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i'm michaela. twenty one years old. she/her.

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[sphmreslump-blog]

It's my new blog! Follow me there bc eventually I'll be either archiving this blog or deleting it.

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okay so the time has come where i’m ready to make a new blog, mainly because this one is so unorganized and just all over the place. so i’m gonna make a new blog (i’ll post a link here when i’m done so if anyone wants to continue to follow me you are more than welcome to do so!)

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*September arrives*

me: *puts on layered clothes, boots, and a scarf*

someone: it’s like 90 degrees outside–

me: it’s fall

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[sadnegro]

[mercedesbenzodiazepine]

This is…so me

[saverockanroll]

when u hear someone talking shit and ur tryna remember if u fucking asked

[russobrosphobic]

why do yall erase the fact that keep on keeping on is travis lazarus mccoys song? why aint yall gas up golden by travie mccoy ft. sia? why do yall not love travie mccoy? he is literally an angel i love him he has never done anything wrong i trust him with my life....

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[urbanthropologie]

ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

[kinomatika]

ok this is actually cool bc doing all of this is a technique called “mindful thinking” that is extremely useful for people with anxiety disorders and dissociation disorders and stuff!

[assrodeo]

Mindfulness helps in moments of great pain, too. By reducing panic and fear your pain feels less horrid. It’s some sort of physiological sensation.

[somvei]

[jodiefoster]

a concept: i’m in a warm bed with lots of blankets and i have no obligations to be anywhere. i’m calm and safe and happy and you are here with me

[thatgirlneedsaxanax]

I just wanna say… From the bottom of my heart… Get the fuck away from me if you have bad intentions

[owlmylove]

“i don’t know if i’m ready for college,” i say, a college student, who is already enrolled in college

[artemeis]

haunting // halsey

[angelicbreadroll]

me: lol people who cant handle their alcohol are so embarrassing…. 

me after three shots:

[prasejeebus]

*Dangerous Woman starts playing* Friend 1: Don’t start Friend 2: I’m begging you Me: