A roving mind

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ನೋವ ನುಂಗಿ ನುಂಗಿ ಈಗ ಹಸಿವೇ ಆಗದು

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‘Huliyappa’ is an Official Selection at the Dadasaheb Phalke International Film Festival

I am proud of this already even as we await the results. I will tell more stories. I will work harder and learn the craft better to aim for excellence in whatever I do. I am happy today.

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“You’re not even interesting enough to make me sick”

Cher, I could kiss you for this, my lady!

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Greater Himalaya and Trans Himalaya love

Google Photos just brought this memory back from 2016! I was in the Himalaya for a good half month, with Ladakh being our gang’s primary location. My friend Vidya was part of this journey, too (I adore her!). This one trip had made me capable of so much literature that my first and second books (Silkworm Slumbers and Moontime Soliloquies) contain a lot of prose and poems on and from the…

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Documenting my NYC

Photograph by Santosh Saligram I’ve had so much fun with my Fujifilm camera on my US trip, especially in NYC, a city I’ve me tally and emotionally lived in for many years. I’m dying to process my photographs and print them as postcards for my loved ones. I am no burst-mode, photograph-everything kinda girl and I use the tool like it’s a film camera. Happy enough with my work to pat my own back.…

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Messages from the US

So many friends and relatives (cousins, mainly) writing from the US, pretty much pissed that we didn’t meet them. Haha, interesting to know so many wanted to, across the country. Perhaps next time. This means that we will be able to see most of the country over a few visits pretty well, considering the different locations. Promising!

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I loved. And I feel like I’ve been through a war. I love. I love.

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Yesterday (7 June) was supposed to be happy. Huliyappa premiered last year!

Around 250 people showed up to see our story on the big screen for the first time at one of Bengaluru’s most sought after cultural hubs: the Bangalore International Centre (BIC). Those who couldn’t make it (including a couple of celebrities like Mr. Javagal Srinath) apologised to me later and managed to watch it in the following screenings. We continue to screen it across Karnataka and more…

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Hyderabad shoot

We have some B roll to shoot for our Antarctica research documentary and are doing a 3-night-4-day visit to Hyderabad. This should have been a trip with me and him, something I was actually looking forward to, until, even a couple of days ago. But my mental health has been on such a roller coaster ride that our director Santosh Saligram, a fantastic cinematographer himself, is taking the time out…

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Toadhood, please. 🐸

At the Warner Brothers Studio, LA Most desperately trying to make Felix Felicis after the last few sucky months. Or, with 90% geeky joy and 10% concerned-about-consequences, a funner thing would be brewing the potion that got me my Hogwarts acceptance letter 20 years late – ugh. Or does it look like brewing questionable decisions, or eternal glory, or… errr… minor explosion? Any minute now,…

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Six species of birds in the middle of the day, without even trying!

Still more helpful and even JOYOUS than a therapy session. And the thing is, I still stand by my opinion — unpopular among vehement therapy apologists — that therapy makes things a little more self-indulgent than I am personally wired in my brain… and in my heart, my heart, my stupid little heart.So, give me six species of birds on a summer afternoon in a busy area like Jayanagar and that still…

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Emergency therapy session. I’m grateful. And I am done two as*h*les today.

Okay, I am desperate at this point to stay sane and spoke to the same lady with whom I had done a session from Madikeri. She blatantly told me I chose to ignore all the red flags she had alerted me to and still continued this long. Because you see, I was in “love.” Especially the dad yelling at me part and this boy saying “what’s wrong with you? No means no” or some such sh*t yesterday when I…

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Giving a loved one a second chance... a 200th chance?

https://www.prajavani.net/community/bharat-yatra/ಪಾಂಡು–ಮಾದ್ರಿ-1658057#google_vignette I am no Maadri, but here’s how I relate to her profoundly and want to watch if a story ends or continues: Madri chose unbelievable forgiveness and ultimate sacrifice over resentment. When Paandu succumbed to Kindama’s curse in the forest, Madri blamed herself. Typical of women in love. Also, recognising…

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Lakshmeesha Tolpadi sir, thank you for alleviating my pain

https://www.prajavani.net/community/bharat-yatra/ಪಾಂಡು–ಮಾದ್ರಿ-1658057#google_vignette This man, this man, this man. This radiant mind. “Oh, what have you one to yourself, silly girl?” he seems to ask, underlining anything I read by him. It had been so long since I read him and I blame myself for it. I am weeping my eyes out reading this, not because of pain but because of how my pain responds to…

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Puṭṭa

My Ajjii used to call him that; she was fond of him.Eega Ajjii-né illa, yaaru iddare énu biṭṭare énu. Saavu.

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I spoke up for myself today

After a series of humiliating episodes of all kinds imaginable, I finally did what I should have done months ago to save myself immense suffering. Love is never enough; it is nothing without respect, dignity, honour. If I am humiliated, I realise that no one will stand up for me and that I have to defend my truth myself. Today, I have. I will continue to, whenever needed. Mean, lying,…

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