Soul Fragments

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..but just tell why should I wait, loveless in love.. while you bathe in it..?

Aeviterna. 2018.

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I guess my curse.. is that.  I will always only be the bandage for the wreckage that the last girl left.

I'll never be the one you look at with light in your eyes- I'll never be the one who comes to your mind

... when you think of true love..

Because I'm just the one whom you settled for-

The one who wiped the tears of longing for the past loves from your bloodshot eyes-  every.. fucking.. time.

The one who sustains you.. but you.. you were never fully satisfied.

You never longed for me the way you longed so achingly for her...

and her...

and her..

  I spent years convinced that maybe you really were my soulmate- and that maybe what we shared was true..   ...when the harsh reality is..

my absence..

my love..

my blood...

never meant shit to you.

-2017.

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..but I long to escape this world. For there isn't a place that I can gaze upon without seeing the forested hues of your eyes. Not.. one.. fucking.. place..

Emma. 2018.

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It's like I can feel you in everything. From the  winds that consume me, to the gentle rains that purify me- it's like your fingertips on my skin.. longing.

Aeviterna \\ Soul Fragments. 2017. 

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love does not exist. love does not exist. love does not exist. 

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I’ve wasted eons loving you. It’s time to love myself.

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..but of the stars, of the cool Autumn rains, of the rays of sunlight bursting through the trees, of all things I once found to be so beautiful; His pulchritude is unmatched.

Aeviterna. 2016.

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He is colour.

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I love him with such depth that even the deepest of oceans cannot begin to comprehend.

Aeviterna

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Conquistador.

Sometimes I wonder what he sees in his dreams- as I watch him lye there so tranquil, silent but the faint sound of his breathing.. I gaze at this supernal, empyreal life-form before me and I wonder how it is that I fell so.. deeply in love.. How is it that he instantly transformed my selfishness to selflessness..?   and vanquished the darkest of entities lurking around my obsidian soul.. For my sweet knight, I would endure eons of torment.   I look at him and I see all the ways a soul can bruise.. and still sustain.. Part of me wishes that I could force my hands into his memory and erase all the anguish and slay the demons that haunt him- And fill the fragile voids with the purest forms of tenderness and amorousness.   But then I remember that it is his arduous past that made him who he is now.. The celestial soul whose perfection I cannot describe in art nor poetic compositions.. My brave warrior- with immense strength.. and discipline.. and honour.. My inspiration. My greatest light. My conquistador.

-Aeviterna.  2016

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Frightening, isn't it? How a person can leave you with nothing but haunting nostalgia and a tragically flawed perception of love..

Aeviterna. 2016.

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I will not accept a tepid, lackadaisical romance. I refuse to believe that a love which transcends space and time simply does not exist.

Aeviterna.

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Love letters are but mere words after all.

Aeviterna.

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Fallen Empire.

There is nothing but silent desolation now.

I severed the chains which imprisoned this wretched heart for him.

I allowed him to dance circles to piano ballads inside of my mind.

I let him swim inside the deepest, foulest parts of my soul.  

And oh, how his resonating light consumed me so thoroughly-

and blinded me.  

He whispered me meaningless fairy tales of all I had ever dreamed.

He spoke to me ever so charmingly, and I fell victim to his deceit.  

I made him the the God of my crumbling empire and he set it ablaze and left me with no chance to rebuild.

I stand abandoned and inconsolably despondent among the ash and decay.

Foolish girl, have you not yet learned that trust only leads to deception and dismay?

- Aeviterna. Jan 2016

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I am so irrevocably in love with the Winter. The sting of December’s frigid winds against my porcelain skin. The subtle lullabies sung by January’s snowfall, cleansing my weary soul.

Aeviterna. 2015.

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If I could, I would wage a war against your fears and destroy your disquietude. I would trace my fingertips lovingly along your fragile flesh, to let you know there is only perfection when I look at you.

Aeviterna. 2015