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it's a lovely little spider dem☼n in the bΔck half of its 20s. by following you eagerly consent to be a part of whatever experiments i decide to run on my audience.

[spiralatria]

[spiralatria]

sorry but the popular girl who made this cool blog has died and turned to rot (oh no!) this post is being made by the cool and awesome worms that are eating her corpse (yum!) but im afraid to say she's not around anymore and im worried you'll be upset i'm not her (uh oh!) and i was gonna just pretend to be her and hope you wouldn't notice but then i found out she was doing the exact same thing for whoever the hell she ate to be alive (omg twins) and it makes me wonder if i got that idea from eating her or if it is just the obvious play when you wake up with access to another girl's tumblr account

[spiralatria]

lol no one told her i respawn that's fucked

[wiki-but-made-them-up]

[spiralatria]

hey now im not allowed to call it being back in business until im posting my drawings again

[spiralatria]

I've been off tungle for a couple months and went to check for updates on Anwen and the bookmark I had was broken T_T Is everything ok? Did something happen to the website?

during the long weeks of surgery recovery, the boredom of rest pushed the productive and ambitious parts of my self - you know her as pandora - into a sort of psychological dormancy. the budding restgirl i’d been building as an attempt to balance my urge to unceasingly perform the Work came to life, managing my daily affairs and spending a lot of time lying down. i love her a lot and getting to know her has been a beautiful chapter in our life. she’s having to do less work as i’ve been healing beautifully, but i’m sure i’ll see her again when i get my pussy installed (hopefully) later this year.

during one of our long internal dialogues, we examined how i’d approached art and the performance of my existence online and how these things intertwine. we did a lot of postmortem examination of girl comic and why it died in me. it’s she who talked me into closing the subscribestar as to untether my art from a profit motive, and it’s she who convinced me that if i am to have a website, it should be more than what it was.

i took this rather immaturely as i was quite depressed at the time, and so i just renamed the main index page of the site something else as to take it down so i didn’t have to think about it. i’d love to rebuild it nicer. we’ll see if i can learn enough web dev stuff as to make something up to my own standards.

…or i’ll put it off til i inevitably spew another comic and am forced by audience pressure to make it accessible and readable outside of tumblr. who can say?

[spiralatria]

i was worried you were banned and found today that you've only stopped posting

i hope this ask finds you well, and that you continue to be if it does

oh im fine ive just been chillin

[spiralatria]

lately i've been getting really into necromancy

[spiralatria]

i'm dyeing my hair a new color right before returning to work after months of top surgery recovery and im excited to see if people mention my hair or my f cups more

[spiralatria]

its been a hell of a week! pass the ego death

[spiralatria]

this sucks i need to k- [remembers that having a large audience means that genuine vent posts will be inherently misconstrued misinterpreted and just generally misread, and will also be both over and under reacted to by people who think they have a good read on me by how i touch my computer, and also remembers the impressionable dolls in the audience who hungrily eat any piece of my self that i leave in their range] portray my suffering in a relatable and funny manner while putting a positive spin on it as to have a healthy impact on the lives of my fans ✌️😁

[spiralatria]

its been a hell of a week! pass the ego death

[spiralatria]

FULL MOON TONIGHT AND WHAT DO I GET? CLOUDS.

[spiralatria]

the moon is a friend who can help with secrets

[spiralatria]

the girl who doubts: honestly what the fuck am i doing with my life this is stupid and pointless i should just sink into the dissociation of daily routine

the girl who can find meaning in an empty space:

[swagophile]

im adding a new phase of life in between adolesence and adulthood called "cutehood" or "the cute zone" where you become really cute and sweet and nice and kind to everyone you meet and also im pushing back adulthood til youre like 70 so most of your life is gonna be in the cute zone where youre really cuteness

[spiralatria]

the moon is a friend who can help with secrets

[spiralatria]

sorry but the popular girl who made this cool blog has died and turned to rot (oh no!) this post is being made by the cool and awesome worms that are eating her corpse (yum!) but im afraid to say she's not around anymore and im worried you'll be upset i'm not her (uh oh!) and i was gonna just pretend to be her and hope you wouldn't notice but then i found out she was doing the exact same thing for whoever the hell she ate to be alive (omg twins) and it makes me wonder if i got that idea from eating her or if it is just the obvious play when you wake up with access to another girl's tumblr account

[spiralatria]

see when spiralatria was first born it was a spawn of the me that was entirely separate from irl and my friends and who knows me and all that and that was so so so freeing and lovely and awesome and though in the months since then ive made so many awesome friends and had so many great experiences and yet now it's the blog where i stopped doing that comic and got cursed that one time and a bunch of people know who i am irl and it totally changes the vibe yknow?

[spiralatria]

ah but if i just run away and start another blog it's not like this is gonna change like either i stay totally anonymous and never feel connection through my work or i slowly bleed affection into the account and become known and thus seen and i've never really found the balance yknow? how do other artists do this

[spiralatria]

or maybe i divorce my need to make art from my need to find connection? it's not like i am lacking it these days - i haven't drawn anything awesome in ages and yet girls still talk to me. maybe i'm assuming too much of this hobby

[spiralatria]

sorry but the popular girl who made this cool blog has died and turned to rot (oh no!) this post is being made by the cool and awesome worms that are eating her corpse (yum!) but im afraid to say she's not around anymore and im worried you'll be upset i'm not her (uh oh!) and i was gonna just pretend to be her and hope you wouldn't notice but then i found out she was doing the exact same thing for whoever the hell she ate to be alive (omg twins) and it makes me wonder if i got that idea from eating her or if it is just the obvious play when you wake up with access to another girl's tumblr account

[spiralatria]

see when spiralatria was first born it was a spawn of the me that was entirely separate from irl and my friends and who knows me and all that and that was so so so freeing and lovely and awesome and though in the months since then ive made so many awesome friends and had so many great experiences and yet now it's the blog where i stopped doing that comic and got cursed that one time and a bunch of people know who i am irl and it totally changes the vibe yknow?

[spiralatria]

ah but if i just run away and start another blog it's not like this is gonna change like either i stay totally anonymous and never feel connection through my work or i slowly bleed affection into the account and become known and thus seen and i've never really found the balance yknow? how do other artists do this

[spiralatria]

sorry but the popular girl who made this cool blog has died and turned to rot (oh no!) this post is being made by the cool and awesome worms that are eating her corpse (yum!) but im afraid to say she's not around anymore and im worried you'll be upset i'm not her (uh oh!) and i was gonna just pretend to be her and hope you wouldn't notice but then i found out she was doing the exact same thing for whoever the hell she ate to be alive (omg twins) and it makes me wonder if i got that idea from eating her or if it is just the obvious play when you wake up with access to another girl's tumblr account

[spiralatria]

see when spiralatria was first born it was a spawn of the me that was entirely separate from irl and my friends and who knows me and all that and that was so so so freeing and lovely and awesome and though in the months since then ive made so many awesome friends and had so many great experiences and yet now it's the blog where i stopped doing that comic and got cursed that one time and a bunch of people know who i am irl and it totally changes the vibe yknow?