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my main blog is @/comfymoth! i just hang out here sometimes :]

art is under #doodles

in terms of ‘songs with lyrics my mom would pitch a fit about if she could actually understand them,’ i think ptv’s discography might rank second place behind literal non-english language music. she’s tapping the steering wheel along to disasterology rn and i feel like i’m getting away with a crime

#i get away with a lot of fob this way too #i cant tell if she understands mcr or not though #she does seem to like them though?? but i think it might be because they wrote an anti-cancer song #and she thinks that’s great #literally doing that mcr vs the beatles meme

doodle brought to you from my mandated group therapy journal. um. yeah, so that first day didn’t really go well

#doodles #my ocs

waaaa extraño a mi grupo de hispanohablantes y extraño el trato social irl en general y extraño la escuela y extraño mi último trabajo y extraño tener un vida afuera de mi barrio pequeño waaaaa

sniff……. estoy tratando de hacer más………. pero todo es difícil, espero que pueda ser como mi gatita y sea super feliz con solo un cordoncito (es un mecha de vela de verdad) para jugar y una manta esponjosa (que fue MI manta pero WHATEVER) para dormir……….. su vida me parece tan hermosa, como la envidio…………….

been trying to find my whimsy again and idk exactly what this is??? but i do think it turned out cute! they’re just lil thangs

#doodles #my ocs

this is really what the notes app was made for i think

#i’ve never heard jocho in my area just perrito caliente #so i DID NOT WANT TO FORGET

MAN, now i’m realizing even the ravi design i made for this is kinda pointless, cos the scene i’m planning wouldn’t,,, actually have needed to take place the year before canon,,,,, and would probably make More sense if it was just. happening the same year. actually. so. he would look. the same.

waaaa but his hair turned out so CUTE here i don’t wanna change that either!!!!!!

drew this goth girl for a joke setup i’m starting to think i might not use, but she turned out so cutie pie i’d hate to scrap her……………

#if you think she looks familiar- youre probably right! but BOY you must’ve been following me for a long time!!!#cos this is just an upgrade of my old bea nitw design!!!#doodles

rebelpeas

fatphobia and transphobia aren’t boundaries. like setting aside the constant constant sex nsfw pipe bomb, we understand that fatphobic and transphobic “rules” are not personal boundaries that should be respected, right

#on da sideblog cos i barely go here anymore so i don’t wanna blast my audience with Da Discourse but #like. okay. i Understand. partially. where the devil’s advocate ‘oh what if they have body image issues’ argument comes from #i’ll be honest! i have those body image issues!! gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia kick my ass every day #so i Understand the impulse to get defensive i understand the argument #but frankly #and i don’t really care if this sounds mean #those are mental illnesses luv. those are disordered ways of thinking #and you can’t go around making rules for other people based on your disordered thoughts #i have nothing but empathy for everyone who struggles with a voice in their head that is cruel to their own body #but the second you externalize that voice. i’m sorry but you become the cruel one #you’re projecting your shame onto other people with those kinds of bodies and they don’t deserve that. they just don’t #if the idea of someone drawing a character based on you with different physical features REALLY triggers you…….#maybe you just don’t need to go into Playing Characters as a career #you can just do something else. it’s okay. no one is forcing you to act in popular media #and if you really truly must! well then no one is forcing you to engage with the fandom that supports it #and no one is forcing you to make public posts being a dick to artists in that fandom if you see art you don’t like #you can scroll buddy. you can use your coping mechanisms and move on without making a public scene #there’s kind of actually 0 excuse for being weird about art that features fat and/or trans bodies!#sorry this is like such a long ramble n idk if i’ve explained it all perfectly but i just wanted to try and get my thoughts out #cos they’ve been banging around my head for a minute

spiderducks

hhhmmmm i can’t decide….. what kind of hair to put on the kitties……….. maybe i’ll feel differently after i color them, but i kinda wanted to ask the people first, are there any preferences right away?

#ooohhh prev taking notes #i really like the forward spike in three i just think it’s fun

2 personally! 1 makes the right kitty look very much like milo in hair. which isn't bad but could be a con if these are totally new squinkies!

haha oh shoot, i think you’re right! i was kinda trying to give her that iconic alice-from-twilight pixiebob in that one, but i think my muscle memory just turned it into milo fluff without me realizing ^^; i do like the second one though! i think there’s just something kinda cool about those two looks together

hhhmmmm i can’t decide….. what kind of hair to put on the kitties……….. maybe i’ll feel differently after i color them, but i kinda wanted to ask the people first, are there any preferences right away?

working on new stupids…………… sniles

oh yeah haha hey iwaitaminute WHAT

It's not just you, I've been flopping through January. Comparing myself a lot because of the New Year's pressure, being critical of my 2025 art output. Getting frustrated with myself for not feeling "hopeful", even though I know it's just a reaction to bleakness. Also processing feelings about aging, lost time, fomo and whatnot.

Tangential positive note: I realized turning off YT history removes the homepage, so it becomes just search and subscriptions. Quick way to get rid of overwhelming/upsetting recommendations, while keeping music playlists etc.

man, yeah, i really feel that. especially the part about the new year’s pressure— i get that same kinda feeling around my birthday, too, like, shit, another year? really? and i’m still just, like this? i’m not the pinnacle of human success like my mom seems to think i should be by now? shit, what the hell am i doing

but i guess we just. keep chuggin along. cos it’s just what you gotta do. i hope 2026 is kinder to us, man, even if it doesn’t feel like it’s starting out that way. or i hope at least we’re kinder to ourselves

also, that’s good youtube advice! tbh i kinda just use my history as my homepage, but it’s still good to know i have that option

man, i’m really not starting this year on a great foot :( i can’t tell if i’m losing interest in art, or in my ocs, or just in everything right now, but it’s been so hard to work on anything. i don’t wanna vent too hard, but i’m just kinda in a real rut right now

and you know it’s bad because even though i thought about making a really stupid omegaverse joke there, even that didn’t cheer me up. it didn’t even make me exhale kinda hard through my nose. what a state of things

truly nothing brought this on but i just sat bolt upright remembering a cabinet duo fic i read in like 2021 where q called tubbo “cabrito” the whole time and i can’t stop giggling. i think they were supposed to be foster brothers, or step-brothers or something? and it was, like, supposed to be a really cute little sibling thing. dude what WAS it with dsmp writers and the sibling nicknames they’d come up with what was in the water in those days???

#haterisms

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