Awakening and reawakening
Some of my powers began manifesting when I was 16 and still at school. My ability to tap into other peoples emotions and feel them on top of my own began to cause problems around exam time because the level of stress I was feeling became cripplingly painful. I couldn't register all the emotions which I was being bombarded with on a mental level so began succumbing to physical pain was the only way I could stay conscious. This worked for a while until the physical pain began making me sick to the point where I couldn't eat I was in too much pain in my stomach.
At this point I decided I needed to focus different peoples emotions on different parts of my body, so when different areas hurt I knew who I was feeling. This worked for a while. At that point - after the exams finished - I realised that I could begin to control what I was feeling and really focus on one person. It just so happened that my boyfriend broke up with me not long after I figured this out.
It was a really difficult time for me, for myself emotionally, but I was still channelling other peoples emotions and I could not cope with the pain which I was feeling myself so I began to shut myself off emotionally from my physical form.
By purposely not feeling my own emotions I became more aware of what it felt like to have other peoples feelings inside my mind. At first it was an odd sensation, the feeling of happiness or anger drifting in to me without any obvious cause. But with a little practice I could feel the light or energy from the emotion and usually trace it back to the person who had emitted it.
This worked well for when I was searching for someones emotion, I could just follow their light and I could find them. The issue with that was it had to be someone I was exceptionally close to or someone who was willing to accept my energy investigating theirs. I had one friend who lived quite a few miles away and I used to practice telling him what he was feeling without him giving me any clues.
Once I had got to the point where I was telling him what he was feeling accurately every single time no matter how far away from me he was physically we began trying to see if I could pin point why he was feeling the way he was. This took a lot of time and a lot of practice but I was enjoying learning about my extra ability and how it felt to have the power to help my friends in this way.
That was; until I had the dream which changed everything. I dreamt that the girl my ex was now with was going to cheat on him.
He must have felt me try to reach out to him subconsciously that night because after I had that dream he started talking to me again; however, he manipulated my feelings for him in such a way that I lost touch with whatever had been awakened inside of me allowing me the magnificent gift of psychic empathy.
That dream came true by the way, almost exactly how I had predicted it. He told me the story many months later, but I already knew what had happened because I had seen it all before.
This all happened 5 years ago. The other week I fainted and hit my head really hard off the concrete; along with some other really emotionally traumatic things happening around the same time has awakened my connection to my powers and has brought with it awareness of other gifts I may posses. I am now trying to learn to control my empathy and discover what other gifts I have been blessed with.
I hope writing my story on here will help me make sense of everything which is going on with me.
