[spirit-caesar]

Call me Spirit

23. I don't use pronouns

My main blog is @spiritcaesar

This is a sideblog for my spiritual and religious experiences and work (under #personal experiences tag) as well as anything related to the deities I work with (tagged by name)

More casual posts that I would've put on my main blog but am putting on here because of the contents are under #mainposting

I work with energies and specialize in expulsion and protection

I've been mentored by the Overseers of the primordial energies and base my practice and work on Their teachings. I refer to Them as gods because it's easier

I also work with the following deities: Anubis, Apollo, Baphomet, and Loki

You are welcome to ask about anything regarding my practice you're interested in but please understand that I may not be allowed to answer everything (or answer into as much detail as I would've wanted)

And I think this goes without saying but please be respectful 👍 I don't care what your beliefs are and I'm not here to convince anyone into mine, but please extend the same courtesy to me as well and do not try to trivialize my beliefs

[fairycosmos]

ive been so lucky in so many ways and im also deeply doomed

[ovur]

Shut the fuck up about feminine and masculine energy

[creature-wizard]

Eugenicist and bioessentialist beliefs about magic

Like New Age, modern witchcraft developed at a time period when eugenics and so-called race science were highly popular ideas - and consequentially, some of these ideas influenced people’s beliefs about magic. These beliefs also influenced modern conspiracy theories about the occult, which in turn influenced perceptions of magic in general. Here’s some of these beliefs:

People are either born with magical gifts, or they’ll never have them at all.

People born with magical gifts are meant to be spiritual leaders and guide the world into a new age.

There are special bloodlines whose members are more capable of performing magic than others.

People who can perform magic are able to do so only because they have special ancestry.

Some racial groups are more capable of performing magic than others.

Some bloodlines or racial groups are more capable of performing certain kinds of magic than others (EG, so-called “light magic” or “dark magic”).

The traditions of your genetic ancestors will always come to you easily and intuitively, with little to no study required. (And if they don’t, you aren’t a “true witch.”)

Modern witchcraft was also hit by the gender essentialism stick, and claims that come from this line of thinking include:

Magic requires or at least massively benefits from some performance or symbolic representation of heterosexuality or heteronormativity; other forms of magic will be inherently weaker.

Literally all magic is a recreation of heterosexual reproduction.

The womb is a woman’s most potent source of magic.

There are only two important deities: the god and the goddess.

All goddesses represent the divine mother archetype, all gods represent the divine father archetype.

Feminine energies are soft and nurturing, masculine entities are aggressive and bold.

Masculine energies are too strong in the world, and are the reason for imperialism, violence, etc. The imbalance can be corrected by focusing on feminine energies.

So yeah, always watch out for claims like this because they don’t come from a good place.

[tlirsgender]

You are not the daughter of the witches they couldn't burn you are a white woman with a rock collection and wicca was invented in the 1950s

[tlirsgender]

I have a little spiritual woowoo to me so I Am familiar with some freaky neopagan/new age/etc stuff & every time I'd be like "hmm I'm getting a weird vibe from all the bioessentialist gender fertility stuff, what's up with that?" & I'd look it up & it's like "the founder made all of this up based on appropriating other cultures he didn't understand as well as fabricating historical documents, to make as many women have sex with him as possible" & I say Oh ok. And this is like really easily accessible information but people are still being grifted into buying penis candles for their fake ancient rituals

[tlirsgender]

That's the thing yknow not just with wicca but with anybody telling you they can sell you spiritual enlightenment. They can't. They're selling you penis candles and self help books & then it's just a racist sex cult again. You have to find spiritual enlightenment yourself. By being insane, like me

[spirit-caesar]

Anubis scared the cicada into shutting up

[spiritcaesar]

Every so often I will still get gripped by the urge to conform, to just give up and get a partner so my life can start to unfold along the expected tracks, which is then immediately followed by every cell in my body screaming "YOU DON'T WANT THIS" and it snaps me out of it again. But it keeps happening

[spirit-caesar]

At some point a few months ago I picked up my tarot again to see if the gods have anything to say about this and the results I got were so incredibly validating that at least I'm able to dismiss my panicking sufficiently now. Instead of worrying about it constantly in the back of my mind

[spirit-caesar]

Energy I use in cleansing has to go through me first and it ended up making my stomach ache a little better... W

[spirit-caesar]

For everything else a probiotic works

[spirit-caesar]

Energy I use in cleansing has to go through me first and it ended up making my stomach ache a little better... W

[spiritcaesar]

Oh they gave anubis a voice...surprisingly it actually suits him a lot imo

[spiritcaesar]

Here, the only line in the entire game

[spirit-caesar]

When I was playing through this, and generally the entire aaru area specifically, I must've been thinking about anubis incredibly intensely because at one point I became aware of a Very Obvious Presence standing behind my chair and looking over my shoulder. He came to see what I was doing that made me think of him so hard that I summoned him

[spirit-caesar]

Fixing my crown like a car at the mechanic

[spirit-caesar]

For the first time I experienced that both the client who personally hired me and their WHOLE FAMILY were looking forward to meeting me and seeing me work. Usually the partner is a sceptic and I have to spend significantly more time explaining everything so this was a really pleasant experience. The kids have apparently been talking non stop about me since the parents told them I was coming, and they live in the same house as the grandparents who were also happy to see me! Really strange experience I'm used to people being pretty hostile

[spirit-caesar]

I am just now realizing that all of the deities that came forward to want to work with me did so with the intention of protecting and healing me. Like my entire life I spent looking up to various war deities, and I think I talked about this before but I was then taken aback by the fact that the ones that came forward had very little if nothing at all to do with fighting. Only now did it dawn on me that it's because I'm the one doing all the fighting, and am also a colossal glass cannon so the external protection and healing is life saving 😬👍

[spirit-caesar]

Throwback to when I went in for top surgery to the main hospital in the country that's packed full with lost spirits and various demons and just general negative energy and when I woke back up from anesthesia the first thing I remember is the voice of Baphomet grumbling something along the lines of "finally", "there you go", and "I protected your body while you were out"

We've never had any kind of contact prior to this, and they've very averse to it + just generally the idea of being revered, but they still went out of their way to help me

[spirit-caesar]

I am just now realizing that all of the deities that came forward to want to work with me did so with the intention of protecting and healing me. Like my entire life I spent looking up to various war deities, and I think I talked about this before but I was then taken aback by the fact that the ones that came forward had very little if nothing at all to do with fighting. Only now did it dawn on me that it's because I'm the one doing all the fighting, and am also a colossal glass cannon so the external protection and healing is life saving 😬👍

[spirit-caesar]

Too often do I forget that I, a healer, am capable of healing myself

[spirit-caesar]

I find it really funny that whenever I'm at my lowest, my guardian and co scramble for anything that remotely resembles a solution to increase my mood. Anything from "hey remember that one time your friend said something really funny" to getting some upbeat music that I haven't listened to in months to play in my head to "maybe you should jerk off" to straight up beaming "videos" of cute animals into my brain

[spirit-caesar]

Good luck

[spirit-caesar]