them out a plate of food.

[ BATH ]: sender runs the recently-cared-for receiver a hot bath.

[ WAIT ]: aftering tending to the receiver's injuries, sender takes a seat across for them, and patiently waits for them to start explaining what happened.

[ CATCH ]: noticing the receiver beginning to collapse on their doorstep, sender hastily catches them and brings them inside.

[ KISS ]: sender, after being cared for by the receiver, breaks the tension that's been building since they walked through the door, and pulls them in for a kiss.

[ HOLD ]: having been bandaged and cared for by the receiver, sender unexpectedly reaches out to take their hand and hold it in a quiet, sincere gesture of gratitude.

[my-name-is-markus-with-a-k]

[soughtfreedcm]

hello hi the words ‘rising calm’ to talk about the way Markus can raise his voice over calamity and use the strength of it to bring calm. the opposite of rising panic, the cadence and charisma of rising calm. thank you 

[soughtfreedcm]

a thought: how many androids would have personally volunteered their lives so that Markus could harvest his life from them in the mass grave. if they had known ‘who’. if they had known what he would do. (how many androids who died had the forethought to be scared of parts-farmers? how many of them who lived their final moments discarded in a narrow walkway between piles of bodies - how many of them were trying to get away, get somewhere they could not be taken apart?) 

[littlelovelymemes]

✰  THE ‘ WE’RE ALL STILL EMO AF ‘ LYRIC STARTERS

FALL OUT BOY 

‘  am i more than you bargained for yet?  ’ ‘  cause that’s just who i am this week.  ’ ‘  isn’t it messed up how i’m just dying to be him?  ’ ‘  i confess, i messed up.  ’ ‘  i don’t blame you for being you, but you can’t blame me for hating it.  ’ ‘  darling, what did you expect?  ’ ‘  i could have died with you.  ’ ‘  let’s play this came called ‘when you catch fire i wouldn’t piss to put you out.’  ’ ‘  breaking hearts has never looked so cool.  ’ ‘  you were the last good thing about this part of town.  ’ ‘  i’m not a shoulder to cry on, but i digress.  ’ ‘  i wrote the gospel on giving up.  ’ ‘  joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of best friends.  ’ ‘  my back is breaking from this heavy heart.  ’ ‘  thanks for the memories even though they weren’t so great.  ’ ‘  see, he tastes like you, only sweeter.  ’ ‘  get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes.  ’ ‘  i’m a liner away from getting you into the mood.  ’ ‘  last year’s wishes are this years apologies.  ’ ‘  we’re the new face of failure. prettier and younger, but not any better off.  ’

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

‘  what’s the worst that i can say?  ’ ‘  things are better if i stay.  ’ ‘  so long and goodnight.  ’ ‘  and then we’ll meet again when both our cars collide.  ’ ‘  never think i’ll make you try to stay.  ’ ‘  i don’t love you like i did yesterday.  ’ ‘  fix your eyes and get up.  ’ ‘  i never said i’d lie and wait forever.  ’ ‘  you are never coming home.  ’ ‘  if you wanted honesty that’s all you had to say.  ’ ‘  i never want to let you down or have you go.  ’ ‘  i’m not okay.  ’ ‘  for the last time, take a good hard look.  ’ ‘  when i was a young boy my father took me into the city to see a marching band.  ’ ‘  we’ll carry on.  ’ ‘  your misery and hate will kill us all.  ’ ‘  the world will never take my heart.  ’ ‘  go and try, you’ll never break me.  ’ ‘  give a cheer for the broken.  ’ ‘  teenagers scare the living shit out of me.  ’ ‘  you’re never gonna fit in much, kid.  ’

TAKING BACK SUNDAY 

‘  can’t you just forget it?  ’ ‘  i started something i couldn’t finish.  ’ ‘  if we go down, we go down together.  ’ ‘  everything i know about breaking hearts i learned from you.  ’ ‘  i’ve made long term plans based on these mistakes.  ’ ‘  don’t let it get to your head.  ’ ‘  boys like you are a dime a dozen.  ’ ‘  you’re a touch overrated.  ’ ‘  you’e a lush and i hate it.  ’ ‘  all i need to know is that i’m something you’ll be missing.  ’ ‘  maybe i should hate you for this.  ’ ‘  i’d never lie to you unless i had to.  ’ ‘  the truth is that you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath, i’d apologize for bleeding on your shirt.  ’ ‘  you are everything i want cause you are everything i’m not.  ’ ‘  i just wanna break you down so badly in the worst way.  ’ ‘  i’m gonna make damn sure that you can’t ever leave.  ’ ‘  you won’t ever get too far from me.  ’ ‘  your lipstick, his collar… don’t bother, angel. i know exactly what goes on.  ’ ‘  will you tell all your friends you’ve got your gun to my head?  ’ ‘  that all was only wishful thinking.  ’

