sotheresthisboy...

[soulscar7]

It’s you and me.

Always be.

[soulscar7]

❤️‍🔥

[soulscar7]

You’ll Always be my Hero…

Even though

You lost your mind..

YOUAND.I 8.31.2019

[soulscar7]

❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

[soulscar7]

On Rainy days

I miss you the most

Cuddling with you

always reminds me of happy times

thank you for visiting me in my dreams💙

last night felt so real

you called and asked to talk

I agreed

Then as soon as I hung up the phone

It was a brand new different reality

It was as if the universe knew

That we were meant to reunite and this time

We got it right 🤍

we were older

And living together

Somewhere new

I ddnt recognize the buildings

So much nature

Lots of sunshine and trees

Peaceful yet happy and exciting

I was washing dishes

when I heard the door open

And in walks a brown lab puppy

and you are behind the pup

You walk towards me

Stand behind me

Hug me from the back

I smile

You say

I promised you forever

Bby boy….

I say

I love you more than you will ever truly know

Thank you for finding your way back home again

I. Turn around

Our lips touch

We walk to the bedroom

You lift me up in your arms

I’m so in love with you again

So enamored

So turned on

I can’t help but make love to you

Under the stars in the rain

Inside our own place

I am completely devoted to you

And

You to me

I felt EVERYTHING.❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

woke up to the sound of rain falling

And calling out your name…

[soulscar7]

I regret not moving in together before

I wish we had

I know so much would have improved

So much would have been solved

So much happiness

So much love.

So much light.

Imy.

[soulscar7]

Im sorry

Ily

please come back home.. .

[soulscar7]

thought I saw you today

I froze in place

wasn't nervous but I

ddnt know if it was really you

And ddnt know how you

would act towards me

As I turned around to see if it was really you

I felt myself begin to smile

Slow at first then full

uncontrollable cheese smile  

The kind that only comes from you

I ddnt know

what I was gonna say or do

But in that moment

It wasn’t important

All I knew

Was that

You were here NOW

And that’s all that mattered

When I realized it wasn’t you

I felt defeated

my broken smile began fading away

I turned around and went inside my car

sat alone in the hospital parking lot for a while

Thinking

remembering

Crying

Idk why

But I started driving to your old place.

I just felt this sudden need to be close to you

Even though I knew You ddnt live there anymore.

But being there for a little helped stop the tears

you have no idea how bad I miss you every day

How sorry I am for my mistakes

How much I crave you

ALL OF YOU

NEXT TO ME

ALWAYS.

Our love wasnt perfect

But it was REAL and oh so fkn beautiful.. .

[soulscar7]

[love-for-boys]

[love-for-boys]

[unchildhood]

AZRA TABASSUM (or @5000letters)

from My Heart is Full of Open Windows;

original photos and edit

[soulscar7]

The bad dreams won't stop again =[

Had the worst one tonight

You tried to move on so fast

That hurt so bad

To replace me as soon as you could

With whomever gave you any small type of attention

Instead of self healing and self improving like you had told me

Big Mistake

It ended up back firing on you

You ended up getting fatally sick

And Eventually you did come back and did tell me the whole truth right away

But still

seeing you with someone else

Made me realize

A sudden hard truth

That made me wake up sobbing

Yelling into your shirts

It's like you learned

how to genuinely love from me

But

Instead of fixing what you broke

And giving me the type of love I had always deserved

From you

You decided to give it someone new

But your karma followed you

You got sick

And THEN decided to come back

I loved you so much

i took you back

you did not live long =[

You left me alone again

That’s when I woke up crying

When you came back

You were so loving apologetic

humble and open

And seeing you like that

Resparked everything again

It made me

Open to fighting for us

Full force like never before

It's like I completely believed

You learned your lessons

And genuinely forgave you

And not only did you help heal me

I healed you

And in the process

Our love grew to new heights like never before

Things started to feel the same but way BETTER

We were supper happy again

And then you passed

If only you stayed and fixed what you broke 💔

we could’ve had the best life

I can say this with certainty

I would have ran away

Eventually my fam would have come around

After they say how Serious we were about fixing ourselves and and living happy successfull LOVING life’s

Bby it was real

And

it was magic …

🥀🌹🥀

[love-for-boys]

[soulscar7]

Everything seems unreal

Like this is a bad dream that I can't wake up from

nights are the worst

I fall asleep holding your shirt

when im lucky

I dream about us

Random dreams like

The first time we met

How we used to laugh over dumb things

The first picture we took

our morning and good night calls

Hearing about your day and planing our next adventure

how we get excited over small things

holding your hand

how i always understood what you were trying to say

Even when the words ddnt come out right.

How I would calm you down after you had a nightmare

I miss waking up holding you.

Protecting you

Loving you

imy .

[lematworks]

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