hello ! i will be keeping this short and simple, i will be leaving tumblr for the foreseeable future, life has been too difficult as of late and with the latest stuff happening on enblr and our community as enha fans it simply is too difficult for me to stay, i know this seems very anticlimactic bcs i barely wrote in this acc but i feel like doing a proper post before leaving or maybe deactivating would be better bcs i didnt do that on karinasbaby, either way me and writing have reached a bump i cant seem to pass anymore so i will no longer be indulging in it until idk some sort of miracle maybe happens?, as for enhypen i cant say much because ever since the news i haven’t been able to fully get back to them or the kpop scene in general so ive decided to step back from everything for my own being, thats all have a nice day/night ! <3
Can you come back خلاص والله اي كانت دوو ثس انيمور
pls we already talked about this bby 💔💔 i have to fix my shit bcs if i don’t and i come back بس راح اكل خرا و اني ما اريد تعبت من أكلان الخرا برو 💔💔 بس اخلص الفاملي فيود ويه روني نرجع يلا
@okhees has been an extremely weird individual to me for months on end.
i am a very confrontational person, all things considered, even when i try to avoid needless debates and fights. because i really, really don't like fighting. however, i'm not a pushover. though someone seems to have mistaken my kindness for the inability to speak up from myself.
i have A following, it's not the biggest, but it is there. and with that comes a certain sense of responsibility, of carefulness with words because one small step can send hate to other people even when i don't want that to be the case. so let me clear the air out right now, i don't want hate sent to anyone. if it's sent, i don't condone it, and that's the only thing i can offer after months of silence and the multiple chances to move on that i've offered.
it's no secret that i write and consume dark content, it's on my pinned, in my rules, and all over my blog when i read it and i post it. you can have your thoughts on that, that i won't stop because my side has never been to tell people how they should feel about dark content. what i believe is that everyone should avoid what they don't want to see, with blocking or muting or hiding tags. we all have different limits and maybe what you consider something okay to write about, is someone else's worst trigger. if you came across okhees post about me, i want to add some context that is missing.
first of all, the ss with my username in it IS something i said, and i stand behind it fully. but i find it interesting that when it was initially posted, my username was blurred out. conveniently, now it's not. the other screenshot next to it without a username on it, is not mine. and i believe it was framed that way on purpose because okhees has a personal vendetta against me and is so weirdly obsessed that it's uncomfortable for me.
here's proof of my username being blurred out at first. you can look on my blog anywhere for the other one but you won't find it because it's not me
now, let's roll it back a little. all the way to october 2025. i block people freely and the reasons are listed down here, but as you can see, i ASK miss heesera if she's against dark content, and she says she's not.
we clarify this, and soon after we become mutuals, so i assume my rules are read and agreed with. if you're thinking what heesera has to do with okhees, well that's simply her new blog but we'll get into that soon.
this is 27/12/2025, and fair enough. except... why did you lie to me about being okay with dark content when i asked, then?
i mean... she obviously knew considering i asked her... and this is her reblogging noncon not even two month before!
so why are we saying fuck me for... anyways. pay attention to this specific wording because it comes back later. rape = trauma... so is the rest of dark content not... traumatic? huh? hello??? that's the whole point. rape and noncon ARE dark content that's literally what the dark in dark content is there for. that doesn't mean you have to like it? i quite literally never said that. you can like other forms of dark content but not noncon and that's FINE. i'm just confused as to why she lied in my face when my rules are literally right there.
literally not even one hour after this she deletes her blog entirely. AND THIS IS IMPORTANT AGAIN!!!
"rape is crossing a line" "you mean something that causes long term trauma" "no it's a serious issue" so what i gathered from this is that dark content = okay but not rape because that's Serious. are stalking, violence, abuse, manipulation, and all other kinds of dark content ALSO serious issues and things that cause serious trauma? why is that your cutoff? i mean, i would fucking know, considering i myself am a victim. and i wont get into it here more than i already have because i have people on my ass and despite the claim that they are defending victims. they don't like me, i'm not a victim in the way they think a victim should be and act. therefore they will use it against me, as they already have.
these people only care about picture perfect victims, and i'm sorry that i'm not one. but at this point in my journey, i am past explaining and performing my trauma for people that only care about it when it's comfortable for them. i've been told i'm not a real victim all my life, i have thought of it myself. how if i were really a victim, i'd feel differently about my experiences, i'd find more digestible ways (for other people) to work through it. but i don't care about that anymore, i am a victim as much as other people are, and how i live through it is for me to decide. there are times that i think, if i didn't have this outlet, i wonder if i'd be here at all after all i've lived through.
heesera/okhees knows this, because the little i've shared, she interacted with when we were mutuals. she ignores it though, and the reason for that i can't know for sure.
it's also moronic to sit here and act holier than thou over how "unproblematic" the work we consume is when it's about real life people, and whether you wanna face it or not, most people outside of this specific sphere consider it ODD even if it's as consensual as you want. you ask me are the idols okay with being portrayed the way i portray them sometimes. i wanna ask YOU, are the idols okay with them being portrayed in smut the way you also do? because if we go with your line of reasonings, jay did not consent to you writing reader gargling on his balls either. so that puts us in the same boat no matter how much you want to pretend you're better than me or others. when i write, i write fictional characters, and it's true that they share a name and a face with the enhypen members. but i KNOW i'm not writing them like they are, and i think this should be common sense between writers... but if one is wrong, why is what you do okay?
now, do we agree that no matter the difference in opinions, sending asks about other writers to confession blogs is nasty no matter what? especially when these blogs are racist and all around deplorable? let's ask heesera/okhees 🎤 bc while she was acting holier than thou about the siren issue on her main, she was on anonymous sending asks about me! and the wording is so damning given the context, there's no way you'll think that's not her.
cmon now... and added context, the two especially gives it away because heesera used to glaze the fuck out of me and my writer bestie... whom she was also mutuals with. that's a lot of dark content mutuals okhees! what were you doing at the devil's sacrament? while this is how you act about it publicly? such sweet words from someone that was quite literally one of the anons.
when the whole siren thing (i assume we're all familiar) blew over, i made a post saying that i knew who sent some shit about me. i wanna hold your hand through this though, because heesera/okhees claims i sent her hate/sent people to her. well, i didn't. but let me explain why you should believe that i didn't.
this is ALL i say. and i might be a serial ss collecter as we can see, but i don't have a big mouth. i never once uttered her username on my blog before this, even when we had the initial headbutt. the only info being what you see in the ss. so tell me, how are people with absolutely no context gonna know i'm talking about heesera specifically? when the issue happened on HER blog in COMMENTS and that entire blog was taken down literally one hour within of me commenting underneath her post? because she claims she got hate in my name, and posts this.
i had to find out through other people that this was being said, because she didn't even reach out to me first. but how could have anyone known? also, how is you being a victim = unable to stage this? because i'm a victim too so wouldn't that be me being a victim = unable to organize this against another victim???? if we're using that line of thought. i just think it's really convenient that part of my username is there, but! this is me saying that i didn't do any of this, but she has since then run with the narrative that i'm harassing her when she's the one sending shady anons (bc let's face it. you're a fucking pussy and that's also why your blog was gone so soon after one single person confronted you) to such ugly blogs?
i have gotten so many threats and disgusting anon asks ever since this whole thing has started from october. yet, despite the timing, i have never pointed fingers. i block and delete, maybe answer one or two when i want to, but that's about it. if those were me, then am i safe to assume she's behind the ones i got? or does that only work when it's me being blamed?
now, there's finally some peace and quiet for a while after this (spoiler: short lived) but i happen to stumble on her new blog! honestly, and i'll swear on jungwon's cock for this one (really dear to me) it was completely accidental, and honestly more of a suspicion than anything else until the recent post she made. but someone reblogged some smau texts on my dash, and when i didn't recognize the @ (that being okhees) i checked on it bc i do like to snoop new writers to the community here and there. except i'm blocked. which is okay! usually when i'm blocked, i assume it's for the dark content, which is what i want people to do. please protect yourself from triggering things you don't want to see, make your space a safe space for yourself! i love to see that. i encourage it, and i want everyone to have as much fun in their little tumblr bubble as i have. but then i notice that yunsera interacts with her a lot (and okhees at this point is super new. like one single or maybe two fics posted). and if you know anything about yunsera and heesera, is that they're like a fly and a hot steaming pile of shit. so suspicions arise.
