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I believe that one day while sipping from a cup of tea / coffee, you will smile and think how you made it so far!

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मैं एक क़िस्सा थी

बस तुम्हारे हिस्से में नहीं

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कुछ तू दुआ माँग

कुछ दुआ मैं भी माँगूँगी

अगर

अगर तेरी दुआ में मैं और मेरी दुआ में तू हुआ

तो यक़ीन है मुझे

यह दुआ तो ज़रूर कबूल होगी ।

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Today, 10/10/19

I’m writing this a day after I came back from the trip.

2 months ago I wouldn’t have thought that I would not be able to tell you that I’m excited.

It was all good and now this is incomplete and everything else is incomplete.

You were a part of my everything.

You were a part of something that was inside me .

I not know that why is it that you bother me only that I told you that you don’t.

You bother me by not talking to me. Yes, you did that. I have no clue that all this while that I was traveling to the place I recollected every moment that we had and suddenly I realised that we were looking at the same sky, same stars and same moon but have no idea of what is going on each other’s life. I never wanted this. I never. But, I don’t know what happened!

But, now I’ll have to live with the fact that everything was momentary.

Someday if I’ll see you somewhere I’ll definitely tell you about the trip to Jaisalmer and I’ll also tell you that suddenly all the songs were about you.

Someday I’ll tell you that suddenly your thought stuck me and I remembered that you were with me like 2 months ago.

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Just for once if you read this then let me know what happened?

You came because you wanted to.

You left because you wanted to.

The difference is

When you came I had nothing to do with you but when you left I had something to do with you . It had something to do with me. It had something to do with us.

Just for once if you read this then let me know what happened because remember I once told you I tend to keep people for long run.

Just for once if you read this then let me know what happened because remember I told you I don’t like people if they just disappear for no reason.

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I’ll never question you

I’ll never put you through any of those elaborate explanation

I’ll never say that you played bad

I’ll never demand you to come back

I’ll never ask any of my friends to blow you

I’ll never conclude that all of this was for something disgusting

I’ll never call you from my best friend’s number too

I’ll never wish that something unbearable should happen to you

I’ll never write you texts from now on

I’ll never allow anyone to say a word about you

I’ll still say good things about you

I’ll still say best things about you

But, I want you to know

I never lied when I said I liked talking to you

I never denied that I’ll miss you

I never faked my personality for momentary happiness

I never had thoughts of giving this away

I’ll ask someday

When you and I would be sipping that same coffee

Was it easy for you

Was it acceptable that we don’t talk anymore when we use to talk like every now and then

Was it deniable that you met someone that night

I’ll ask someday

I told you that I don’t give up easily

I told you I tend to keep people for long run

I told you I’ll wait if someone disappears

I told you all of this was never something casual

I told you all of this was something serious

So, I’ll ask you someday that was it just not enough to keep you with me when I told you that this meant something to me

Was it easy to leave me without any explanation

Was it easy to just to do it so easily ?

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It’s all in between

How strange it is that you come across someone just like that.

How unusual it is that you suddenly talk a lot about a person who was nowhere close to you like a week ago.

How unpredictable it is that you make plans to go out with a stranger when you thought that it would only be office and a movie in your schedule.

How bothering it is that you can’t talk much to the person but also can’t help yourself when the person texts you.

How unimaginable it is that you again decide to go out with the same person when you know that you have no clue about what you are going talk about next.

How unacceptable it is that a perfectly misfit conversation on random topics can fit a three hour long talk.

How tough it is to believe that you can give this chance yet again to spend another hour on coffee with the same stranger again.

I know now that stranger can be named as a friend over coffee but, that is what everyone else except for the two would think !

It was all in between.

The stranger came across for a reason. May be I’ll realise it later.

The sudden conversation was just a beginning of another chapter. May be I’ll be able to read it later.

The change in schedule and the addition of a coffee at Starbucks was always a part of the routine. May be I’ll conclude this later.

The increase in the replies was just a way to know if the stranger was the one who can be saved for future times. May be I’ll look into the future later.

