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❝ when are you going to ask me out ? we spend all our time together and you OBVIOUSLY like me. ❞

# SPICYMANA. sexy sideblog to @manaborn where you can find all the rules. this blog is specifically for nsfw rps / hcs and as such roleplays will not be tagged as nsfw. any of gwen's traumatic experiences that are mentioned here will be tagged appropriately, however. no minors, mun is over 30.

#[ me using canon gwen quote that fits ]#✰ ・。💙👽 ❛ hail to the king baby ｢ ooc ｣

mewnbuns

petting his hair while he eats you out

lonely only 4 u

Matthew Daddario in Into The Deep (2022)

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vsnct

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gwen was pretty sexually repressed growing up tbh, like instead of having sex explained to her as a young person in a healthy way she was told no. dont do it. dont explore anything. don't think about it. sex is only for making babies and marriage first. it wasn't something she was allowed to talk to her parents abt, plus having to deal with the expectations of her mothers side of the family who are veryyyyy conservative, wealthy and 'old fashioned' on top of it. like obviously she knew what sex was, she's smart and she's been in sex ed and knew the ins and outs but she wasn't allowed to talk to her parents about her feelings. and i know no parent wants that talk but it's a responsibility.

plus she has some trauma with an older guy when she was a young teen that i don't wanna detail too much but she's a survivor.

but between everything she always felt too idk, ashamed i guess to have urges and wants and it took her longer to want to actually explore her own body and to want to have sex with someone for the first time without feeling gross about it. bc it shouldn't be a gross thing to want that.

she had a lot of negative thoughts and experiences with sex for the longest time and she'd always busy herself in one thing or another to avoid it or if she did get to that point her partners weren't the best. as an adult she's super comfortable w/her body and sexuality for the most part but she wished she had a better & healthy space to grow into herself earlier.

she still gets a lil awkward and a lil embarrassed when trying new things but how her partner reacts to it will depend on whether or not she enthusiastically participates or considers it.

she's been made to feel so bad if she doesn't want to try something outside of her comfort zone, she's been made to feel bad for having a flashback, and just !! overall. her needs haven't been met OK.

she's not a delicate flower who needs to be coddled but she does need someone who listens to her when she says yes or no and not made to feel like an idiot who don't know what she's doing. ty.

#✰ ・。💙👽 ❛ hail to the king baby ｢ ooc ｣#[ once she's locked in she's locked in tho lol ]#[ self exploration wasn't a thing for her til she was well beyond her teens and yeah she's embarrassed about that but leave her alone ]