PANIC AT THE DISCO

‘  am i who you think about in bed?  ’ ‘  i’ve got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck.  ’ ‘  sweetie, you had me.  ’ ‘  no, no, no, you know it will always be me.  ’ ‘  i hope you didn’t expect to get all of the attention.  ’ ‘  what a shame, the poor groom’s bride is a whore.  ’ ‘  haven’t you people ever heard of closing the goddamn door?  ’ ‘  i mean, technically our marriage is saved.  ’ ‘  it’s much better to face these things with a sense of poise and rationality.  ’ ‘  it’s just the end of the world.  ’ ‘  things are shaping up to be pretty odd.  ’ ‘  now i’m the only one to blame.  ’ ‘  things have changed for me, and that’s okay.  ’ ‘  northern downpour sends its love.  ’ ‘  you clicked your heels and wished for me.  ’ ‘  i know the worlds a broken bone.  ’

ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

‘  your subtleties, they strangle me.  ’ ‘  i can’t explain myself at all.  ’ ‘  maybe it’s best you leave me alone.  ’ ‘  i can’t explain what you can’t explain.  ’ ‘  it ends tonight.  ’ ‘  when you see my face, i hope it gives you hell.  ’ ‘  truth be told, i miss you.  ’ ‘  truth be told, i miss you. and truth be told, i’m lying.  ’ ‘  if you find a man that’s worth a damn and treats you well then he’s a fool.  ’ ‘  you’ll never see what you’ve done to me.  ’ ‘  you can take back your memories, they’re no good for me.  ’ ‘  let me know what i’ve done wrong.  ’ ‘  you are the only one that needs to know.  ’ ‘  i’ll keep you my dirty little secret.  ’ ‘  don’t tell anyone or you’ll be just another regret.  ’ ‘  speak to me.  ’ ‘  when all you got to keep is strong, move along.  ’ ‘  when everything is wrong, we move along.  ’ ‘  i’m dreaming of her.  ’ ‘  the nights are long and i am left while the tears fall.  ’ ‘  did you think that i would cry on the phone?  ’ ‘  do you know what it feels like being alone?  ’ ‘  i’ll find someone new.  ’ ‘  can you help me find a way to carry on again.  ’

MAYDAY PARADE

‘  may i say i loved you more?  ’ ‘  this time we spent together was meant to last us for awhile.  ’ ‘  you’re an angel sent to save.  ’ ‘  if you go down, i go with you.  ’ ‘  let’s drink to memories we shared.  ’ ‘  before too long, you’ll be a memory.  ’ ‘  so tell me honestly, did you ever really wan this?  ’ ‘  my jealous heart can’t take that.  ’ ‘  i’ll be okay. is that what you want me to say?  ’ ‘  it’s called break-up ‘cause it’s broken.  ’ ‘  please don’t tell me that i’m dreaming.  ’ ‘  i’m throwing away pictures that i never should have taken in the first place.  ’ ‘  i’m just hoping you’re not seeing his face.  ’ ‘  it was him that took my place.  ’ ‘  even broken hearts may have their doubts.  ’ ‘  you smiled the whole way through it, i guess maybe that’s what’s worse.  ’ ‘  i hope this makes you happy now.  ’ ‘  take me home.  ’ ‘  i’d rather die than be with you.  ’ ‘  i know you’re trying your hardest.  ’ ‘  the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared.  ’ ‘  compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright.  ’ ‘  let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight, i know he’s there.  ’ ‘  i guess that i can live without you but without you i’ll be miserable at best.  ’ ‘  without you i’ll be miserable at best.  ’ ‘  you’re all that i hoped i’d find in every single way.  ’ ‘  the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.  ’ ‘  it’s been three whole days since i’ve had sleep ‘cause i dream of his lips on your cheeks.  ’ ‘  i got the point that i should leave you alone, but we both know that i’m not that strong.  ’ ‘  i miss the lips that made me fly.  ’ ‘  young love is such dumb love.  ’ ‘  you’re still out of my reach.  ’ ‘  how could i ask you to leave me?  ’ ‘  we were just kids in love.  ’ ‘  the first kiss stole the breath from my lips. why did the last one tear us apart?  ’

[lewdcien]

protags

[i-chew-on-pushpins]

it is COLD i do NOT want to get out of bed, i wish to REMAIN in my hedonistic slothful blanket nest and NEVER leave

[sicparvismyass-deactivated20220]

🔵.

[soughtfreedcm]

>:( can’t write ... with my own connor .... unless i want to write a fic ..... >:( >:(