The next meeting again at the Starbucks was just a way to know a little more about if this could work. May be I’ll elaborate it someday later.

The random topics were just to spend more time. May be I’ll agree to this in near future.

The next time that I met at the Starbucks I had no clue if this could work better than what was going. May be it just happened so that I could write this right now which back then I thought I’ll write it someday better.

I knew that I was just pushing it to read what is in between.

I knew I was trying something that was offered by the Destiny.

May be I thought I would write about it someday later.

May be I knew something is up in near future.

(Part 2)

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I wish I can get back

I believe that things were meant to be. The Starbucks wasn’t just about the coffee that night. The coffee was not just about the two of us or rather three of us back in the time. The time wasn’t about how he walked up to me and asked if he could join us. The question was not about what was his intention. The intention was not about if he wanted to talk or just wished to grab a chance. The talk was not about what I felt there. The feeling wasn’t about if I thought this could go any further. The thought was not about what made him think that I would say yes for him to join us. The yes was not about to allow him to enter into my life. The life was not about anything close to a fantasy that happened that day. The Starbucks was not about having that moment that actually happened. The moment was not about to go beyond that night. But, it did. I wish I can get back only to understand that what was it all about.

(Part 1)

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It will happen.

I know you must have heard this a lot that “It will happen” but, I also know that the times when you are going through that ‘time’ it’s difficult to retain the trust on this.

You have gathered all the hope, you have submitted to your destiny and you want to believe that the time is coming and that it will happen in the same way you thought that it should happen.

You are all set to get into that time zone where you’ll be the happiest and you’ll feel conquered.

You have already planned your days when this would be over and that would start.

Most importantly, you already have celebrated the time that will happen soon.

You have already measured the happiness that you’ll feel when the thing will happen to you.

It is this.

But, you also fear that what if you break down before you reach the peak. You are afraid to even think about the thing that what if doesn’t happen.

You have lost your appetite.

You have given up sleeping peacefully because mostly you sleep just to sleep as to dream like you did earlier.

You smile because you have to and not because you want to.

You try to think about all good things but that thought “what if...” makes you feel like you never want to.

I know this is all that’s happening now.

I know you feel this.

But, I’ll stay “It will happen”

Wait. It will happen.

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It’s been really long. I humbly request whosoever is indulged in crafting my destiny please make a beautiful craft this time.

May be I’m just dealing with things for one last time.

I’ve stayed enough.

I’ve urged enough.

I’ve dreamt enough.

I’ve lost enough.

I’ve planned enough.

Just this time allow me to smile.

It’s a humble request please prepare the best craft.

[thegoodvybe]

[jackemus]

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I’m sorry if you thought that you share the same, different space.

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“Even at nine years old, I think about how odd it must feel to be famous for your sadness.”

— Phil Kaye, “MR. JONES & ME”

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Let me tell you.

You know about the probability.

You know about the possibility.

You know about the chances.

You know about the circumstances.

You know about the ‘may be’.

You know about ‘why me?’.

You know about ‘how it can happen?’.

You know about ‘ It will happen’.

You know about the prayers.

You know about who actually cares.

You know who is with you in it.

You know who can dig hopes when everything is a misfit.

You know.

I know, that you feel me here.

I know, that you want to believe that it will happen sometime, someday, somewhere.

Let me tell you.

I as a stranger, I’m on the same ship and trust me I’ll pray that it happens with you, it happens to you, it happens for you. In return, I want you to believe that I believe that it will also happen for me, it will also happen to me and it will also happen with me!

| | I wrote this because recently THE MANALI TRIP with my friends is ‘almost’ not happening anytime soon. But, this is what everyone believes. I don’t know but, I believe that it will happen. Even if it doesn’t happen I’m happy that I got a chance to think that it would happen. So dear strange, believe me that I still believe. | |

-Pratima Ratwani

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We live in a small, very small world.

Don’t just be with someone because you feel alone or you want to fill that gap !

-from a recent video