Soup Of The Emerald Ocean

My name’s Jasper and I’m an SO in the crew Jack Daniels, part of the flag Whiskey Business. I use this blog as my little journal because my memory is ass and a half. — My personal goal was to mem the ocean and I did it! Now I want to have a ship ported at every island so I can whisk anyone anywhere for monster frays, even though my crew has vessels ported just about everywhere. As of 6/18/25, I have 19 ships ported at 19/92 islands (20.7%) — I’m probably the only person on the face of this earth whose therapist says they need to play MORE YPP but I’m a diagnosed agoraphobe with severe social anxiety and it’s the only socialization that I get. I’m getting more and more brave but I’m a work in progress. I’m very proud right now because I’m able to post in trade chat and reply without freezing up. I’m working on confidence now. Mrflop invites me to a lot of CIs and I’m finally finding my footing. :) — I’m online starting at 10:30 EST every day if you care to chat :)

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Did they change the tabs on the right-hand side of the screen or am I going insane??

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I often feel like I’m not wanted because I am far from perfect. Somebody said I was better off just defending when it comes to zombie frays of all things (It only took two tries to win btw) and now I just wanna curl up and die because it was the ONE THING that I felt okay about…

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Someone was doing a naming contest for their pelican and I thought my suggestion was passed over until I actually won.

The name?

Steve.

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Somebody picked me out in trade chat today and asked for 1000 PoE. Like okay my man, here you go. Uh also. Do I fuckin know you???

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Soup is licking herself in time to the cute little shanty that plays when you open the YPP window 🙃

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Is there just a group of people who randomly knock on other pirate’s doors or have I just been weirdly lucky this past week or two…?

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Oh yeah, so gunning for this guy on CIs is actually… Not so bad? He doesn’t shoot a lot and is extremely understanding when I get too anxious and start making mistakes and stuff. I think I’m starting to find my footing here. Sucks, though, because he gets on at like 3 AM where I am and I won’t be able to see him for a couple days because I have to be up for stuff in the mornings :/

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There’s this absolute fucking maniac who lets me go on KH’s and told me I can bomb for a CI like excuse me, what the FUCK are you thinking???

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Someone repeatedly knocked on my shack door and I let them in and we’ve been talking for like an hour. Like who tf ARE YOU and WHY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE!??

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Seroquel is supposed to be a complete loner but we became hearties. Can’t refuse someone like that lol

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Someone repeatedly knocked on my shack door and I let them in and we’ve been talking for like an hour. Like who tf ARE YOU and WHY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE!??

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My psych was basically like, “Nobody has trouble talking to people online girl get out of the HOUSE” and I’m like… Listen lady, I’m an artist, I want to make being an artist my career, and OH BY THE WAY, the last time I checked, I don’t need to go anywhere to use my tablet. But I DO need to know how to interact online because how tf else am I supposed to get commissions and make money??? So YPP has been a godsend and my other mental health professionals are aware of this. Catch up.

Anyway I have an appointment with a new psych in a little less than a month. Hopefully we vibe better and she puts me back on the meds that I know were most effective and I can get my life back on track and start performing better in YPP as a fun side effect

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I did good, I joined a voice chat today c:

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Changing my username has been oddly similar to when I changed my legal name. I felt really awkward for a little bit (Like who is going to call me my new name? Especially since I’ve had my old one for years…) but then people started to use the name. Occasionally, people will just refer to me as Soup and it sends a little thrill through me. Like OH YEAH! THATS ME!!! And it makes me feel so happy that I changed it…

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Bahaha. It actually happened.

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I charted a hearty and he asked how much he owes me. Man, I’ll do this for free. It took what, a couple of minutes? I appreciate the tips and all, but truly I just like being helpful c:

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You know, I looked back on old posts and I have come very far. Hearty requests made me extremely happy because who the hell wants to be my friend? But I got way more confident and now I know that I’m wanted. Posting in trade chat used to make me freeze up with anxiety but I can do it relatively easily now. I’m able to send tells when someone needs a charter and it doesn’t faze me at all. Man, YPP has made a huge impact on my anxiety and I’m just so much more confident online now. My therapist told me that this would help me so much and she was totally right! 😁

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I flirted with women on YPP today and one of them was into it even tho I’m a trans guy ./////. Definitely definitely not used to that…