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04/02/19 - 10/100 days of productivity

So it has been a while since I posted or have done anything productive and admittedly I did fall back into my bad habits of not doing anything and it’s hard to get out of this. I feel bad, I feel like I let myself down but you know, it’s a process. Anyways, over spring break I went to New York and visited a university that I was accepted at and honestly, I know I already live in a big city but I love New York City so much!!! As my friend so kindly put it, it’s like Chicago on crack.

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just look at the material Ur Honor

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Užava Parish, Latvia by Marek Steins

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one thing i do want to say though is i think as h*mosexual women but also just as women in general is that we need to recognize that “i’m not performing for men” is only one half of the picture. maybe you don’t want men’s approval but how much do you need women’s acceptance? how much are you smoking and drinking and doing coke and running and dieting and posting about forgetting to eat and performing other kinds of violence for the approval of other women? how much pressure do women put on you to negate the features of your body or your race or your sexuality or anything else…can you get away with stimming around other women? can you get away with not shaving? can you be around your female friends and feel fat without saying “i feel fat” so no one would mistake you for not punishing yourself for what is (erroneously) assumed to be a “transgression” of the body? can you look ugly and know that the female store clerk or the barista or the girl at the sink next to you or the girl on the bus with you or the girl with you on the elevator on the girl you have to squeeze past in the lecture hall to get out of the aisle will be kind and respectful to you and not act disgusted. can you be around your female family members without them commenting on your body? so much masochism and violence remain normalized among women because we say “well I’m not doing it for men, so it’s my choice” but how much are you doing out of a fear of women?

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and thats how things like makeup and shaving get baked into “feminist” rhetoric because we forget the degree to which feminity is enforced by other women, not men. so even for people who have no stake at all in being appealing to men…there’s still the threat of being punished by women. and every post that’s critical of makeup or whatever that ends up with reblogs that say things like “learn to do eyeliner ugly” or whatever stupid shit just proves that. we’re out here doing the same things we’ve always done we’ve just replaced “attracting men” with “placating other women”