then we get the new confession blogs. and lo and behold:
now if 2+2 is 4.... make of this what you will
regardless of how you feel about me, and the without a doubt CHOICE to have my username out for everyone next to another ss of something i did not say (and while it's in the alt... no one checks that clearly bc i've been getting questions over stuff i never typed, so to ME the intent is very clear) is this the person that should be leading the witch hunt against me? when i have done nothing but give her the option to move away and be in her little blr bubble as long as she stops being obsessed with me? why is she so comfortable sending asks to racist and ableist blogs? is that okay to ignore as long as i'm on the other end of the harassment? personally, i have my own opinions as to why she's so comfortable doing that, but i'll let the judgement stay with other people bc differently from others, i don't point fingers without proof <3
seeing ot6 gcs already made on x and people genuinely thinking that they’re better by being ot6 and being hee antis even going as far as to make disgusting comments towards heeseung is so jarring because it hasn’t even been a week since he left and you’d think these people have hated him for years atp. mind you this is the same guy that did everything in his might to be a good hyung to all his members and always stepped up for them but the second the company paints him in a bad light everyone believes that he’s selfish like yeah let’s forget all about his six years of hard work as enha’s eldest and believe what the same company that has been mistreating them and treating them like robots has to say this makes total sense
shitlift outright admitting that the schedule they themselves created is so extreme that members cannot pursue solo projects literally every idol eventually explores while remaining in the group… and instead of adjusting that schedule, they would rather lose their own center and main vocalist… like genuinely think about how absurd that is.
also the message that sends to the remaining members is very clear: if you want to pursue solo work, you cannot do it here while staying in the group.
like the more statements they put out the more they damn themselves, and i cantttttt understand how anyone who claims to care about these boys can look at this and remain neutral or whatever else… even if you want to believe this was ultimately heeseung’s choice (and he has every right if it were his choice… do you understand that these boys are being overworked to hell???), how can you overlook the blatant mismanagement being spelled out right in front of you? AGAIN: this demonic company is openly admitting they would rather maintain an unsustainable schedule and EXPLOIT these boys than properly support the artists that built their success. like make it make sense
let me add that i will always support all 7 of them no matter what!!!! but i swear some of you are genuinely being willfully stupid because i keep seeing these nothingburger posts saying that everyone should just respect heeseung’s choice and move on and support them in the future…
how in the ever living fuck can you move on or even be happy about future solos or projects knowing the context we’re literally being told? ONCEEE AGAINNN: either we start losing enhypen members one by one, or the rest of them are forced to shelve their own dreams just to keep working under belift’s hellish workload until they eventually burn out and decide to leave anyway 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
but hey as long as they get on stage and give you gooning material, it doesn’t matter right? we should just shut up right? people like you are exactly why companies get away with this kind of treatment, because you don’t see them as PEOPLE and you ONLY see them as content. YOU ARE THE PROBLEM JUST AS MUCH AS BELIFT IS. like atp don’t bother writing paragraphs telling us our outrage is wrong.. just save your energy and simply state that you don’t see them as humans and you don’t give a fuck about them being exploited and go
“we overwork our artists, and instead of trying to be humans for once, and try to adjust the schedule and respect their desires, we will cut any individual who can be a threat to our money seeking and we will continue to overwork the team”
that’s what belift lab said, if anyone still didn’t understand
and again, if you insist on having a neutral state on it or be like “whatever” don’t ever tell me you cared for this group or the members. you are no better than belift lab and see them as machines
the concept of belift removing heeseung from the group due to the demanding and hectic schedule of the group that they themselves set up
and by this logic doesn’t this mean that the other members will quite literally get the same treatment as hee ? if any of the others wanted solo activities would they be also removed from the group? ok so and Then What. will we have enha members leaving every solo debut until we have one or two or ??? like. and enha r supposed to resign next year..?
